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Title: Frankenstein; Or, The Modern Prometheus
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Author: Mary Wollstonecraft Shelley
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FRANKENSTEIN;
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OR,
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THE MODERN PROMETHEUS.
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IN THREE VOLUMES.
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VOL. I.
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London:
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_PRINTED FOR_
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LACKINGTON, HUGHES, HARDING, MAVOR, & JONES,
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FINSBURY SQUARE.
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1818.
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* * * * *
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Did I request thee, Maker, from my clay
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To mould me man? Did I solicit thee
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From darkness to promote me?——
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Paradise Lost.
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* * * * *
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_TO_
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WILLIAM GODWIN,
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_AUTHOR OF POLITICAL JUSTICE, CALEB WILLIAMS, &c._
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THESE VOLUMES
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_Are respectfully inscribed_
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BY
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THE AUTHOR.
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PREFACE.
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The event on which this fiction is founded has been supposed, by Dr.
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Darwin, and some of the physiological writers of Germany, as not of
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impossible occurrence. I shall not be supposed as according the remotest
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degree of serious faith to such an imagination; yet, in assuming it as
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the basis of a work of fancy, I have not considered myself as merely
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weaving a series of supernatural terrors. The event on which the
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interest of the story depends is exempt from the disadvantages of a mere
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tale of spectres or enchantment. It was recommended by the novelty of
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the situations which it developes; and, however impossible as a physical
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fact, affords a point of view to the imagination for the delineating of
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human passions more comprehensive and commanding than any which the
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ordinary relations of existing events can yield.
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I have thus endeavoured to preserve the truth of the elementary
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principles of human nature, while I have not scrupled to innovate
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upon their combinations. The _Iliad_, the tragic poetry of
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Greece,—Shakespeare, in the _Tempest_ and _Midsummer Night’s
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Dream_,—and most especially Milton, in _Paradise Lost_, conform to this
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rule; and the most humble novelist, who seeks to confer or receive
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amusement from his labours, may, without presumption, apply to prose
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fiction a licence, or rather a rule, from the adoption of which so many
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exquisite combinations of human feeling have resulted in the highest
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specimens of poetry.
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The circumstance on which my story rests was suggested in casual
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conversation. It was commenced, partly as a source of amusement, and
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partly as an expedient for exercising any untried resources of mind.
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Other motives were mingled with these, as the work proceeded. I am by no
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means indifferent to the manner in which whatever moral tendencies exist
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in the sentiments or characters it contains shall affect the reader; yet
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my chief concern in this respect has been limited to the avoiding of the
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enervating effects of the novels of the present day, and to the
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exhibitions of the amiableness of domestic affection, and the excellence
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of universal virtue. The opinions which naturally spring from the
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character and situation of the hero are by no means to be conceived as
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existing always in my own conviction; nor is any inference justly to be
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drawn from the following pages as prejudicing any philosophical doctrine
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of whatever kind.
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It is a subject also of additional interest to the author, that this
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story was begun in the majestic region where the scene is principally
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laid, and in society which cannot cease to be regretted. I passed the
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summer of 1816 in the environs of Geneva. The season was cold and rainy,
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and in the evenings we crowded around a blazing wood fire, and
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occasionally amused ourselves with some German stories of ghosts, which
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happened to fall into our hands. These tales excited in us a playful
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desire of imitation. Two other friends (a tale from the pen of one of
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whom would be far more acceptable to the public than any thing I can
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ever hope to produce) and myself agreed to write each a story, founded
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on some supernatural occurrence.
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The weather, however, suddenly became serene; and my two friends left me
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on a journey among the Alps, and lost, in the magnificent scenes which
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they present, all memory of their ghostly visions. The following tale is
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the only one which has been completed.
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FRANKENSTEIN;
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OR, THE
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_MODERN PROMETHEUS._
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LETTER I.
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_To Mrs._ SAVILLE, _England_.
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St. Petersburgh, Dec. 11th, 17—.
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You will rejoice to hear that no disaster has accompanied the
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commencement of an enterprise which you have regarded with such evil
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forebodings. I arrived here yesterday; and my first task is to assure my
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dear sister of my welfare, and increasing confidence in the success of
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my undertaking.
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I am already far north of London; and as I walk in the streets of
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Petersburgh, I feel a cold northern breeze play upon my cheeks, which
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braces my nerves, and fills me with delight. Do you understand this
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feeling? This breeze, which has travelled from the regions towards which
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I am advancing, gives me a foretaste of those icy climes. Inspirited by
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this wind of promise, my day dreams become more fervent and vivid. I try
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in vain to be persuaded that the pole is the seat of frost and
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desolation; it ever presents itself to my imagination as the region of
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beauty and delight. There, Margaret, the sun is for ever visible; its
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broad disk just skirting the horizon, and diffusing a perpetual
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splendour. There—for with your leave, my sister, I will put some trust
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in preceding navigators—there snow and frost are banished; and, sailing
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over a calm sea, we may be wafted to a land surpassing in wonders and in
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beauty every region hitherto discovered on the habitable globe. Its
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productions and features may be without example, as the phænomena of the
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heavenly bodies undoubtedly are in those undiscovered solitudes. What
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may not be expected in a country of eternal light? I may there discover
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the wondrous power which attracts the needle; and may regulate a
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thousand celestial observations, that require only this voyage to render
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their seeming eccentricities consistent for ever. I shall satiate my
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ardent curiosity with the sight of a part of the world never before
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visited, and may tread a land never before imprinted by the foot of man.
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These are my enticements, and they are sufficient to conquer all fear of
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danger or death, and to induce me to commence this laborious voyage with
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the joy a child feels when he embarks in a little boat, with his holiday
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mates, on an expedition of discovery up his native river. But, supposing
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all these conjectures to be false, you cannot contest the inestimable
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benefit which I shall confer on all mankind to the last generation, by
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discovering a passage near the pole to those countries, to reach which
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at present so many months are requisite; or by ascertaining the secret
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of the magnet, which, if at all possible, can only be effected by an
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undertaking such as mine.
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These reflections have dispelled the agitation with which I began my
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letter, and I feel my heart glow with an enthusiasm which elevates me to
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heaven; for nothing contributes so much to tranquillize the mind as a
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steady purpose,—a point on which the soul may fix its intellectual eye.
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This expedition has been the favourite dream of my early years. I have
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read with ardour the accounts of the various voyages which have been
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made in the prospect of arriving at the North Pacific Ocean through the
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seas which surround the pole. You may remember, that a history of all
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the voyages made for purposes of discovery composed the whole of our
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good uncle Thomas’s library. My education was neglected, yet I was
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passionately fond of reading. These volumes were my study day and night,
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and my familiarity with them increased that regret which I had felt, as
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a child, on learning that my father’s dying injunction had forbidden my
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uncle to allow me to embark in a sea-faring life.
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These visions faded when I perused, for the first time, those poets
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whose effusions entranced my soul, and lifted it to heaven. I also
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became a poet, and for one year lived in a Paradise of my own creation;
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I imagined that I also might obtain a niche in the temple where the
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names of Homer and Shakespeare are consecrated. You are well acquainted
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with my failure, and how heavily I bore the disappointment. But just at
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that time I inherited the fortune of my cousin, and my thoughts were
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turned into the channel of their earlier bent.
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Six years have passed since I resolved on my present undertaking. I can,
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even now, remember the hour from which I dedicated myself to this great
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enterprise. I commenced by inuring my body to hardship. I accompanied
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the whale-fishers on several expeditions to the North Sea; I voluntarily
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endured cold, famine, thirst, and want of sleep; I often worked harder
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than the common sailors during the day, and devoted my nights to the
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study of mathematics, the theory of medicine, and those branches of
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physical science from which a naval adventurer might derive the greatest
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practical advantage. Twice I actually hired myself as an under-mate in
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a Greenland whaler, and acquitted myself to admiration. I must own I
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felt a little proud, when my captain offered me the second dignity in
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the vessel, and entreated me to remain with the greatest earnestness; so
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valuable did he consider my services.
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And now, dear Margaret, do I not deserve to accomplish some great
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purpose. My life might have been passed in ease and luxury; but I
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preferred glory to every enticement that wealth placed in my path. Oh,
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that some encouraging voice would answer in the affirmative! My courage
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and my resolution is firm; but my hopes fluctuate, and my spirits are
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often depressed. I am about to proceed on a long and difficult voyage;
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the emergencies of which will demand all my fortitude: I am required not
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only to raise the spirits of others, but sometimes to sustain my own,
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when their’s are failing.
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This is the most favourable period for travelling in Russia. They fly
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quickly over the snow in their sledges; the motion is pleasant, and, in
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my opinion, far more agreeable than that of an English stage-coach. The
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cold is not excessive, if you are wrapt in furs, a dress which I have
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already adopted; for there is a great difference between walking the
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deck and remaining seated motionless for hours, when no exercise
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prevents the blood from actually freezing in your veins. I have no
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ambition to lose my life on the post-road between St. Petersburgh and
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Archangel.
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I shall depart for the latter town in a fortnight or three weeks; and my
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intention is to hire a ship there, which can easily be done by paying
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the insurance for the owner, and to engage as many sailors as I think
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necessary among those who are accustomed to the whale-fishing. I do not
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intend to sail until the month of June: and when shall I return? Ah,
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dear sister, how can I answer this question? If I succeed, many, many
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months, perhaps years, will pass before you and I may meet. If I fail,
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you will see me again soon, or never.
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Farewell, my dear, excellent, Margaret. Heaven shower down blessings on
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you, and save me, that I may again and again testify my gratitude for
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all your love and kindness.
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Your affectionate brother,
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R. WALTON.
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LETTER II.
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_To Mrs._ SAVILLE, _England_.
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Archangel, 28th March, 17—.
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How slowly the time passes here, encompassed as I am by frost and snow;
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yet a second step is taken towards my enterprise. I have hired a vessel,
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and am occupied in collecting my sailors; those whom I have already
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engaged appear to be men on whom I can depend, and are certainly
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possessed of dauntless courage.
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But I have one want which I have never yet been able to satisfy; and the
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absence of the object of which I now feel as a most severe evil. I have
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no friend, Margaret: when I am glowing with the enthusiasm of success,
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there will be none to participate my joy; if I am assailed by
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disappointment, no one will endeavour to sustain me in dejection. I
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shall commit my thoughts to paper, it is true; but that is a poor medium
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for the communication of feeling. I desire the company of a man who
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could sympathize with me; whose eyes would reply to mine. You may deem
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me romantic, my dear sister, but I bitterly feel the want of a friend. I
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have no one near me, gentle yet courageous, possessed of a cultivated as
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well as of a capacious mind, whose tastes are like my own, to approve
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or amend my plans. How would such a friend repair the faults of your
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poor brother! I am too ardent in execution, and too impatient of
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difficulties. But it is a still greater evil to me that I am
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self-educated: for the first fourteen years of my life I ran wild on a
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common, and read nothing but our uncle Thomas’s books of voyages. At
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that age I became acquainted with the celebrated poets of our own
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country; but it was only when it had ceased to be in my power to derive
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its most important benefits from such a conviction, that I perceived the
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necessity of becoming acquainted with more languages than that of my
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native country. Now I am twenty-eight, and am in reality more illiterate
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than many school-boys of fifteen. It is true that I have thought more,
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and that my day dreams are more extended and magnificent; but they want
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(as the painters call it) _keeping_; and I greatly need a friend who
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would have sense enough not to despise me as romantic, and affection
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enough for me to endeavour to regulate my mind.
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Well, these are useless complaints; I shall certainly find no friend on
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the wide ocean, nor even here in Archangel, among merchants and seamen.
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Yet some feelings, unallied to the dross of human nature, beat even in
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these rugged bosoms. My lieutenant, for instance, is a man of wonderful
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courage and enterprise; he is madly desirous of glory. He is an
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Englishman, and in the midst of national and professional prejudices,
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unsoftened by cultivation, retains some of the noblest endowments of
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humanity. I first became acquainted with him on board a whale vessel:
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finding that he was unemployed in this city, I easily engaged him to
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assist in my enterprise.
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The master is a person of an excellent disposition, and is remarkable in
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the ship for his gentleness, and the mildness of his discipline. He is,
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indeed, of so amiable a nature, that he will not hunt (a favourite, and
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almost the only amusement here), because he cannot endure to spill
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blood. He is, moreover, heroically generous. Some years ago he loved a
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young Russian lady, of moderate fortune; and having amassed a
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considerable sum in prize-money, the father of the girl consented to the
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match. He saw his mistress once before the destined ceremony; but she
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was bathed in tears, and, throwing herself at his feet, entreated him to
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spare her, confessing at the same time that she loved another, but that
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he was poor, and that her father would never consent to the union. My
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generous friend reassured the suppliant, and on being informed of the
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name of her lover instantly abandoned his pursuit. He had already bought
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a farm with his money, on which he had designed to pass the remainder of
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his life; but he bestowed the whole on his rival, together with the
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remains of his prize-money to purchase stock, and then himself solicited
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the young woman’s father to consent to her marriage with her lover. But
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the old man decidedly refused, thinking himself bound in honour to my
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friend; who, when he found the father inexorable, quitted his country,
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nor returned until he heard that his former mistress was married
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according to her inclinations. “What a noble fellow!” you will exclaim.
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He is so; but then he has passed all his life on board a vessel, and has
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scarcely an idea beyond the rope and the shroud.
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But do not suppose that, because I complain a little, or because I can
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conceive a consolation for my toils which I may never know, that I am
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wavering in my resolutions. Those are as fixed as fate; and my voyage is
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only now delayed until the weather shall permit my embarkation. The
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winter has been dreadfully severe; but the spring promises well, and it
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is considered as a remarkably early season; so that, perhaps, I may sail
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sooner than I expected. I shall do nothing rashly; you know me
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sufficiently to confide in my prudence and considerateness whenever the
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safety of others is committed to my care.
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I cannot describe to you my sensations on the near prospect of my
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undertaking. It is impossible to communicate to you a conception of the
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trembling sensation, half pleasurable and half fearful, with which I am
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preparing to depart. I am going to unexplored regions, to “the land of
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mist and snow;” but I shall kill no albatross, therefore do not be
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alarmed for my safety.
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Shall I meet you again, after having traversed immense seas, and
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returned by the most southern cape of Africa or America? I dare not
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expect such success, yet I cannot bear to look on the reverse of the
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picture. Continue to write to me by every opportunity: I may receive
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your letters (though the chance is very doubtful) on some occasions when
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I need them most to support my spirits. I love you very tenderly.
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Remember me with affection, should you never hear from me again.
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Your affectionate brother,
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ROBERT WALTON.
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LETTER III.
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_To Mrs._ SAVILLE, _England_.
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July 7th, 17—.
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MY DEAR SISTER,
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I write a few lines in haste, to say that I am safe, and well advanced
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on my voyage. This letter will reach England by a merchant-man now on
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its homeward voyage from Archangel; more fortunate than I, who may not
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see my native land, perhaps, for many years. I am, however, in good
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spirits: my men are bold, and apparently firm of purpose; nor do the
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floating sheets of ice that continually pass us, indicating the dangers
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of the region towards which we are advancing, appear to dismay them. We
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have already reached a very high latitude; but it is the height of
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summer, and although not so warm as in England, the southern gales,
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which blow us speedily towards those shores which I so ardently desire
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to attain, breathe a degree of renovating warmth which I had not
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expected.
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No incidents have hitherto befallen us, that would make a figure in a
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letter. One or two stiff gales, and the breaking of a mast, are
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accidents which experienced navigators scarcely remember to record; and
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I shall be well content, if nothing worse happen to us during our
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voyage.
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Adieu, my dear Margaret. Be assured, that for my own sake, as well as
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your’s, I will not rashly encounter danger. I will be cool, persevering,
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and prudent.
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Remember me to all my English friends.
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Most affectionately yours,
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R. W.
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LETTER IV.
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_To Mrs._ SAVILLE, _England_.
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August 5th, 17—.
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So strange an accident has happened to us, that I cannot forbear
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recording it, although it is very probable that you will see me before
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these papers can come into your possession.
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Last Monday (July 31st), we were nearly surrounded by ice, which closed
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in the ship on all sides, scarcely leaving her the sea room in which she
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floated. Our situation was somewhat dangerous, especially as we were
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compassed round by a very thick fog. We accordingly lay to, hoping that
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some change would take place in the atmosphere and weather.
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About two o’clock the mist cleared away, and we beheld, stretched out in
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every direction, vast and irregular plains of ice, which seemed to have
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no end. Some of my comrades groaned, and my own mind began to grow
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watchful with anxious thoughts, when a strange sight suddenly attracted
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our attention, and diverted our solicitude from our own situation. We
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perceived a low carriage, fixed on a sledge and drawn by dogs, pass on
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towards the north, at the distance of half a mile: a being which had the
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shape of a man, but apparently of gigantic stature, sat in the sledge,
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and guided the dogs. We watched the rapid progress of the traveller
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with our telescopes, until he was lost among the distant inequalities of
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the ice.
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This appearance excited our unqualified wonder. We were, as we believed,
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many hundred miles from any land; but this apparition seemed to denote
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that it was not, in reality, so distant as we had supposed. Shut in,
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however, by ice, it was impossible to follow his track, which we had
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observed with the greatest attention.
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About two hours after this occurrence, we heard the ground sea; and
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before night the ice broke, and freed our ship. We, however, lay to
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until the morning, fearing to encounter in the dark those large loose
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masses which float about after the breaking up of the ice. I profited of
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this time to rest for a few hours.
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In the morning, however, as soon as it was light, I went upon deck, and
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found all the sailors busy on one side of the vessel, apparently talking
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to some one in the sea. It was, in fact, a sledge, like that we had seen
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before, which had drifted towards us in the night, on a large fragment
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of ice. Only one dog remained alive; but there was a human being within
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it, whom the sailors were persuading to enter the vessel. He was not, as
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the other traveller seemed to be, a savage inhabitant of some
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undiscovered island, but an European. When I appeared on deck, the
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master said, “Here is our captain, and he will not allow you to perish
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on the open sea.”
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On perceiving me, the stranger addressed me in English, although with a
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foreign accent. “Before I come on board your vessel,” said he, “will you
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have the kindness to inform me whither you are bound?”
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You may conceive my astonishment on hearing such a question addressed to
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me from a man on the brink of destruction, and to whom I should have
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supposed that my vessel would have been a resource which he would not
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have exchanged for the most precious wealth the earth can afford. I
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replied, however, that we were on a voyage of discovery towards the
|
||
northern pole.
|
||
|
||
Upon hearing this he appeared satisfied, and consented to come on board.
|
||
Good God! Margaret, if you had seen the man who thus capitulated for his
|
||
safety, your surprise would have been boundless. His limbs were nearly
|
||
frozen, and his body dreadfully emaciated by fatigue and suffering. I
|
||
never saw a man in so wretched a condition. We attempted to carry him
|
||
into the cabin; but as soon as he had quitted the fresh air, he fainted.
|
||
We accordingly brought him back to the deck, and restored him to
|
||
animation by rubbing him with brandy, and forcing him to swallow a small
|
||
quantity. As soon as he shewed signs of life, we wrapped him up in
|
||
blankets, and placed him near the chimney of the kitchen-stove. By slow
|
||
degrees he recovered, and ate a little soup, which restored him
|
||
wonderfully.
|
||
|
||
Two days passed in this manner before he was able to speak; and I often
|
||
feared that his sufferings had deprived him of understanding. When he
|
||
had in some measure recovered, I removed him to my own cabin, and
|
||
attended on him as much as my duty would permit. I never saw a more
|
||
interesting creature: his eyes have generally an expression of wildness,
|
||
and even madness; but there are moments when, if any one performs an act
|
||
of kindness towards him, or does him any the most trifling service, his
|
||
whole countenance is lighted up, as it were, with a beam of benevolence
|
||
and sweetness that I never saw equalled. But he is generally melancholy
|
||
and despairing; and sometimes he gnashes his teeth, as if impatient of
|
||
the weight of woes that oppresses him.
|
||
|
||
When my guest was a little recovered, I had great trouble to keep off
|
||
the men, who wished to ask him a thousand questions; but I would not
|
||
allow him to be tormented by their idle curiosity, in a state of body
|
||
and mind whose restoration evidently depended upon entire repose. Once,
|
||
however, the lieutenant asked, Why he had come so far upon the ice in so
|
||
strange a vehicle?
|
||
|
||
His countenance instantly assumed an aspect of the deepest gloom; and he
|
||
replied, “To seek one who fled from me.”
|
||
|
||
“And did the man whom you pursued travel in the same fashion?”
|
||
|
||
“Yes.”
|
||
|
||
“Then I fancy we have seen him; for, the day before we picked you up, we
|
||
saw some dogs drawing a sledge, with a man in it, across the ice.”
|
||
|
||
This aroused the stranger’s attention; and he asked a multitude of
|
||
questions concerning the route which the dæmon, as he called him, had
|
||
pursued. Soon after, when he was alone with me, he said, “I have,
|
||
doubtless, excited your curiosity, as well as that of these good people;
|
||
but you are too considerate to make inquiries.”
|
||
|
||
“Certainly; it would indeed be very impertinent and inhuman in me to
|
||
trouble you with any inquisitiveness of mine.”
|
||
|
||
“And yet you rescued me from a strange and perilous situation; you have
|
||
benevolently restored me to life.”
|
||
|
||
Soon after this he inquired, if I thought that the breaking up of the
|
||
ice had destroyed the other sledge? I replied, that I could not answer
|
||
with any degree of certainty; for the ice had not broken until near
|
||
midnight, and the traveller might have arrived at a place of safety
|
||
before that time; but of this I could not judge.
|
||
|
||
From this time the stranger seemed very eager to be upon deck, to watch
|
||
for the sledge which had before appeared; but I have persuaded him to
|
||
remain in the cabin, for he is far too weak to sustain the rawness of
|
||
the atmosphere. But I have promised that some one should watch for him,
|
||
and give him instant notice if any new object should appear in sight.
|
||
|
||
Such is my journal of what relates to this strange occurrence up to the
|
||
present day. The stranger has gradually improved in health, but is very
|
||
silent, and appears uneasy when any one except myself enters his cabin.
|
||
Yet his manners are so conciliating and gentle, that the sailors are all
|
||
interested in him, although they have had very little communication with
|
||
him. For my own part, I begin to love him as a brother; and his constant
|
||
and deep grief fills me with sympathy and compassion. He must have been
|
||
a noble creature in his better days, being even now in wreck so
|
||
attractive and amiable.
|
||
|
||
I said in one of my letters, my dear Margaret, that I should find no
|
||
friend on the wide ocean; yet I have found a man who, before his spirit
|
||
had been broken by misery, I should have been happy to have possessed as
|
||
the brother of my heart.
|
||
|
||
I shall continue my journal concerning the stranger at intervals, should
|
||
I have any fresh incidents to record.
|
||
|
||
* * * * *
|
||
|
||
August 13th, 17—.
|
||
|
||
My affection for my guest increases every day. He excites at once my
|
||
admiration and my pity to an astonishing degree. How can I see so noble
|
||
a creature destroyed by misery without feeling the most poignant grief?
|
||
He is so gentle, yet so wise; his mind is so cultivated; and when he
|
||
speaks, although his words are culled with the choicest art, yet they
|
||
flow with rapidity and unparalleled eloquence.
|
||
|
||
He is now much recovered from his illness, and is continually on the
|
||
deck, apparently watching for the sledge that preceded his own. Yet,
|
||
although unhappy, he is not so utterly occupied by his own misery, but
|
||
that he interests himself deeply in the employments of others. He has
|
||
asked me many questions concerning my design; and I have related my
|
||
little history frankly to him. He appeared pleased with the confidence,
|
||
and suggested several alterations in my plan, which I shall find
|
||
exceedingly useful. There is no pedantry in his manner; but all he does
|
||
appears to spring solely from the interest he instinctively takes in the
|
||
welfare of those who surround him. He is often overcome by gloom, and
|
||
then he sits by himself, and tries to overcome all that is sullen or
|
||
unsocial in his humour. These paroxysms pass from him like a cloud from
|
||
before the sun, though his dejection never leaves him. I have
|
||
endeavoured to win his confidence; and I trust that I have succeeded.
|
||
One day I mentioned to him the desire I had always felt of finding a
|
||
friend who might sympathize with me, and direct me by his counsel. I
|
||
said, I did not belong to that class of men who are offended by advice.
|
||
“I am self-educated, and perhaps I hardly rely sufficiently upon my own
|
||
powers. I wish therefore that my companion should be wiser and more
|
||
experienced than myself, to confirm and support me; nor have I believed
|
||
it impossible to find a true friend.”
|
||
|
||
“I agree with you,” replied the stranger, “in believing that friendship
|
||
is not only a desirable, but a possible acquisition. I once had a
|
||
friend, the most noble of human creatures, and am entitled, therefore,
|
||
to judge respecting friendship. You have hope, and the world before you,
|
||
and have no cause for despair. But I——I have lost every thing, and
|
||
cannot begin life anew.”
|
||
|
||
As he said this, his countenance became expressive of a calm settled
|
||
grief, that touched me to the heart. But he was silent, and presently
|
||
retired to his cabin.
|
||
|
||
Even broken in spirit as he is, no one can feel more deeply than he does
|
||
the beauties of nature. The starry sky, the sea, and every sight
|
||
afforded by these wonderful regions, seems still to have the power of
|
||
elevating his soul from earth. Such a man has a double existence: he may
|
||
suffer misery, and be overwhelmed by disappointments; yet when he has
|
||
retired into himself, he will be like a celestial spirit, that has a
|
||
halo around him, within whose circle no grief or folly ventures.
|
||
|
||
Will you laugh at the enthusiasm I express concerning this divine
|
||
wanderer? If you do, you must have certainly lost that simplicity which
|
||
was once your characteristic charm. Yet, if you will, smile at the
|
||
warmth of my expressions, while I find every day new causes for
|
||
repeating them.
|
||
|
||
* * * * *
|
||
|
||
August 19th, 17—.
|
||
|
||
Yesterday the stranger said to me, “You may easily perceive, Captain
|
||
Walton, that I have suffered great and unparalleled misfortunes. I had
|
||
determined, once, that the memory of these evils should die with me; but
|
||
you have won me to alter my determination. You seek for knowledge and
|
||
wisdom, as I once did; and I ardently hope that the gratification of
|
||
your wishes may not be a serpent to sting you, as mine has been. I do
|
||
not know that the relation of my misfortunes will be useful to you, yet,
|
||
if you are inclined, listen to my tale. I believe that the strange
|
||
incidents connected with it will afford a view of nature, which may
|
||
enlarge your faculties and understanding. You will hear of powers and
|
||
occurrences, such as you have been accustomed to believe impossible: but
|
||
I do not doubt that my tale conveys in its series internal evidence of
|
||
the truth of the events of which it is composed.”
|
||
|
||
You may easily conceive that I was much gratified by the offered
|
||
communication; yet I could not endure that he should renew his grief by
|
||
a recital of his misfortunes. I felt the greatest eagerness to hear the
|
||
promised narrative, partly from curiosity, and partly from a strong
|
||
desire to ameliorate his fate, if it were in my power. I expressed these
|
||
feelings in my answer.
|
||
|
||
“I thank you,” he replied, “for your sympathy, but it is useless; my
|
||
fate is nearly fulfilled. I wait but for one event, and then I shall
|
||
repose in peace. I understand your feeling,” continued he, perceiving
|
||
that I wished to interrupt him; “but you are mistaken, my friend, if
|
||
thus you will allow me to name you; nothing can alter my destiny: listen
|
||
to my history, and you will perceive how irrevocably it is determined.”
|
||
|
||
He then told me, that he would commence his narrative the next day when
|
||
I should be at leisure. This promise drew from me the warmest thanks. I
|
||
have resolved every night, when I am not engaged, to record, as nearly
|
||
as possible in his own words, what he has related during the day. If I
|
||
should be engaged, I will at least make notes. This manuscript will
|
||
doubtless afford you the greatest pleasure: but to me, who know him, and
|
||
who hear it from his own lips, with what interest and sympathy shall I
|
||
read it in some future day!
|
||
|
||
|
||
|
||
|
||
FRANKENSTEIN;
|
||
|
||
OR,
|
||
|
||
THE MODERN PROMETHEUS.
|
||
|
||
|
||
|
||
|
||
CHAPTER I.
|
||
|
||
|
||
I am by birth a Genevese; and my family is one of the most distinguished
|
||
of that republic. My ancestors had been for many years counsellors and
|
||
syndics; and my father had filled several public situations with honour
|
||
and reputation. He was respected by all who knew him for his integrity
|
||
and indefatigable attention to public business. He passed his younger
|
||
days perpetually occupied by the affairs of his country; and it was not
|
||
until the decline of life that he thought of marrying, and bestowing on
|
||
the state sons who might carry his virtues and his name down to
|
||
posterity.
|
||
|
||
As the circumstances of his marriage illustrate his character, I cannot
|
||
refrain from relating them. One of his most intimate friends was a
|
||
merchant, who, from a flourishing state, fell, through numerous
|
||
mischances, into poverty. This man, whose name was Beaufort, was of a
|
||
proud and unbending disposition, and could not bear to live in poverty
|
||
and oblivion in the same country where he had formerly been
|
||
distinguished for his rank and magnificence. Having paid his debts,
|
||
therefore, in the most honourable manner, he retreated with his daughter
|
||
to the town of Lucerne, where he lived unknown and in wretchedness. My
|
||
father loved Beaufort with the truest friendship, and was deeply grieved
|
||
by his retreat in these unfortunate circumstances. He grieved also for
|
||
the loss of his society, and resolved to seek him out and endeavour to
|
||
persuade him to begin the world again through his credit and assistance.
|
||
|
||
Beaufort had taken effectual measures to conceal himself; and it was ten
|
||
months before my father discovered his abode. Overjoyed at this
|
||
discovery, he hastened to the house, which was situated in a mean
|
||
street, near the Reuss. But when he entered, misery and despair alone
|
||
welcomed him. Beaufort had saved but a very small sum of money from the
|
||
wreck of his fortunes; but it was sufficient to provide him with
|
||
sustenance for some months, and in the mean time he hoped to procure
|
||
some respectable employment in a merchant’s house. The interval was
|
||
consequently spent in inaction; his grief only became more deep and
|
||
rankling, when he had leisure for reflection; and at length it took so
|
||
fast hold of his mind, that at the end of three months he lay on a bed
|
||
of sickness, incapable of any exertion.
|
||
|
||
His daughter attended him with the greatest tenderness; but she saw with
|
||
despair that their little fund was rapidly decreasing, and that there
|
||
was no other prospect of support. But Caroline Beaufort possessed a mind
|
||
of an uncommon mould; and her courage rose to support her in her
|
||
adversity. She procured plain work; she plaited straw; and by various
|
||
means contrived to earn a pittance scarcely sufficient to support life.
|
||
|
||
Several months passed in this manner. Her father grew worse; her time
|
||
was more entirely occupied in attending him; her means of subsistence
|
||
decreased; and in the tenth month her father died in her arms, leaving
|
||
her an orphan and a beggar. This last blow overcame her; and she knelt
|
||
by Beaufort’s coffin, weeping bitterly, when my father entered the
|
||
chamber. He came like a protecting spirit to the poor girl, who
|
||
committed herself to his care, and after the interment of his friend he
|
||
conducted her to Geneva, and placed her under the protection of a
|
||
relation. Two years after this event Caroline became his wife.
|
||
|
||
When my father became a husband and a parent, he found his time so
|
||
occupied by the duties of his new situation, that he relinquished many
|
||
of his public employments, and devoted himself to the education of his
|
||
children. Of these I was the eldest, and the destined successor to all
|
||
his labours and utility. No creature could have more tender parents than
|
||
mine. My improvement and health were their constant care, especially as
|
||
I remained for several years their only child. But before I continue my
|
||
narrative, I must record an incident which took place when I was four
|
||
years of age.
|
||
|
||
My father had a sister, whom he tenderly loved, and who had married
|
||
early in life an Italian gentleman. Soon after her marriage, she had
|
||
accompanied her husband into her native country, and for some years my
|
||
father had very little communication with her. About the time I
|
||
mentioned she died; and a few months afterwards he received a letter
|
||
from her husband, acquainting him with his intention of marrying an
|
||
Italian lady, and requesting my father to take charge of the infant
|
||
Elizabeth, the only child of his deceased sister. “It is my wish,” he
|
||
said, “that you should consider her as your own daughter, and educate
|
||
her thus. Her mother’s fortune is secured to her, the documents of which
|
||
I will commit to your keeping. Reflect upon this proposition; and decide
|
||
whether you would prefer educating your niece yourself to her being
|
||
brought up by a stepmother.”
|
||
|
||
My father did not hesitate, and immediately went to Italy, that he
|
||
might accompany the little Elizabeth to her future home. I have often
|
||
heard my mother say, that she was at that time the most beautiful child
|
||
she had ever seen, and shewed signs even then of a gentle and
|
||
affectionate disposition. These indications, and a desire to bind as
|
||
closely as possible the ties of domestic love, determined my mother to
|
||
consider Elizabeth as my future wife; a design which she never found
|
||
reason to repent.
|
||
|
||
From this time Elizabeth Lavenza became my playfellow, and, as we grew
|
||
older, my friend. She was docile and good tempered, yet gay and playful
|
||
as a summer insect. Although she was lively and animated, her feelings
|
||
were strong and deep, and her disposition uncommonly affectionate. No
|
||
one could better enjoy liberty, yet no one could submit with more grace
|
||
than she did to constraint and caprice. Her imagination was luxuriant,
|
||
yet her capability of application was great. Her person was the image of
|
||
her mind; her hazel eyes, although as lively as a bird’s, possessed an
|
||
attractive softness. Her figure was light and airy; and, though capable
|
||
of enduring great fatigue, she appeared the most fragile creature in the
|
||
world. While I admired her understanding and fancy, I loved to tend on
|
||
her, as I should on a favourite animal; and I never saw so much grace
|
||
both of person and mind united to so little pretension.
|
||
|
||
Every one adored Elizabeth. If the servants had any request to make, it
|
||
was always through her intercession. We were strangers to any species of
|
||
disunion and dispute; for although there was a great dissimilitude in
|
||
our characters, there was an harmony in that very dissimilitude. I was
|
||
more calm and philosophical than my companion; yet my temper was not so
|
||
yielding. My application was of longer endurance; but it was not so
|
||
severe whilst it endured. I delighted in investigating the facts
|
||
relative to the actual world; she busied herself in following the aërial
|
||
creations of the poets. The world was to me a secret, which I desired to
|
||
discover; to her it was a vacancy, which she sought to people with
|
||
imaginations of her own.
|
||
|
||
My brothers were considerably younger than myself; but I had a friend
|
||
in one of my schoolfellows, who compensated for this deficiency. Henry
|
||
Clerval was the son of a merchant of Geneva, an intimate friend of my
|
||
father. He was a boy of singular talent and fancy. I remember, when he
|
||
was nine years old, he wrote a fairy tale, which was the delight and
|
||
amazement of all his companions. His favourite study consisted in books
|
||
of chivalry and romance; and when very young, I can remember, that we
|
||
used to act plays composed by him out of these favourite books, the
|
||
principal characters of which were Orlando, Robin Hood, Amadis, and St.
|
||
George.
|
||
|
||
No youth could have passed more happily than mine. My parents were
|
||
indulgent, and my companions amiable. Our studies were never forced; and
|
||
by some means we always had an end placed in view, which excited us to
|
||
ardour in the prosecution of them. It was by this method, and not by
|
||
emulation, that we were urged to application. Elizabeth was not incited
|
||
to apply herself to drawing, that her companions might not outstrip her;
|
||
but through the desire of pleasing her aunt, by the representation of
|
||
some favourite scene done by her own hand. We learned Latin and English,
|
||
that we might read the writings in those languages; and so far from
|
||
study being made odious to us through punishment, we loved application,
|
||
and our amusements would have been the labours of other children.
|
||
Perhaps we did not read so many books, or learn languages so quickly, as
|
||
those who are disciplined according to the ordinary methods; but what
|
||
we learned was impressed the more deeply on our memories.
|
||
|
||
In this description of our domestic circle I include Henry Clerval; for
|
||
he was constantly with us. He went to school with me, and generally
|
||
passed the afternoon at our house; for being an only child, and
|
||
destitute of companions at home, his father was well pleased that he
|
||
should find associates at our house; and we were never completely happy
|
||
when Clerval was absent.
|
||
|
||
I feel pleasure in dwelling on the recollections of childhood, before
|
||
misfortune had tainted my mind, and changed its bright visions of
|
||
extensive usefulness into gloomy and narrow reflections upon self. But,
|
||
in drawing the picture of my early days, I must not omit to record those
|
||
events which led, by insensible steps to my after tale of misery: for
|
||
when I would account to myself for the birth of that passion, which
|
||
afterwards ruled my destiny, I find it arise, like a mountain river,
|
||
from ignoble and almost forgotten sources; but, swelling as it
|
||
proceeded, it became the torrent which, in its course, has swept away
|
||
all my hopes and joys.
|
||
|
||
Natural philosophy is the genius that has regulated my fate; I desire
|
||
therefore, in this narration, to state those facts which led to my
|
||
predilection for that science. When I was thirteen years of age, we all
|
||
went on a party of pleasure to the baths near Thonon: the inclemency of
|
||
the weather obliged us to remain a day confined to the inn. In this
|
||
house I chanced to find a volume of the works of Cornelius Agrippa. I
|
||
opened it with apathy; the theory which he attempts to demonstrate, and
|
||
the wonderful facts which he relates, soon changed this feeling into
|
||
enthusiasm. A new light seemed to dawn upon my mind; and, bounding with
|
||
joy, I communicated my discovery to my father. I cannot help remarking
|
||
here the many opportunities instructors possess of directing the
|
||
attention of their pupils to useful knowledge, which they utterly
|
||
neglect. My father looked carelessly at the title-page of my book, and
|
||
said, “Ah! Cornelius Agrippa! My dear Victor, do not waste your time
|
||
upon this; it is sad trash.”
|
||
|
||
If, instead of this remark, my father had taken the pains, to explain to
|
||
me, that the principles of Agrippa had been entirely exploded, and that
|
||
a modern system of science had been introduced, which possessed much
|
||
greater powers than the ancient, because the powers of the latter were
|
||
chimerical, while those of the former were real and practical; under
|
||
such circumstances, I should certainly have thrown Agrippa aside, and,
|
||
with my imagination warmed as it was, should probably have applied
|
||
myself to the more rational theory of chemistry which has resulted from
|
||
modern discoveries. It is even possible, that the train of my ideas
|
||
would never have received the fatal impulse that led to my ruin. But the
|
||
cursory glance my father had taken of my volume by no means assured me
|
||
that he was acquainted with its contents; and I continued to read with
|
||
the greatest avidity.
|
||
|
||
When I returned home, my first care was to procure the whole works of
|
||
this author, and afterwards of Paracelsus and Albertus Magnus. I read
|
||
and studied the wild fancies of these writers with delight; they
|
||
appeared to me treasures known to few beside myself; and although I
|
||
often wished to communicate these secret stores of knowledge to my
|
||
father, yet his indefinite censure of my favourite Agrippa always
|
||
withheld me. I disclosed my discoveries to Elizabeth, therefore, under a
|
||
promise of strict secrecy; but she did not interest herself in the
|
||
subject, and I was left by her to pursue my studies alone.
|
||
|
||
It may appear very strange, that a disciple of Albertus Magnus should
|
||
arise in the eighteenth century; but our family was not scientifical,
|
||
and I had not attended any of the lectures given at the schools of
|
||
Geneva. My dreams were therefore undisturbed by reality; and I entered
|
||
with the greatest diligence into the search of the philosopher’s stone
|
||
and the elixir of life. But the latter obtained my most undivided
|
||
attention: wealth was an inferior object; but what glory would attend
|
||
the discovery, if I could banish disease from the human frame, and
|
||
render man invulnerable to any but a violent death!
|
||
|
||
Nor were these my only visions. The raising of ghosts or devils was a
|
||
promise liberally accorded by my favourite authors, the fulfilment of
|
||
which I most eagerly sought; and if my incantations were always
|
||
unsuccessful, I attributed the failure rather to my own inexperience and
|
||
mistake, than to a want of skill or fidelity in my instructors.
|
||
|
||
The natural phænomena that take place every day before our eyes did not
|
||
escape my examinations. Distillation, and the wonderful effects of
|
||
steam, processes of which my favourite authors were utterly ignorant,
|
||
excited my astonishment; but my utmost wonder was engaged by some
|
||
experiments on an air-pump, which I saw employed by a gentleman whom we
|
||
were in the habit of visiting.
|
||
|
||
The ignorance of the early philosophers on these and several other
|
||
points served to decrease their credit with me: but I could not entirely
|
||
throw them aside, before some other system should occupy their place in
|
||
my mind.
|
||
|
||
When I was about fifteen years old, we had retired to our house near
|
||
Belrive, when we witnessed a most violent and terrible thunder-storm. It
|
||
advanced from behind the mountains of Jura; and the thunder burst at
|
||
once with frightful loudness from various quarters of the heavens. I
|
||
remained, while the storm lasted, watching its progress with curiosity
|
||
and delight. As I stood at the door, on a sudden I beheld a stream of
|
||
fire issue from an old and beautiful oak, which stood about twenty yards
|
||
from our house; and so soon as the dazzling light vanished, the oak had
|
||
disappeared, and nothing remained but a blasted stump. When we visited
|
||
it the next morning, we found the tree shattered in a singular manner.
|
||
It was not splintered by the shock, but entirely reduced to thin
|
||
ribbands of wood. I never beheld any thing so utterly destroyed.
|
||
|
||
The catastrophe of this tree excited my extreme astonishment; and I
|
||
eagerly inquired of my father the nature and origin of thunder and
|
||
lightning. He replied, “Electricity;” describing at the same time the
|
||
various effects of that power. He constructed a small electrical
|
||
machine, and exhibited a few experiments; he made also a kite, with a
|
||
wire and string, which drew down that fluid from the clouds.
|
||
|
||
This last stroke completed the overthrow of Cornelius Agrippa, Albertus
|
||
Magnus, and Paracelsus, who had so long reigned the lords of my
|
||
imagination. But by some fatality I did not feel inclined to commence
|
||
the study of any modern system; and this disinclination was influenced
|
||
by the following circumstance.
|
||
|
||
My father expressed a wish that I should attend a course of lectures
|
||
upon natural philosophy, to which I cheerfully consented. Some accident
|
||
prevented my attending these lectures until the course was nearly
|
||
finished. The lecture, being therefore one of the last, was entirely
|
||
incomprehensible to me. The professor discoursed with the greatest
|
||
fluency of potassium and boron, of sulphates and oxyds, terms to which I
|
||
could affix no idea; and I became disgusted with the science of natural
|
||
philosophy, although I still read Pliny and Buffon with delight,
|
||
authors, in my estimation, of nearly equal interest and utility.
|
||
|
||
My occupations at this age were principally the mathematics, and most of
|
||
the branches of study appertaining to that science. I was busily
|
||
employed in learning languages; Latin was already familiar to me, and I
|
||
began to read some of the easiest Greek authors without the help of a
|
||
lexicon. I also perfectly understood English and German. This is the
|
||
list of my accomplishments at the age of seventeen; and you may conceive
|
||
that my hours were fully employed in acquiring and maintaining a
|
||
knowledge of this various literature.
|
||
|
||
Another task also devolved upon me, when I became the instructor of my
|
||
brothers. Ernest was six years younger than myself, and was my principal
|
||
pupil. He had been afflicted with ill health from his infancy, through
|
||
which Elizabeth and I had been his constant nurses: his disposition was
|
||
gentle, but he was incapable of any severe application. William, the
|
||
youngest of our family, was yet an infant, and the most beautiful little
|
||
fellow in the world; his lively blue eyes, dimpled cheeks, and endearing
|
||
manners, inspired the tenderest affection.
|
||
|
||
Such was our domestic circle, from which care and pain seemed for ever
|
||
banished. My father directed our studies, and my mother partook of our
|
||
enjoyments. Neither of us possessed the slightest pre-eminence over the
|
||
other; the voice of command was never heard amongst us; but mutual
|
||
affection engaged us all to comply with and obey the slightest desire of
|
||
each other.
|
||
|
||
|
||
|
||
|
||
CHAPTER II.
|
||
|
||
|
||
When I had attained the age of seventeen, my parents resolved that I
|
||
should become a student at the university of Ingolstadt. I had hitherto
|
||
attended the schools of Geneva; but my father thought it necessary, for
|
||
the completion of my education, that I should be made acquainted with
|
||
other customs than those of my native country. My departure was
|
||
therefore fixed at an early date; but, before the day resolved upon
|
||
could arrive, the first misfortune of my life occurred—an omen, as it
|
||
were, of my future misery.
|
||
|
||
Elizabeth had caught the scarlet fever; but her illness was not severe,
|
||
and she quickly recovered. During her confinement, many arguments had
|
||
been urged to persuade my mother to refrain from attending upon her. She
|
||
had, at first, yielded to our entreaties; but when she heard that her
|
||
favourite was recovering, she could no longer debar herself from her
|
||
society, and entered her chamber long before the danger of infection was
|
||
past. The consequences of this imprudence were fatal. On the third day
|
||
my mother sickened; her fever was very malignant, and the looks of her
|
||
attendants prognosticated the worst event. On her death-bed the
|
||
fortitude and benignity of this admirable woman did not desert her. She
|
||
joined the hands of Elizabeth and myself: “My children,” she said, “my
|
||
firmest hopes of future happiness were placed on the prospect of your
|
||
union. This expectation will now be the consolation of your father.
|
||
Elizabeth, my love, you must supply my place to your younger cousins.
|
||
Alas! I regret that I am taken from you; and, happy and beloved as I
|
||
have been, is it not hard to quit you all? But these are not thoughts
|
||
befitting me; I will endeavour to resign myself cheerfully to death, and
|
||
will indulge a hope of meeting you in another world.”
|
||
|
||
She died calmly; and her countenance expressed affection even in death.
|
||
I need not describe the feelings of those whose dearest ties are rent by
|
||
that most irreparable evil, the void that presents itself to the soul,
|
||
and the despair that is exhibited on the countenance. It is so long
|
||
before the mind can persuade itself that she, whom we saw every day, and
|
||
whose very existence appeared a part of our own, can have departed for
|
||
ever—that the brightness of a beloved eye can have been extinguished,
|
||
and the sound of a voice so familiar, and dear to the ear, can be
|
||
hushed, never more to be heard. These are the reflections of the first
|
||
days; but when the lapse of time proves the reality of the evil, then
|
||
the actual bitterness of grief commences. Yet from whom has not that
|
||
rude hand rent away some dear connexion; and why should I describe a
|
||
sorrow which all have felt, and must feel? The time at length arrives,
|
||
when grief is rather an indulgence than a necessity; and the smile that
|
||
plays upon the lips, although it may be deemed a sacrilege, is not
|
||
banished. My mother was dead, but we had still duties which we ought to
|
||
perform; we must continue our course with the rest, and learn to think
|
||
ourselves fortunate, whilst one remains whom the spoiler has not seized.
|
||
|
||
My journey to Ingolstadt, which had been deferred by these events, was
|
||
now again determined upon. I obtained from my father a respite of some
|
||
weeks. This period was spent sadly; my mother’s death, and my speedy
|
||
departure, depressed our spirits; but Elizabeth endeavoured to renew the
|
||
spirit of cheerfulness in our little society. Since the death of her
|
||
aunt, her mind had acquired new firmness and vigour. She determined to
|
||
fulfil her duties with the greatest exactness; and she felt that that
|
||
most imperious duty, of rendering her uncle and cousins happy, had
|
||
devolved upon her. She consoled me, amused her uncle, instructed my
|
||
brothers; and I never beheld her so enchanting as at this time, when she
|
||
was continually endeavouring to contribute to the happiness of others,
|
||
entirely forgetful of herself.
|
||
|
||
The day of my departure at length arrived. I had taken leave of all my
|
||
friends, excepting Clerval, who spent the last evening with us. He
|
||
bitterly lamented that he was unable to accompany me: but his father
|
||
could not be persuaded to part with him, intending that he should become
|
||
a partner with him in business, in compliance with his favourite theory,
|
||
that learning was superfluous in the commerce of ordinary life. Henry
|
||
had a refined mind; he had no desire to be idle, and was well pleased to
|
||
become his father’s partner, but he believed that a man might be a very
|
||
good trader, and yet possess a cultivated understanding.
|
||
|
||
We sat late, listening to his complaints, and making many little
|
||
arrangements for the future. The next morning early I departed. Tears
|
||
gushed from the eyes of Elizabeth; they proceeded partly from sorrow at
|
||
my departure, and partly because she reflected that the same journey was
|
||
to have taken place three months before, when a mother’s blessing would
|
||
have accompanied me.
|
||
|
||
I threw myself into the chaise that was to convey me away, and indulged
|
||
in the most melancholy reflections. I, who had ever been surrounded by
|
||
amiable companions, continually engaged in endeavouring to bestow
|
||
mutual pleasure, I was now alone. In the university, whither I was
|
||
going, I must form my own friends, and be my own protector. My life had
|
||
hitherto been remarkably secluded and domestic; and this had given me
|
||
invincible repugnance to new countenances. I loved my brothers,
|
||
Elizabeth, and Clerval; these were “old familiar faces;” but I believed
|
||
myself totally unfitted for the company of strangers. Such were my
|
||
reflections as I commenced my journey; but as I proceeded, my spirits
|
||
and hopes rose. I ardently desired the acquisition of knowledge. I had
|
||
often, when at home, thought it hard to remain during my youth cooped up
|
||
in one place, and had longed to enter the world, and take my station
|
||
among other human beings. Now my desires were complied with, and it
|
||
would, indeed, have been folly to repent.
|
||
|
||
I had sufficient leisure for these and many other reflections during my
|
||
journey to Ingolstadt, which was long and fatiguing. At length the high
|
||
white steeple of the town met my eyes. I alighted, and was conducted to
|
||
my solitary apartment, to spend the evening as I pleased.
|
||
|
||
The next morning I delivered my letters of introduction, and paid a
|
||
visit to some of the principal professors, and among others to M.
|
||
Krempe, professor of natural philosophy. He received me with politeness,
|
||
and asked me several questions concerning my progress in the different
|
||
branches of science appertaining to natural philosophy. I mentioned, it
|
||
is true, with fear and trembling, the only authors I had ever read upon
|
||
those subjects. The professor stared: “Have you,” he said, “really spent
|
||
your time in studying such nonsense?”
|
||
|
||
I replied in the affirmative. “Every minute,” continued M. Krempe with
|
||
warmth, “every instant that you have wasted on those books is utterly
|
||
and entirely lost. You have burdened your memory with exploded systems,
|
||
and useless names. Good God! in what desert land have you lived, where
|
||
no one was kind enough to inform you that these fancies, which you have
|
||
so greedily imbibed, are a thousand years old, and as musty as they are
|
||
ancient? I little expected in this enlightened and scientific age to
|
||
find a disciple of Albertus Magnus and Paracelsus. My dear Sir, you must
|
||
begin your studies entirely anew.”
|
||
|
||
So saying, he stept aside, and wrote down a list of several books
|
||
treating of natural philosophy, which he desired me to procure, and
|
||
dismissed me, after mentioning that in the beginning of the following
|
||
week he intended to commence a course of lectures upon natural
|
||
philosophy in its general relations, and that M. Waldman, a
|
||
fellow-professor, would lecture upon chemistry the alternate days that
|
||
he missed.
|
||
|
||
I returned home, not disappointed, for I had long considered those
|
||
authors useless whom the professor had so strongly reprobated; but I did
|
||
not feel much inclined to study the books which I procured at his
|
||
recommendation. M. Krempe was a little squat man, with a gruff voice and
|
||
repulsive countenance; the teacher, therefore, did not prepossess me in
|
||
favour of his doctrine. Besides, I had a contempt for the uses of modern
|
||
natural philosophy. It was very different, when the masters of the
|
||
science sought immortality and power; such views, although futile, were
|
||
grand: but now the scene was changed. The ambition of the inquirer
|
||
seemed to limit itself to the annihilation of those visions on which my
|
||
interest in science was chiefly founded. I was required to exchange
|
||
chimeras of boundless grandeur for realities of little worth.
|
||
|
||
Such were my reflections during the first two or three days spent almost
|
||
in solitude. But as the ensuing week commenced, I thought of the
|
||
information which M. Krempe had given me concerning the lectures. And
|
||
although I could not consent to go and hear that little conceited fellow
|
||
deliver sentences out of a pulpit, I recollected what he had said of M.
|
||
Waldman, whom I had never seen, as he had hitherto been out of town.
|
||
|
||
Partly from curiosity, and partly from idleness, I went into the
|
||
lecturing room, which M. Waldman entered shortly after. This professor
|
||
was very unlike his colleague. He appeared about fifty years of age, but
|
||
with an aspect expressive of the greatest benevolence; a few gray hairs
|
||
covered his temples, but those at the back of his head were nearly
|
||
black. His person was short, but remarkably erect; and his voice the
|
||
sweetest I had ever heard. He began his lecture by a recapitulation of
|
||
the history of chemistry and the various improvements made by different
|
||
men of learning, pronouncing with fervour the names of the most
|
||
distinguished discoverers. He then took a cursory view of the present
|
||
state of the science, and explained many of its elementary terms. After
|
||
having made a few preparatory experiments, he concluded with a panegyric
|
||
upon modern chemistry, the terms of which I shall never forget:—
|
||
|
||
“The ancient teachers of this science,” said he, “promised
|
||
impossibilities, and performed nothing. The modern masters promise very
|
||
little; they know that metals cannot be transmuted, and that the elixir
|
||
of life is a chimera. But these philosophers, whose hands seem only made
|
||
to dabble in dirt, and their eyes to pour over the microscope or
|
||
crucible, have indeed performed miracles. They penetrate into the
|
||
recesses of nature, and shew how she works in her hiding places. They
|
||
ascend into the heavens; they have discovered how the blood circulates,
|
||
and the nature of the air we breathe. They have acquired new and almost
|
||
unlimited powers; they can command the thunders of heaven, mimic the
|
||
earthquake, and even mock the invisible world with its own shadows.”
|
||
|
||
I departed highly pleased with the professor and his lecture, and paid
|
||
him a visit the same evening. His manners in private were even more mild
|
||
and attractive than in public; for there was a certain dignity in his
|
||
mien during his lecture, which in his own house was replaced by the
|
||
greatest affability and kindness. He heard with attention my little
|
||
narration concerning my studies, and smiled at the names of Cornelius
|
||
Agrippa, and Paracelsus, but without the contempt that M. Krempe had
|
||
exhibited. He said, that “these were men to whose indefatigable zeal
|
||
modern philosophers were indebted for most of the foundations of their
|
||
knowledge. They had left to us, as an easier task, to give new names,
|
||
and arrange in connected classifications, the facts which they in a
|
||
great degree had been the instruments of bringing to light. The labours
|
||
of men of genius, however erroneously directed, scarcely ever fail in
|
||
ultimately turning to the solid advantage of mankind.” I listened to his
|
||
statement, which was delivered without any presumption or affectation;
|
||
and then added, that his lecture had removed my prejudices against
|
||
modern chemists; and I, at the same time, requested his advice
|
||
concerning the books I ought to procure.
|
||
|
||
“I am happy,” said M. Waldman, “to have gained a disciple; and if your
|
||
application equals your ability, I have no doubt of your success.
|
||
Chemistry is that branch of natural philosophy in which the greatest
|
||
improvements have been and may be made; it is on that account that I
|
||
have made it my peculiar study; but at the same time I have not
|
||
neglected the other branches of science. A man would make but a very
|
||
sorry chemist, if he attended to that department of human knowledge
|
||
alone. If your wish is to become really a man of science, and not merely
|
||
a petty experimentalist, I should advise you to apply to every branch of
|
||
natural philosophy, including mathematics.”
|
||
|
||
He then took me into his laboratory, and explained to me the uses of
|
||
his various machines; instructing me as to what I ought to procure, and
|
||
promising me the use of his own, when I should have advanced far enough
|
||
in the science not to derange their mechanism. He also gave me the list
|
||
of books which I had requested; and I took my leave.
|
||
|
||
Thus ended a day memorable to me; it decided my future destiny.
|
||
|
||
|
||
|
||
|
||
CHAPTER III.
|
||
|
||
|
||
From this day natural philosophy, and particularly chemistry, in the
|
||
most comprehensive sense of the term, became nearly my sole occupation.
|
||
I read with ardour those works, so full of genius and discrimination,
|
||
which modern inquirers have written on these subjects. I attended the
|
||
lectures, and cultivated the acquaintance, of the men of science of the
|
||
university; and I found even in M. Krempe a great deal of sound sense
|
||
and real information, combined, it is true, with a repulsive physiognomy
|
||
and manners, but not on that account the less valuable. In M. Waldman I
|
||
found a true friend. His gentleness was never tinged by dogmatism; and
|
||
his instructions were given with an air of frankness and good nature,
|
||
that banished every idea of pedantry. It was, perhaps, the amiable
|
||
character of this man that inclined me more to that branch of natural
|
||
philosophy which he professed, than an intrinsic love for the science
|
||
itself. But this state of mind had place only in the first steps towards
|
||
knowledge: the more fully I entered into the science, the more
|
||
exclusively I pursued it for its own sake. That application, which at
|
||
first had been a matter of duty and resolution, now became so ardent and
|
||
eager, that the stars often disappeared in the light of morning whilst
|
||
I was yet engaged in my laboratory.
|
||
|
||
As I applied so closely, it may be easily conceived that I improved
|
||
rapidly. My ardour was indeed the astonishment of the students; and my
|
||
proficiency, that of the masters. Professor Krempe often asked me, with
|
||
a sly smile, how Cornelius Agrippa went on? whilst M. Waldman expressed
|
||
the most heart-felt exultation in my progress. Two years passed in this
|
||
manner, during which I paid no visit to Geneva, but was engaged, heart
|
||
and soul, in the pursuit of some discoveries, which I hoped to make.
|
||
None but those who have experienced them can conceive of the enticements
|
||
of science. In other studies you go as far as others have gone before
|
||
you, and there is nothing more to know; but in a scientific pursuit
|
||
there is continual food for discovery and wonder. A mind of moderate
|
||
capacity, which closely pursues one study, must infallibly arrive at
|
||
great proficiency in that study; and I, who continually sought the
|
||
attainment of one object of pursuit, and was solely wrapt up in this,
|
||
improved so rapidly, that, at the end of two years, I made some
|
||
discoveries in the improvement of some chemical instruments, which
|
||
procured me great esteem and admiration at the university. When I had
|
||
arrived at this point, and had become as well acquainted with the theory
|
||
and practice of natural philosophy as depended on the lessons of any of
|
||
the professors at Ingolstadt, my residence there being no longer
|
||
conducive to my improvements, I thought of returning to my friends and
|
||
my native town, when an incident happened that protracted my stay.
|
||
|
||
One of the phænonema which had peculiarly attracted my attention was the
|
||
structure of the human frame, and, indeed, any animal endued with life.
|
||
Whence, I often asked myself, did the principle of life proceed? It was
|
||
a bold question, and one which has ever been considered as a mystery;
|
||
yet with how many things are we upon the brink of becoming acquainted,
|
||
if cowardice or carelessness did not restrain our inquiries. I revolved
|
||
these circumstances in my mind, and determined thenceforth to apply
|
||
myself more particularly to those branches of natural philosophy which
|
||
relate to physiology. Unless I had been animated by an almost
|
||
supernatural enthusiasm, my application to this study would have been
|
||
irksome, and almost intolerable. To examine the causes of life, we must
|
||
first have recourse to death. I became acquainted with the science of
|
||
anatomy: but this was not sufficient; I must also observe the natural
|
||
decay and corruption of the human body. In my education my father had
|
||
taken the greatest precautions that my mind should be impressed with no
|
||
supernatural horrors. I do not ever remember to have trembled at a tale
|
||
of superstition, or to have feared the apparition of a spirit. Darkness
|
||
had no effect upon my fancy; and a church-yard was to me merely the
|
||
receptacle of bodies deprived of life, which, from being the seat of
|
||
beauty and strength, had become food for the worm. Now I was led to
|
||
examine the cause and progress of this decay, and forced to spend days
|
||
and nights in vaults and charnel houses. My attention was fixed upon
|
||
every object the most insupportable to the delicacy of the human
|
||
feelings. I saw how the fine form of man was degraded and wasted; I
|
||
beheld the corruption of death succeed to the blooming cheek of life; I
|
||
saw how the worm inherited the wonders of the eye and brain. I paused,
|
||
examining and analysing all the minutiæ of causation, as exemplified in
|
||
the change from life to death, and death to life, until from the midst
|
||
of this darkness a sudden light broke in upon me—a light so brilliant
|
||
and wondrous, yet so simple, that while I became dizzy with the
|
||
immensity of the prospect which it illustrated, I was surprised that
|
||
among so many men of genius, who had directed their inquiries towards
|
||
the same science, that I alone should be reserved to discover so
|
||
astonishing a secret.
|
||
|
||
Remember, I am not recording the vision of a madman. The sun does not
|
||
more certainly shine in the heavens, than that which I now affirm is
|
||
true. Some miracle might have produced it, yet the stages of the
|
||
discovery were distinct and probable. After days and nights of
|
||
incredible labour and fatigue, I succeeded in discovering the cause of
|
||
generation and life; nay, more, I became myself capable of bestowing
|
||
animation upon lifeless matter.
|
||
|
||
The astonishment which I had at first experienced on this discovery soon
|
||
gave place to delight and rapture. After so much time spent in painful
|
||
labour, to arrive at once at the summit of my desires, was the most
|
||
gratifying consummation of my toils. But this discovery was so great
|
||
and overwhelming, that all the steps by which I had been progressively
|
||
led to it were obliterated, and I beheld only the result. What had been
|
||
the study and desire of the wisest men since the creation of the world,
|
||
was now within my grasp. Not that, like a magic scene, it all opened
|
||
upon me at once: the information I had obtained was of a nature rather
|
||
to direct my endeavours so soon as I should point them towards the
|
||
object of my search, than to exhibit that object already accomplished. I
|
||
was like the Arabian who had been buried with the dead, and found a
|
||
passage to life aided only by one glimmering, and seemingly ineffectual
|
||
light.
|
||
|
||
I see by your eagerness, and the wonder and hope which your eyes
|
||
express, my friend, that you expect to be informed of the secret with
|
||
which I am acquainted; that cannot be: listen patiently until the end of
|
||
my story, and you will easily perceive why I am reserved upon that
|
||
subject. I will not lead you on, unguarded and ardent as I then was, to
|
||
your destruction and infallible misery. Learn from me, if not by my
|
||
precepts, at least by my example, how dangerous is the acquirement of
|
||
knowledge, and how much happier that man is who believes his native town
|
||
to be the world, than he who aspires to become greater than his nature
|
||
will allow.
|
||
|
||
When I found so astonishing a power placed within my hands, I hesitated
|
||
a long time concerning the manner in which I should employ it. Although
|
||
I possessed the capacity of bestowing animation, yet to prepare a frame
|
||
for the reception of it, with all its intricacies of fibres, muscles,
|
||
and veins, still remained a work of inconceivable difficulty and labour.
|
||
I doubted at first whether I should attempt the creation of a being like
|
||
myself or one of simpler organization; but my imagination was too much
|
||
exalted by my first success to permit me to doubt of my ability to give
|
||
life to an animal as complex and wonderful as man. The materials at
|
||
present within my command hardly appeared adequate to so arduous an
|
||
undertaking; but I doubted not that I should ultimately succeed. I
|
||
prepared myself for a multitude of reverses; my operations might be
|
||
incessantly baffled, and at last my work be imperfect: yet, when I
|
||
considered the improvement which every day takes place in science and
|
||
mechanics, I was encouraged to hope my present attempts would at least
|
||
lay the foundations of future success. Nor could I consider the
|
||
magnitude and complexity of my plan as any argument of its
|
||
impracticability. It was with these feelings that I began the creation
|
||
of a human being. As the minuteness of the parts formed a great
|
||
hindrance to my speed, I resolved, contrary to my first intention, to
|
||
make the being of a gigantic stature; that is to say, about eight feet
|
||
in height, and proportionably large. After having formed this
|
||
determination, and having spent some months in successfully collecting
|
||
and arranging my materials, I began.
|
||
|
||
No one can conceive the variety of feelings which bore me onwards, like
|
||
a hurricane, in the first enthusiasm of success. Life and death appeared
|
||
to me ideal bounds, which I should first break through, and pour a
|
||
torrent of light into our dark world. A new species would bless me as
|
||
its creator and source; many happy and excellent natures would owe their
|
||
being to me. No father could claim the gratitude of his child so
|
||
completely as I should deserve their’s. Pursuing these reflections, I
|
||
thought, that if I could bestow animation upon lifeless matter, I might
|
||
in process of time (although I now found it impossible) renew life where
|
||
death had apparently devoted the body to corruption.
|
||
|
||
These thoughts supported my spirits, while I pursued my undertaking with
|
||
unremitting ardour. My cheek had grown pale with study, and my person
|
||
had become emaciated with confinement. Sometimes, on the very brink of
|
||
certainty, I failed; yet still I clung to the hope which the next day or
|
||
the next hour might realize. One secret which I alone possessed was the
|
||
hope to which I had dedicated myself; and the moon gazed on my midnight
|
||
labours, while, with unrelaxed and breathless eagerness, I pursued
|
||
nature to her hiding places. Who shall conceive the horrors of my secret
|
||
toil, as I dabbled among the unhallowed damps of the grave, or tortured
|
||
the living animal to animate the lifeless clay? My limbs now tremble,
|
||
and my eyes swim with the remembrance; but then a resistless, and almost
|
||
frantic impulse, urged me forward; I seemed to have lost all soul or
|
||
sensation but for this one pursuit. It was indeed but a passing trance,
|
||
that only made me feel with renewed acuteness so soon as, the unnatural
|
||
stimulus ceasing to operate, I had returned to my old habits. I
|
||
collected bones from charnel houses; and disturbed, with profane
|
||
fingers, the tremendous secrets of the human frame. In a solitary
|
||
chamber, or rather cell, at the top of the house, and separated from all
|
||
the other apartments by a gallery and staircase, I kept my workshop of
|
||
filthy creation; my eyeballs were starting from their sockets in
|
||
attending to the details of my employment. The dissecting room and the
|
||
slaughter-house furnished many of my materials; and often did my human
|
||
nature turn with loathing from my occupation, whilst, still urged on by
|
||
an eagerness which perpetually increased, I brought my work near to a
|
||
conclusion.
|
||
|
||
The summer months passed while I was thus engaged, heart and soul, in
|
||
one pursuit. It was a most beautiful season; never did the fields bestow
|
||
a more plentiful harvest, or the vines yield a more luxuriant vintage:
|
||
but my eyes were insensible to the charms of nature. And the same
|
||
feelings which made me neglect the scenes around me caused me also to
|
||
forget those friends who were so many miles absent, and whom I had not
|
||
seen for so long a time. I knew my silence disquieted them; and I well
|
||
remembered the words of my father: “I know that while you are pleased
|
||
with yourself, you will think of us with affection, and we shall hear
|
||
regularly from you. You must pardon me, if I regard any interruption in
|
||
your correspondence as a proof that your other duties are equally
|
||
neglected.”
|
||
|
||
I knew well therefore what would be my father’s feelings; but I could
|
||
not tear my thoughts from my employment, loathsome in itself, but which
|
||
had taken an irresistible hold of my imagination. I wished, as it were,
|
||
to procrastinate all that related to my feelings of affection until the
|
||
great object, which swallowed up every habit of my nature, should be
|
||
completed.
|
||
|
||
I then thought that my father would be unjust if he ascribed my neglect
|
||
to vice, or faultiness on my part; but I am now convinced that he was
|
||
justified in conceiving that I should not be altogether free from blame.
|
||
A human being in perfection ought always to preserve a calm and peaceful
|
||
mind, and never to allow passion or a transitory desire to disturb his
|
||
tranquillity. I do not think that the pursuit of knowledge is an
|
||
exception to this rule. If the study to which you apply yourself has a
|
||
tendency to weaken your affections, and to destroy your taste for those
|
||
simple pleasures in which no alloy can possibly mix, then that study is
|
||
certainly unlawful, that is to say, not befitting the human mind. If
|
||
this rule were always observed; if no man allowed any pursuit
|
||
whatsoever to interfere with the tranquillity of his domestic
|
||
affections, Greece had not been enslaved; Cæsar would have spared his
|
||
country; America would have been discovered more gradually; and the
|
||
empires of Mexico and Peru had not been destroyed.
|
||
|
||
But I forget that I am moralizing in the most interesting part of my
|
||
tale; and your looks remind me to proceed.
|
||
|
||
My father made no reproach in his letters; and only took notice of my
|
||
silence by inquiring into my occupations more particularly than before.
|
||
Winter, spring, and summer, passed away during my labours; but I did not
|
||
watch the blossom or the expanding leaves—sights which before always
|
||
yielded me supreme delight, so deeply was I engrossed in my occupation.
|
||
The leaves of that year had withered before my work drew near to a
|
||
close; and now every day shewed me more plainly how well I had
|
||
succeeded. But my enthusiasm was checked by my anxiety, and I appeared
|
||
rather like one doomed by slavery to toil in the mines, or any other
|
||
unwholesome trade, than an artist occupied by his favourite employment.
|
||
Every night I was oppressed by a slow fever, and I became nervous to a
|
||
most painful degree; a disease that I regretted the more because I had
|
||
hitherto enjoyed most excellent health, and had always boasted of the
|
||
firmness of my nerves. But I believed that exercise and amusement would
|
||
soon drive away such symptoms; and I promised myself both of these, when
|
||
my creation should be complete.
|
||
|
||
|
||
|
||
|
||
CHAPTER IV.
|
||
|
||
|
||
It was on a dreary night of November, that I beheld the accomplishment
|
||
of my toils. With an anxiety that almost amounted to agony, I collected
|
||
the instruments of life around me, that I might infuse a spark of being
|
||
into the lifeless thing that lay at my feet. It was already one in the
|
||
morning; the rain pattered dismally against the panes, and my candle was
|
||
nearly burnt out, when, by the glimmer of the half-extinguished light, I
|
||
saw the dull yellow eye of the creature open; it breathed hard, and a
|
||
convulsive motion agitated its limbs.
|
||
|
||
How can I describe my emotions at this catastrophe, or how delineate the
|
||
wretch whom with such infinite pains and care I had endeavoured to form?
|
||
His limbs were in proportion, and I had selected his features as
|
||
beautiful. Beautiful!—Great God! His yellow skin scarcely covered the
|
||
work of muscles and arteries beneath; his hair was of a lustrous black,
|
||
and flowing; his teeth of a pearly whiteness; but these luxuriances only
|
||
formed a more horrid contrast with his watery eyes, that seemed almost
|
||
of the same colour as the dun white sockets in which they were set, his
|
||
shrivelled complexion, and straight black lips.
|
||
|
||
The different accidents of life are not so changeable as the feelings of
|
||
human nature. I had worked hard for nearly two years, for the sole
|
||
purpose of infusing life into an inanimate body. For this I had deprived
|
||
myself of rest and health. I had desired it with an ardour that far
|
||
exceeded moderation; but now that I had finished, the beauty of the
|
||
dream vanished, and breathless horror and disgust filled my heart.
|
||
Unable to endure the aspect of the being I had created, I rushed out of
|
||
the room, and continued a long time traversing my bed-chamber, unable
|
||
to compose my mind to sleep. At length lassitude succeeded to the
|
||
tumult I had before endured; and I threw myself on the bed in my
|
||
clothes, endeavouring to seek a few moments of forgetfulness. But it was
|
||
in vain: I slept indeed, but I was disturbed by the wildest dreams. I
|
||
thought I saw Elizabeth, in the bloom of health, walking in the streets
|
||
of Ingolstadt. Delighted and surprised, I embraced her; but as I
|
||
imprinted the first kiss on her lips, they became livid with the hue of
|
||
death; her features appeared to change, and I thought that I held the
|
||
corpse of my dead mother in my arms; a shroud enveloped her form, and I
|
||
saw the grave-worms crawling in the folds of the flannel. I started from
|
||
my sleep with horror; a cold dew covered my forehead, my teeth
|
||
chattered, and every limb became convulsed; when, by the dim and yellow
|
||
light of the moon, as it forced its way through the window-shutters, I
|
||
beheld the wretch—the miserable monster whom I had created. He held up
|
||
the curtain of the bed; and his eyes, if eyes they may be called, were
|
||
fixed on me. His jaws opened, and he muttered some inarticulate sounds,
|
||
while a grin wrinkled his cheeks. He might have spoken, but I did not
|
||
hear; one hand was stretched out, seemingly to detain me, but I escaped,
|
||
and rushed down stairs. I took refuge in the court-yard belonging to the
|
||
house which I inhabited; where I remained during the rest of the night,
|
||
walking up and down in the greatest agitation, listening attentively,
|
||
catching and fearing each sound as if it were to announce the approach
|
||
of the demoniacal corpse to which I had so miserably given life.
|
||
|
||
Oh! no mortal could support the horror of that countenance. A mummy
|
||
again endued with animation could not be so hideous as that wretch. I
|
||
had gazed on him while unfinished; he was ugly then; but when those
|
||
muscles and joints were rendered capable of motion, it became a thing
|
||
such as even Dante could not have conceived.
|
||
|
||
I passed the night wretchedly. Sometimes my pulse beat so quickly and
|
||
hardly, that I felt the palpitation of every artery; at others, I nearly
|
||
sank to the ground through languor and extreme weakness. Mingled with
|
||
this horror, I felt the bitterness of disappointment: dreams that had
|
||
been my food and pleasant rest for so long a space, were now become a
|
||
hell to me; and the change was so rapid, the overthrow so complete!
|
||
|
||
Morning, dismal and wet, at length dawned, and discovered to my
|
||
sleepless and aching eyes the church of Ingolstadt, its white steeple
|
||
and clock, which indicated the sixth hour. The porter opened the gates
|
||
of the court, which had that night been my asylum, and I issued into the
|
||
streets, pacing them with quick steps, as if I sought to avoid the
|
||
wretch whom I feared every turning of the street would present to my
|
||
view. I did not dare return to the apartment which I inhabited, but felt
|
||
impelled to hurry on, although wetted by the rain, which poured from a
|
||
black and comfortless sky.
|
||
|
||
I continued walking in this manner for some time, endeavouring, by
|
||
bodily exercise, to ease the load that weighed upon my mind. I
|
||
traversed the streets, without any clear conception of where I was, or
|
||
what I was doing. My heart palpitated in the sickness of fear; and I
|
||
hurried on with irregular steps, not daring to look about me:
|
||
|
||
Like one who, on a lonely road,
|
||
Doth walk in fear and dread,
|
||
And, having once turn’d round, walks on,
|
||
And turns no more his head;
|
||
Because he knows a frightful fiend
|
||
Doth close behind him tread.
|
||
|
||
Continuing thus, I came at length opposite to the inn at which the
|
||
various diligences and carriages usually stopped. Here I paused, I knew
|
||
not why; but I remained some minutes with my eyes fixed on a coach that
|
||
was coming towards me from the other end of the street. As it drew
|
||
nearer, I observed that it was the Swiss diligence: it stopped just
|
||
where I was standing; and, on the door being opened, I perceived Henry
|
||
Clerval, who, on seeing me, instantly sprung out. “My dear
|
||
Frankenstein,” exclaimed he, “how glad I am to see you! how fortunate
|
||
that you should be here at the very moment of my alighting!”
|
||
|
||
Nothing could equal my delight on seeing Clerval; his presence brought
|
||
back to my thoughts my father, Elizabeth, and all those scenes of home
|
||
so dear to my recollection. I grasped his hand, and in a moment forgot
|
||
my horror and misfortune; I felt suddenly, and for the first time during
|
||
many months, calm and serene joy. I welcomed my friend, therefore, in
|
||
the most cordial manner, and we walked towards my college. Clerval
|
||
continued talking for some time about our mutual friends, and his own
|
||
good fortune in being permitted to come to Ingolstadt. “You may easily
|
||
believe,” said he, “how great was the difficulty to persuade my father
|
||
that it was not absolutely necessary for a merchant not to understand
|
||
any thing except book-keeping; and, indeed, I believe I left him
|
||
incredulous to the last, for his constant answer to my unwearied
|
||
entreaties was the same as that of the Dutch schoolmaster in the Vicar
|
||
of Wakefield: ‘I have ten thousand florins a year without Greek, I eat
|
||
heartily without Greek.’ But his affection for me at length overcame his
|
||
dislike of learning, and he has permitted me to undertake a voyage of
|
||
discovery to the land of knowledge.”
|
||
|
||
“It gives me the greatest delight to see you; but tell me how you left
|
||
my father, brothers, and Elizabeth.”
|
||
|
||
“Very well, and very happy, only a little uneasy that they hear from you
|
||
so seldom. By the bye, I mean to lecture you a little upon their account
|
||
myself.—But, my dear Frankenstein,” continued he, stopping short, and
|
||
gazing full in my face, “I did not before remark how very ill you
|
||
appear; so thin and pale; you look as if you had been watching for
|
||
several nights.”
|
||
|
||
“You have guessed right; I have lately been so deeply engaged in one
|
||
occupation, that I have not allowed myself sufficient rest, as you see:
|
||
but I hope, I sincerely hope, that all these employments are now at an
|
||
end, and that I am at length free.”
|
||
|
||
I trembled excessively; I could not endure to think of, and far less to
|
||
allude to the occurrences of the preceding night. I walked with a quick
|
||
pace, and we soon arrived at my college. I then reflected, and the
|
||
thought made me shiver, that the creature whom I had left in my
|
||
apartment might still be there, alive, and walking about. I dreaded to
|
||
behold this monster; but I feared still more that Henry should see him.
|
||
Entreating him therefore to remain a few minutes at the bottom of the
|
||
stairs, I darted up towards my own room. My hand was already on the lock
|
||
of the door before I recollected myself. I then paused; and a cold
|
||
shivering came over me. I threw the door forcibly open, as children are
|
||
accustomed to do when they expect a spectre to stand in waiting for them
|
||
on the other side; but nothing appeared. I stepped fearfully in: the
|
||
apartment was empty; and my bedroom was also freed from its hideous
|
||
guest. I could hardly believe that so great a good-fortune could have
|
||
befallen me; but when I became assured that my enemy had indeed fled, I
|
||
clapped my hands for joy, and ran down to Clerval.
|
||
|
||
We ascended into my room, and the servant presently brought breakfast;
|
||
but I was unable to contain myself. It was not joy only that possessed
|
||
me; I felt my flesh tingle with excess of sensitiveness, and my pulse
|
||
beat rapidly. I was unable to remain for a single instant in the same
|
||
place; I jumped over the chairs, clapped my hands, and laughed aloud.
|
||
Clerval at first attributed my unusual spirits to joy on his arrival;
|
||
but when he observed me more attentively, he saw a wildness in my eyes
|
||
for which he could not account; and my loud, unrestrained, heartless
|
||
laughter, frightened and astonished him.
|
||
|
||
“My dear Victor,” cried he, “what, for God’s sake, is the matter? Do not
|
||
laugh in that manner. How ill you are! What is the cause of all this?”
|
||
|
||
“Do not ask me,” cried I, putting my hands before my eyes, for I thought
|
||
I saw the dreaded spectre glide into the room; “_he_ can tell.—Oh, save
|
||
me! save me!” I imagined that the monster seized me; I struggled
|
||
furiously, and fell down in a fit.
|
||
|
||
Poor Clerval! what must have been his feelings? A meeting, which he
|
||
anticipated with such joy, so strangely turned to bitterness. But I was
|
||
not the witness of his grief; for I was lifeless, and did not recover my
|
||
senses for a long, long time.
|
||
|
||
This was the commencement of a nervous fever, which confined me for
|
||
several months. During all that time Henry was my only nurse. I
|
||
afterwards learned that, knowing my father’s advanced age, and unfitness
|
||
for so long a journey, and how wretched my sickness would make
|
||
Elizabeth, he spared them this grief by concealing the extent of my
|
||
disorder. He knew that I could not have a more kind and attentive nurse
|
||
than himself; and, firm in the hope he felt of my recovery, he did not
|
||
doubt that, instead of doing harm, he performed the kindest action that
|
||
he could towards them.
|
||
|
||
But I was in reality very ill; and surely nothing but the unbounded and
|
||
unremitting attentions of my friend could have restored me to life. The
|
||
form of the monster on whom I had bestowed existence was for ever before
|
||
my eyes, and I raved incessantly concerning him. Doubtless my words
|
||
surprised Henry: he at first believed them to be the wanderings of my
|
||
disturbed imagination; but the pertinacity with which I continually
|
||
recurred to the same subject persuaded him that my disorder indeed owed
|
||
its origin to some uncommon and terrible event.
|
||
|
||
By very slow degrees, and with frequent relapses, that alarmed and
|
||
grieved my friend, I recovered. I remember the first time I became
|
||
capable of observing outward objects with any kind of pleasure, I
|
||
perceived that the fallen leaves had disappeared, and that the young
|
||
buds were shooting forth from the trees that shaded my window. It was a
|
||
divine spring; and the season contributed greatly to my convalescence. I
|
||
felt also sentiments of joy and affection revive in my bosom; my gloom
|
||
disappeared, and in a short time I became as cheerful as before I was
|
||
attacked by the fatal passion.
|
||
|
||
“Dearest Clerval,” exclaimed I, “how kind, how very good you are to me.
|
||
This whole winter, instead of being spent in study, as you promised
|
||
yourself, has been consumed in my sick room. How shall I ever repay
|
||
you? I feel the greatest remorse for the disappointment of which I have
|
||
been the occasion; but you will forgive me.”
|
||
|
||
“You will repay me entirely, if you do not discompose yourself, but get
|
||
well as fast as you can; and since you appear in such good spirits, I
|
||
may speak to you on one subject, may I not?”
|
||
|
||
I trembled. One subject! what could it be? Could he allude to an object
|
||
on whom I dared not even think?
|
||
|
||
“Compose yourself,” said Clerval, who observed my change of colour, “I
|
||
will not mention it, if it agitates you; but your father and cousin
|
||
would be very happy if they received a letter from you in your own
|
||
hand-writing. They hardly know how ill you have been, and are uneasy at
|
||
your long silence.”
|
||
|
||
“Is that all? my dear Henry. How could you suppose that my first thought
|
||
would not fly towards those dear, dear friends whom I love, and who are
|
||
so deserving of my love.”
|
||
|
||
“If this is your present temper, my friend, you will perhaps be glad to
|
||
see a letter that has been lying here some days for you: it is from your
|
||
cousin, I believe.”
|
||
|
||
|
||
|
||
|
||
CHAPTER V.
|
||
|
||
|
||
Clerval then put the following letter into my hands.
|
||
|
||
* * * * *
|
||
|
||
“_To_ V. FRANKENSTEIN.
|
||
|
||
“MY DEAR COUSIN,
|
||
|
||
“I cannot describe to you the uneasiness we have all felt concerning
|
||
your health. We cannot help imagining that your friend Clerval conceals
|
||
the extent of your disorder: for it is now several months since we have
|
||
seen your hand-writing; and all this time you have been obliged to
|
||
dictate your letters to Henry. Surely, Victor, you must have been
|
||
exceedingly ill; and this makes us all very wretched, as much so nearly
|
||
as after the death of your dear mother. My uncle was almost persuaded
|
||
that you were indeed dangerously ill, and could hardly be restrained
|
||
from undertaking a journey to Ingolstadt. Clerval always writes that you
|
||
are getting better; I eagerly hope that you will confirm this
|
||
intelligence soon in your own hand-writing; for indeed, indeed, Victor,
|
||
we are all very miserable on this account. Relieve us from this fear,
|
||
and we shall be the happiest creatures in the world. Your father’s
|
||
health is now so vigorous, that he appears ten years younger since last
|
||
winter. Ernest also is so much improved, that you would hardly know him:
|
||
he is now nearly sixteen, and has lost that sickly appearance which he
|
||
had some years ago; he is grown quite robust and active.
|
||
|
||
“My uncle and I conversed a long time last night about what profession
|
||
Ernest should follow. His constant illness when young has deprived him
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||
of the habits of application; and now that he enjoys good health, he is
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||
continually in the open air, climbing the hills, or rowing on the lake.
|
||
I therefore proposed that he should be a farmer; which you know, Cousin,
|
||
is a favourite scheme of mine. A farmer’s is a very healthy happy life;
|
||
and the least hurtful, or rather the most beneficial profession of any.
|
||
My uncle had an idea of his being educated as an advocate, that through
|
||
his interest he might become a judge. But, besides that he is not at all
|
||
fitted for such an occupation, it is certainly more creditable to
|
||
cultivate the earth for the sustenance of man, than to be the confidant,
|
||
and sometimes the accomplice, of his vices; which is the profession of a
|
||
lawyer. I said, that the employments of a prosperous farmer, if they
|
||
were not a more honourable, they were at least a happier species of
|
||
occupation than that of a judge, whose misfortune it was always to
|
||
meddle with the dark side of human nature. My uncle smiled, and said,
|
||
that I ought to be an advocate myself, which put an end to the
|
||
conversation on that subject.
|
||
|
||
“And now I must tell you a little story that will please, and perhaps
|
||
amuse you. Do you not remember Justine Moritz? Probably you do not; I
|
||
will relate her history, therefore, in a few words. Madame Moritz, her
|
||
mother, was a widow with four children, of whom Justine was the third.
|
||
This girl had always been the favourite of her father; but, through a
|
||
strange perversity, her mother could not endure her, and, after the
|
||
death of M. Moritz, treated her very ill. My aunt observed this; and,
|
||
when Justine was twelve years of age, prevailed on her mother to allow
|
||
her to live at her house. The republican institutions of our country
|
||
have produced simpler and happier manners than those which prevail in
|
||
the great monarchies that surround it. Hence there is less distinction
|
||
between the several classes of its inhabitants; and the lower orders
|
||
being neither so poor nor so despised, their manners are more refined
|
||
and moral. A servant in Geneva does not mean the same thing as a servant
|
||
in France and England. Justine, thus received in our family, learned the
|
||
duties of a servant; a condition which, in our fortunate country, does
|
||
not include the idea of ignorance, and a sacrifice of the dignity of a
|
||
human being.
|
||
|
||
“After what I have said, I dare say you well remember the heroine of my
|
||
little tale: for Justine was a great favourite of your’s; and I
|
||
recollect you once remarked, that if you were in an ill-humour, one
|
||
glance from Justine could dissipate it, for the same reason that Ariosto
|
||
gives concerning the beauty of Angelica—she looked so frank-hearted and
|
||
happy. My aunt conceived a great attachment for her, by which she was
|
||
induced to give her an education superior to that which she had at
|
||
first intended. This benefit was fully repaid; Justine was the most
|
||
grateful little creature in the world: I do not mean that she made any
|
||
professions, I never heard one pass her lips; but you could see by her
|
||
eyes that she almost adored her protectress. Although her disposition
|
||
was gay, and in many respects inconsiderate, yet she paid the greatest
|
||
attention to every gesture of my aunt. She thought her the model of all
|
||
excellence, and endeavoured to imitate her phraseology and manners, so
|
||
that even now she often reminds me of her.
|
||
|
||
“When my dearest aunt died, every one was too much occupied in their own
|
||
grief to notice poor Justine, who had attended her during her illness
|
||
with the most anxious affection. Poor Justine was very ill; but other
|
||
trials were reserved for her.
|
||
|
||
“One by one, her brothers and sister died; and her mother, with the
|
||
exception of her neglected daughter, was left childless. The conscience
|
||
of the woman was troubled; she began to think that the deaths of her
|
||
favourites was a judgment from heaven to chastise her partiality. She
|
||
was a Roman Catholic; and I believe her confessor confirmed the idea
|
||
which she had conceived. Accordingly, a few months after your departure
|
||
for Ingolstadt, Justine was called home by her repentant mother. Poor
|
||
girl! she wept when she quitted our house: she was much altered since
|
||
the death of my aunt; grief had given softness and a winning mildness to
|
||
her manners, which had before been remarkable for vivacity. Nor was her
|
||
residence at her mother’s house of a nature to restore her gaiety. The
|
||
poor woman was very vacillating in her repentance. She sometimes begged
|
||
Justine to forgive her unkindness, but much oftener accused her of
|
||
having caused the deaths of her brothers and sister. Perpetual fretting
|
||
at length threw Madame Moritz into a decline, which at first increased
|
||
her irritability, but she is now at peace for ever. She died on the
|
||
first approach of cold weather, at the beginning of this last winter.
|
||
Justine has returned to us; and I assure you I love her tenderly. She is
|
||
very clever and gentle, and extremely pretty; as I mentioned before, her
|
||
mien and her expressions continually remind me of my dear aunt.
|
||
|
||
“I must say also a few words to you, my dear cousin, of little darling
|
||
William. I wish you could see him; he is very tall of his age, with
|
||
sweet laughing blue eyes, dark eye-lashes, and curling hair. When he
|
||
smiles, two little dimples appear on each cheek, which are rosy with
|
||
health. He has already had one or two little _wives_, but Louisa Biron
|
||
is his favourite, a pretty little girl of five years of age.
|
||
|
||
“Now, dear Victor, I dare say you wish to be indulged in a little gossip
|
||
concerning the good people of Geneva. The pretty Miss Mansfield has
|
||
already received the congratulatory visits on her approaching marriage
|
||
with a young Englishman, John Melbourne, Esq. Her ugly sister, Manon,
|
||
married M. Duvillard, the rich banker, last autumn. Your favourite
|
||
schoolfellow, Louis Manoir, has suffered several misfortunes since the
|
||
departure of Clerval from Geneva. But he has already recovered his
|
||
spirits, and is reported to be on the point of marrying a very lively
|
||
pretty Frenchwoman, Madame Tavernier. She is a widow, and much older
|
||
than Manoir; but she is very much admired, and a favourite with every
|
||
body.
|
||
|
||
“I have written myself into good spirits, dear cousin; yet I cannot
|
||
conclude without again anxiously inquiring concerning your health. Dear
|
||
Victor, if you are not very ill, write yourself, and make your father
|
||
and all of us happy; or——I cannot bear to think of the other side of
|
||
the question; my tears already flow. Adieu, my dearest cousin.”
|
||
|
||
“ELIZABETH LAVENZA.
|
||
|
||
“Geneva, March 18th, 17—.”
|
||
|
||
* * * * *
|
||
|
||
“Dear, dear Elizabeth!” I exclaimed when I had read her letter, “I will
|
||
write instantly, and relieve them from the anxiety they must feel.” I
|
||
wrote, and this exertion greatly fatigued me; but my convalescence had
|
||
commenced, and proceeded regularly. In another fortnight I was able to
|
||
leave my chamber.
|
||
|
||
One of my first duties on my recovery was to introduce Clerval to the
|
||
several professors of the university. In doing this, I underwent a kind
|
||
of rough usage, ill befitting the wounds that my mind had sustained.
|
||
Ever since the fatal night, the end of my labours, and the beginning of
|
||
my misfortunes, I had conceived a violent antipathy even to the name of
|
||
natural philosophy. When I was otherwise quite restored to health, the
|
||
sight of a chemical instrument would renew all the agony of my nervous
|
||
symptoms. Henry saw this, and had removed all my apparatus from my view.
|
||
He had also changed my apartment; for he perceived that I had acquired a
|
||
dislike for the room which had previously been my laboratory. But these
|
||
cares of Clerval were made of no avail when I visited the professors. M.
|
||
Waldman inflicted torture when he praised, with kindness and warmth, the
|
||
astonishing progress I had made in the sciences. He soon perceived that
|
||
I disliked the subject; but, not guessing the real cause, he attributed
|
||
my feelings to modesty, and changed the subject from my improvement to
|
||
the science itself, with a desire, as I evidently saw, of drawing me
|
||
out. What could I do? He meant to please, and he tormented me. I felt as
|
||
if he had placed carefully, one by one, in my view those instruments
|
||
which were to be afterwards used in putting me to a slow and cruel
|
||
death. I writhed under his words, yet dared not exhibit the pain I felt.
|
||
Clerval, whose eyes and feelings were always quick in discerning the
|
||
sensations of others, declined the subject, alleging, in excuse, his
|
||
total ignorance; and the conversation took a more general turn. I
|
||
thanked my friend from my heart, but I did not speak. I saw plainly that
|
||
he was surprised, but he never attempted to draw my secret from me; and
|
||
although I loved him with a mixture of affection and reverence that knew
|
||
no bounds, yet I could never persuade myself to confide to him that
|
||
event which was so often present to my recollection, but which I feared
|
||
the detail to another would only impress more deeply.
|
||
|
||
M. Krempe was not equally docile; and in my condition at that time, of
|
||
almost insupportable sensitiveness, his harsh blunt encomiums gave me
|
||
even more pain than the benevolent approbation of M. Waldman. “D—n the
|
||
fellow!” cried he; “why, M. Clerval, I assure you he has outstript us
|
||
all. Aye, stare if you please; but it is nevertheless true. A youngster
|
||
who, but a few years ago, believed Cornelius Agrippa as firmly as the
|
||
gospel, has now set himself at the head of the university; and if he is
|
||
not soon pulled down, we shall all be out of countenance.—Aye, aye,”
|
||
continued he, observing my face expressive of suffering, “M.
|
||
Frankenstein is modest; an excellent quality in a young man. Young men
|
||
should be diffident of themselves, you know, M. Clerval; I was myself
|
||
when young: but that wears out in a very short time.”
|
||
|
||
M. Krempe had now commenced an eulogy on himself, which happily turned
|
||
the conversation from a subject that was so annoying to me.
|
||
|
||
Clerval was no natural philosopher. His imagination was too vivid for
|
||
the minutiæ of science. Languages were his principal study; and he
|
||
sought, by acquiring their elements, to open a field for
|
||
self-instruction on his return to Geneva. Persian, Arabic, and Hebrew,
|
||
gained his attention, after he had made himself perfectly master of
|
||
Greek and Latin. For my own part, idleness had ever been irksome to me;
|
||
and now that I wished to fly from reflection, and hated my former
|
||
studies, I felt great relief in being the fellow-pupil with my friend,
|
||
and found not only instruction but consolation in the works of the
|
||
orientalists. Their melancholy is soothing, and their joy elevating to a
|
||
degree I never experienced in studying the authors of any other country.
|
||
When you read their writings, life appears to consist in a warm sun and
|
||
garden of roses,—in the smiles and frowns of a fair enemy, and the fire
|
||
that consumes your own heart. How different from the manly and heroical
|
||
poetry of Greece and Rome.
|
||
|
||
Summer passed away in these occupations, and my return to Geneva was
|
||
fixed for the latter end of autumn; but being delayed by several
|
||
accidents, winter and snow arrived, the roads were deemed impassable,
|
||
and my journey was retarded until the ensuing spring. I felt this delay
|
||
very bitterly; for I longed to see my native town, and my beloved
|
||
friends. My return had only been delayed so long from an unwillingness
|
||
to leave Clerval in a strange place, before he had become acquainted
|
||
with any of its inhabitants. The winter, however, was spent cheerfully;
|
||
and although the spring was uncommonly late, when it came, its beauty
|
||
compensated for its dilatoriness.
|
||
|
||
The month of May had already commenced, and I expected the letter daily
|
||
which was to fix the date of my departure, when Henry proposed a
|
||
pedestrian tour in the environs of Ingolstadt that I might bid a
|
||
personal farewell to the country I had so long inhabited. I acceded
|
||
with pleasure to this proposition: I was fond of exercise, and Clerval
|
||
had always been my favourite companion in the rambles of this nature
|
||
that I had taken among the scenes of my native country.
|
||
|
||
We passed a fortnight in these perambulations: my health and spirits had
|
||
long been restored, and they gained additional strength from the
|
||
salubrious air I breathed, the natural incidents of our progress, and
|
||
the conversation of my friend. Study had before secluded me from the
|
||
intercourse of my fellow-creatures, and rendered me unsocial; but
|
||
Clerval called forth the better feelings of my heart; he again taught me
|
||
to love the aspect of nature, and the cheerful faces of children.
|
||
Excellent friend! how sincerely did you love me, and endeavour to
|
||
elevate my mind, until it was on a level with your own. A selfish
|
||
pursuit had cramped and narrowed me, until your gentleness and affection
|
||
warmed and opened my senses; I became the same happy creature who, a few
|
||
years ago, loving and beloved by all, had no sorrow or care. When happy,
|
||
inanimate nature had the power of bestowing on me the most delightful
|
||
sensations. A serene sky and verdant fields filled me with ecstacy. The
|
||
present season was indeed divine; the flowers of spring bloomed in the
|
||
hedges, while those of summer were already in bud: I was undisturbed by
|
||
thoughts which during the preceding year had pressed upon me,
|
||
notwithstanding my endeavours to throw them off, with an invincible
|
||
burden.
|
||
|
||
Henry rejoiced in my gaiety, and sincerely sympathized in my feelings:
|
||
he exerted himself to amuse me, while he expressed the sensations that
|
||
filled his soul. The resources of his mind on this occasion were truly
|
||
astonishing: his conversation was full of imagination; and very often,
|
||
in imitation of the Persian and Arabic writers, he invented tales of
|
||
wonderful fancy and passion. At other times he repeated my favourite
|
||
poems, or drew me out into arguments, which he supported with great
|
||
ingenuity.
|
||
|
||
We returned to our college on a Sunday afternoon: the peasants were
|
||
dancing, and every one we met appeared gay and happy. My own spirits
|
||
were high, and I bounded along with feelings of unbridled joy and
|
||
hilarity.
|
||
|
||
|
||
|
||
|
||
CHAPTER VI.
|
||
|
||
|
||
On my return, I found the following letter from my father:—
|
||
|
||
* * * * *
|
||
|
||
“_To_ V. FRANKENSTEIN.
|
||
|
||
“MY DEAR VICTOR,
|
||
|
||
“You have probably waited impatiently for a letter to fix the date of
|
||
your return to us; and I was at first tempted to write only a few lines,
|
||
merely mentioning the day on which I should expect you. But that would
|
||
be a cruel kindness, and I dare not do it. What would be your surprise,
|
||
my son, when you expected a happy and gay welcome, to behold, on the
|
||
contrary, tears and wretchedness? And how, Victor, can I relate our
|
||
misfortune? Absence cannot have rendered you callous to our joys and
|
||
griefs; and how shall I inflict pain on an absent child? I wish to
|
||
prepare you for the woeful news, but I know it is impossible; even now
|
||
your eye skims over the page, to seek the words which are to convey to
|
||
you the horrible tidings.
|
||
|
||
“William is dead!—that sweet child, whose smiles delighted and warmed
|
||
my heart, who was so gentle, yet so gay! Victor, he is murdered!
|
||
|
||
“I will not attempt to console you; but will simply relate the
|
||
circumstances of the transaction.
|
||
|
||
“Last Thursday (May 7th) I, my niece, and your two brothers, went to
|
||
walk in Plainpalais. The evening was warm and serene, and we prolonged
|
||
our walk farther than usual. It was already dusk before we thought of
|
||
returning; and then we discovered that William and Ernest, who had gone
|
||
on before, were not to be found. We accordingly rested on a seat until
|
||
they should return. Presently Ernest came, and inquired if we had seen
|
||
his brother: he said, that they had been playing together, that William
|
||
had run away to hide himself, and that he vainly sought for him, and
|
||
afterwards waited for him a long time, but that he did not return.
|
||
|
||
“This account rather alarmed us, and we continued to search for him
|
||
until night fell, when Elizabeth conjectured that he might have returned
|
||
to the house. He was not there. We returned again, with torches; for I
|
||
could not rest, when I thought that my sweet boy had lost himself, and
|
||
was exposed to all the damps and dews of night: Elizabeth also suffered
|
||
extreme anguish. About five in the morning I discovered my lovely boy,
|
||
whom the night before I had seen blooming and active in health,
|
||
stretched on the grass livid and motionless: the print of the murderer’s
|
||
finger was on his neck.
|
||
|
||
“He was conveyed home, and the anguish that was visible in my
|
||
countenance betrayed the secret to Elizabeth. She was very earnest to
|
||
see the corpse. At first I attempted to prevent her; but she persisted,
|
||
and entering the room where it lay, hastily examined the neck of the
|
||
victim, and clasping her hands exclaimed, ‘O God! I have murdered my
|
||
darling infant!’
|
||
|
||
“She fainted, and was restored with extreme difficulty. When she again
|
||
lived, it was only to weep and sigh. She told me, that that same evening
|
||
William had teazed her to let him wear a very valuable miniature that
|
||
she possessed of your mother. This picture is gone, and was doubtless
|
||
the temptation which urged the murderer to the deed. We have no trace of
|
||
him at present, although our exertions to discover him are unremitted;
|
||
but they will not restore my beloved William.
|
||
|
||
“Come, dearest Victor; you alone can console Elizabeth. She weeps
|
||
continually, and accuses herself unjustly as the cause of his death; her
|
||
words pierce my heart. We are all unhappy; but will not that be an
|
||
additional motive for you, my son, to return and be our comforter? Your
|
||
dear mother! Alas, Victor! I now say, Thank God she did not live to
|
||
witness the cruel, miserable death of her youngest darling!
|
||
|
||
“Come, Victor; not brooding thoughts of vengeance against the assassin,
|
||
but with feelings of peace and gentleness, that will heal, instead of
|
||
festering the wounds of our minds. Enter the house of mourning, my
|
||
friend, but with kindness and affection for those who love you, and not
|
||
with hatred for your enemies.
|
||
|
||
“Your affectionate and afflicted father,
|
||
|
||
“ALPHONSE FRANKENSTEIN.
|
||
|
||
“Geneva, May 12th, 17—.”
|
||
|
||
* * * * *
|
||
|
||
Clerval, who had watched my countenance as I read this letter, was
|
||
surprised to observe the despair that succeeded to the joy I at first
|
||
expressed on receiving news from my friends. I threw the letter on the
|
||
table, and covered my face with my hands.
|
||
|
||
“My dear Frankenstein,” exclaimed Henry, when he perceived me weep with
|
||
bitterness, “are you always to be unhappy? My dear friend, what has
|
||
happened?”
|
||
|
||
I motioned to him to take up the letter, while I walked up and down the
|
||
room in the extremest agitation. Tears also gushed from the eyes of
|
||
Clerval, as he read the account of my misfortune.
|
||
|
||
“I can offer you no consolation, my friend,” said he; “your disaster is
|
||
irreparable. What do you intend to do?”
|
||
|
||
“To go instantly to Geneva: come with me, Henry, to order the horses.”
|
||
|
||
During our walk, Clerval endeavoured to raise my spirits. He did not do
|
||
this by common topics of consolation, but by exhibiting the truest
|
||
sympathy. “Poor William!” said he, “that dear child; he now sleeps with
|
||
his angel mother. His friends mourn and weep, but he is at rest: he does
|
||
not now feel the murderer’s grasp; a sod covers his gentle form, and he
|
||
knows no pain. He can no longer be a fit subject for pity; the survivors
|
||
are the greatest sufferers, and for them time is the only consolation.
|
||
Those maxims of the Stoics, that death was no evil, and that the mind of
|
||
man ought to be superior to despair on the eternal absence of a beloved
|
||
object, ought not to be urged. Even Cato wept over the dead body of his
|
||
brother.”
|
||
|
||
Clerval spoke thus as we hurried through the streets; the words
|
||
impressed themselves on my mind, and I remembered them afterwards in
|
||
solitude. But now, as soon as the horses arrived, I hurried into a
|
||
cabriole, and bade farewell to my friend.
|
||
|
||
My journey was very melancholy. At first I wished to hurry on, for I
|
||
longed to console and sympathize with my loved and sorrowing friends;
|
||
but when I drew near my native town, I slackened my progress. I could
|
||
hardly sustain the multitude of feelings that crowded into my mind. I
|
||
passed through scenes familiar to my youth, but which I had not seen for
|
||
nearly six years. How altered every thing might be during that time? One
|
||
sudden and desolating change had taken place; but a thousand little
|
||
circumstances might have by degrees worked other alterations which,
|
||
although they were done more tranquilly, might not be the less decisive.
|
||
Fear overcame me; I dared not advance, dreading a thousand nameless
|
||
evils that made me tremble, although I was unable to define them.
|
||
|
||
I remained two days at Lausanne, in this painful state of mind. I
|
||
contemplated the lake: the waters were placid; all around was calm, and
|
||
the snowy mountains, “the palaces of nature,” were not changed. By
|
||
degrees the calm and heavenly scene restored me, and I continued my
|
||
journey towards Geneva.
|
||
|
||
The road ran by the side of the lake, which became narrower as I
|
||
approached my native town. I discovered more distinctly the black sides
|
||
of Jura, and the bright summit of Mont Blânc; I wept like a child: “Dear
|
||
mountains! my own beautiful lake! how do you welcome your wanderer? Your
|
||
summits are clear; the sky and lake are blue and placid. Is this to
|
||
prognosticate peace, or to mock at my unhappiness?”
|
||
|
||
I fear, my friend, that I shall render myself tedious by dwelling on
|
||
these preliminary circumstances; but they were days of comparative
|
||
happiness, and I think of them with pleasure. My country, my beloved
|
||
country! who but a native can tell the delight I took in again beholding
|
||
thy streams, thy mountains, and, more than all, thy lovely lake.
|
||
|
||
Yet, as I drew nearer home, grief and fear again overcame me. Night also
|
||
closed around; and when I could hardly see the dark mountains, I felt
|
||
still more gloomily. The picture appeared a vast and dim scene of evil,
|
||
and I foresaw obscurely that I was destined to become the most wretched
|
||
of human beings. Alas! I prophesied truly, and failed only in one single
|
||
circumstance, that in all the misery I imagined and dreaded, I did not
|
||
conceive the hundredth part of the anguish I was destined to endure.
|
||
|
||
It was completely dark when I arrived in the environs of Geneva; the
|
||
gates of the town were already shut; and I was obliged to pass the night
|
||
at Secheron, a village half a league to the east of the city. The sky
|
||
was serene; and, as I was unable to rest, I resolved to visit the spot
|
||
where my poor William had been murdered. As I could not pass through the
|
||
town, I was obliged to cross the lake in a boat to arrive at
|
||
Plainpalais. During this short voyage I saw the lightnings playing on
|
||
the summit of Mont Blânc in the most beautiful figures. The storm
|
||
appeared to approach rapidly; and, on landing, I ascended a low hill,
|
||
that I might observe its progress. It advanced; the heavens were
|
||
clouded, and I soon felt the rain coming slowly in large drops, but its
|
||
violence quickly increased.
|
||
|
||
I quitted my seat, and walked on, although the darkness and storm
|
||
increased every minute, and the thunder burst with a terrific crash
|
||
over my head. It was echoed from Salêve, the Juras, and the Alps of
|
||
Savoy; vivid flashes of lightning dazzled my eyes, illuminating the
|
||
lake, making it appear like a vast sheet of fire; then for an instant
|
||
every thing seemed of a pitchy darkness, until the eye recovered itself
|
||
from the preceding flash. The storm, as is often the case in
|
||
Switzerland, appeared at once in various parts of the heavens. The most
|
||
violent storm hung exactly north of the town, over that part of the lake
|
||
which lies between the promontory of Belrive and the village of Copêt.
|
||
Another storm enlightened Jura with faint flashes; and another darkened
|
||
and sometimes disclosed the Môle, a peaked mountain to the east of the
|
||
lake.
|
||
|
||
While I watched the storm, so beautiful yet terrific, I wandered on with
|
||
a hasty step. This noble war in the sky elevated my spirits; I clasped
|
||
my hands, and exclaimed aloud, “William, dear angel! this is thy
|
||
funeral, this thy dirge!” As I said these words, I perceived in the
|
||
gloom a figure which stole from behind a clump of trees near me; I stood
|
||
fixed, gazing intently: I could not be mistaken. A flash of lightning
|
||
illuminated the object, and discovered its shape plainly to me; its
|
||
gigantic stature, and the deformity of its aspect, more hideous than
|
||
belongs to humanity, instantly informed me that it was the wretch, the
|
||
filthy dæmon to whom I had given life. What did he there? Could he be (I
|
||
shuddered at the conception) the murderer of my brother? No sooner did
|
||
that idea cross my imagination, than I became convinced of its truth; my
|
||
teeth chattered, and I was forced to lean against a tree for support.
|
||
The figure passed me quickly, and I lost it in the gloom. Nothing in
|
||
human shape could have destroyed that fair child. _He_ was the murderer!
|
||
I could not doubt it. The mere presence of the idea was an irresistible
|
||
proof of the fact. I thought of pursuing the devil; but it would have
|
||
been in vain, for another flash discovered him to me hanging among the
|
||
rocks of the nearly perpendicular ascent of Mont Salêve, a hill that
|
||
bounds Plainpalais on the south. He soon reached the summit, and
|
||
disappeared.
|
||
|
||
I remained motionless. The thunder ceased; but the rain still continued,
|
||
and the scene was enveloped in an impenetrable darkness. I revolved in
|
||
my mind the events which I had until now sought to forget: the whole
|
||
train of my progress towards the creation; the appearance of the work of
|
||
my own hands alive at my bed side; its departure. Two years had now
|
||
nearly elapsed since the night on which he first received life; and was
|
||
this his first crime? Alas! I had turned loose into the world a depraved
|
||
wretch, whose delight was in carnage and misery; had he not murdered my
|
||
brother?
|
||
|
||
No one can conceive the anguish I suffered during the remainder of the
|
||
night, which I spent, cold and wet, in the open air. But I did not feel
|
||
the inconvenience of the weather; my imagination was busy in scenes of
|
||
evil and despair. I considered the being whom I had cast among mankind,
|
||
and endowed with the will and power to effect purposes of horror, such
|
||
as the deed which he had now done, nearly in the light of my own
|
||
vampire, my own spirit let loose from the grave, and forced to destroy
|
||
all that was dear to me.
|
||
|
||
Day dawned; and I directed my steps towards the town. The gates were
|
||
open; and I hastened to my father’s house. My first thought was to
|
||
discover what I knew of the murderer, and cause instant pursuit to be
|
||
made. But I paused when I reflected on the story that I had to tell. A
|
||
being whom I myself had formed, and endued with life, had met me at
|
||
midnight among the precipices of an inaccessible mountain. I remembered
|
||
also the nervous fever with which I had been seized just at the time
|
||
that I dated my creation, and which would give an air of delirium to a
|
||
tale otherwise so utterly improbable. I well knew that if any other had
|
||
communicated such a relation to me, I should have looked upon it as the
|
||
ravings of insanity. Besides, the strange nature of the animal would
|
||
elude all pursuit, even if I were so far credited as to persuade my
|
||
relatives to commence it. Besides, of what use would be pursuit? Who
|
||
could arrest a creature capable of scaling the overhanging sides of Mont
|
||
Salêve? These reflections determined me, and I resolved to remain
|
||
silent.
|
||
|
||
It was about five in the morning when I entered my father’s house. I
|
||
told the servants not to disturb the family, and went into the library
|
||
to attend their usual hour of rising.
|
||
|
||
Six years had elapsed, passed as a dream but for one indelible trace,
|
||
and I stood in the same place where I had last embraced my father before
|
||
my departure for Ingolstadt. Beloved and respectable parent! He still
|
||
remained to me. I gazed on the picture of my mother, which stood over
|
||
the mantle-piece. It was an historical subject, painted at my father’s
|
||
desire, and represented Caroline Beaufort in an agony of despair,
|
||
kneeling by the coffin of her dead father. Her garb was rustic, and her
|
||
cheek pale; but there was an air of dignity and beauty, that hardly
|
||
permitted the sentiment of pity. Below this picture was a miniature of
|
||
William; and my tears flowed when I looked upon it. While I was thus
|
||
engaged, Ernest entered: he had heard me arrive, and hastened to welcome
|
||
me. He expressed a sorrowful delight to see me: “Welcome, my dearest
|
||
Victor,” said he. “Ah! I wish you had come three months ago, and then
|
||
you would have found us all joyous and delighted. But we are now
|
||
unhappy; and, I am afraid, tears instead of smiles will be your welcome.
|
||
Our father looks so sorrowful: this dreadful event seems to have revived
|
||
in his mind his grief on the death of Mamma. Poor Elizabeth also is
|
||
quite inconsolable.” Ernest began to weep as he said these words.
|
||
|
||
“Do not,” said I, “welcome me thus; try to be more calm, that I may not
|
||
be absolutely miserable the moment I enter my father’s house after so
|
||
long an absence. But, tell me, how does my father support his
|
||
misfortunes? and how is my poor Elizabeth?”
|
||
|
||
“She indeed requires consolation; she accused herself of having caused
|
||
the death of my brother, and that made her very wretched. But since the
|
||
murderer has been discovered——”
|
||
|
||
“The murderer discovered! Good God! how can that be? who could attempt
|
||
to pursue him? It is impossible; one might as well try to overtake the
|
||
winds, or confine a mountain-stream with a straw.”
|
||
|
||
“I do not know what you mean; but we were all very unhappy when she was
|
||
discovered. No one would believe it at first; and even now Elizabeth
|
||
will not be convinced, notwithstanding all the evidence. Indeed, who
|
||
would credit that Justine Moritz, who was so amiable, and fond of all
|
||
the family, could all at once become so extremely wicked?”
|
||
|
||
“Justine Moritz! Poor, poor girl, is she the accused? But it is
|
||
wrongfully; every one knows that; no one believes it, surely, Ernest?”
|
||
|
||
“No one did at first; but several circumstances came out, that have
|
||
almost forced conviction upon us: and her own behaviour has been so
|
||
confused, as to add to the evidence of facts a weight that, I fear,
|
||
leaves no hope for doubt. But she will be tried to-day, and you will
|
||
then hear all.”
|
||
|
||
He related that, the morning on which the murder of poor William had
|
||
been discovered, Justine had been taken ill, and confined to her bed;
|
||
and, after several days, one of the servants, happening to examine the
|
||
apparel she had worn on the night of the murder, had discovered in her
|
||
pocket the picture of my mother, which had been judged to be the
|
||
temptation of the murderer. The servant instantly shewed it to one of
|
||
the others, who, without saying a word to any of the family, went to a
|
||
magistrate; and, upon their deposition, Justine was apprehended. On
|
||
being charged with the fact, the poor girl confirmed the suspicion in a
|
||
great measure by her extreme confusion of manner.
|
||
|
||
This was a strange tale, but it did not shake my faith; and I replied
|
||
earnestly, “You are all mistaken; I know the murderer. Justine, poor,
|
||
good Justine, is innocent.”
|
||
|
||
At that instant my father entered. I saw unhappiness deeply impressed on
|
||
his countenance, but he endeavoured to welcome me cheerfully; and, after
|
||
we had exchanged our mournful greeting, would have introduced some other
|
||
topic than that of our disaster, had not Ernest exclaimed, “Good God,
|
||
Papa! Victor says that he knows who was the murderer of poor William.”
|
||
|
||
“We do also, unfortunately,” replied my father; “for indeed I had rather
|
||
have been for ever ignorant than have discovered so much depravity and
|
||
ingratitude in one I valued so highly.”
|
||
|
||
“My dear father, you are mistaken; Justine is innocent.”
|
||
|
||
“If she is, God forbid that she should suffer as guilty. She is to be
|
||
tried to-day, and I hope, I sincerely hope, that she will be acquitted.”
|
||
|
||
This speech calmed me. I was firmly convinced in my own mind that
|
||
Justine, and indeed every human being, was guiltless of this murder. I
|
||
had no fear, therefore, that any circumstantial evidence could be
|
||
brought forward strong enough to convict her; and, in this assurance, I
|
||
calmed myself, expecting the trial with eagerness, but without
|
||
prognosticating an evil result.
|
||
|
||
We were soon joined by Elizabeth. Time had made great alterations in her
|
||
form since I had last beheld her. Six years before she had been a
|
||
pretty, good-humoured girl, whom every one loved and caressed. She was
|
||
now a woman in stature and expression of countenance, which was
|
||
uncommonly lovely. An open and capacious forehead gave indications of a
|
||
good understanding, joined to great frankness of disposition. Her eyes
|
||
were hazel, and expressive of mildness, now through recent affliction
|
||
allied to sadness. Her hair was of a rich, dark auburn, her complexion
|
||
fair, and her figure slight and graceful. She welcomed me with the
|
||
greatest affection. “Your arrival, my dear cousin,” said she, “fills me
|
||
with hope. You perhaps will find some means to justify my poor guiltless
|
||
Justine. Alas! who is safe, if she be convicted of crime? I rely on her
|
||
innocence as certainly as I do upon my own. Our misfortune is doubly
|
||
hard to us; we have not only lost that lovely darling boy, but this poor
|
||
girl, whom I sincerely love, is to be torn away by even a worse fate. If
|
||
she is condemned, I never shall know joy more. But she will not, I am
|
||
sure she will not; and then I shall be happy again, even after the sad
|
||
death of my little William.”
|
||
|
||
“She is innocent, my Elizabeth,” said I, “and that shall be proved;
|
||
fear nothing, but let your spirits be cheered by the assurance of her
|
||
acquittal.”
|
||
|
||
“How kind you are! every one else believes in her guilt, and that made
|
||
me wretched; for I knew that it was impossible: and to see every one
|
||
else prejudiced in so deadly a manner, rendered me hopeless and
|
||
despairing.” She wept.
|
||
|
||
“Sweet niece,” said my father, “dry your tears. If she is, as you
|
||
believe, innocent, rely on the justice of our judges, and the activity
|
||
with which I shall prevent the slightest shadow of partiality.”
|
||
|
||
|
||
|
||
|
||
CHAPTER VII.
|
||
|
||
|
||
We passed a few sad hours, until eleven o’clock, when the trial was to
|
||
commence. My father and the rest of the family being obliged to attend
|
||
as witnesses, I accompanied them to the court. During the whole of this
|
||
wretched mockery of justice, I suffered living torture. It was to be
|
||
decided, whether the result of my curiosity and lawless devices would
|
||
cause the death of two of my fellow-beings: one a smiling babe, full of
|
||
innocence and joy; the other far more dreadfully murdered, with every
|
||
aggravation of infamy that could make the murder memorable in horror.
|
||
Justine also was a girl of merit, and possessed qualities which promised
|
||
to render her life happy: now all was to be obliterated in an
|
||
ignominious grave; and I the cause! A thousand times rather would I have
|
||
confessed myself guilty of the crime ascribed to Justine; but I was
|
||
absent when it was committed, and such a declaration would have been
|
||
considered as the ravings of a madman, and would not have exculpated her
|
||
who suffered through me.
|
||
|
||
The appearance of Justine was calm. She was dressed in mourning; and her
|
||
countenance, always engaging, was rendered, by the solemnity of her
|
||
feelings, exquisitely beautiful. Yet she appeared confident in
|
||
innocence, and did not tremble, although gazed on and execrated by
|
||
thousands; for all the kindness which her beauty might otherwise have
|
||
excited, was obliterated in the minds of the spectators by the
|
||
imagination of the enormity she was supposed to have committed. She was
|
||
tranquil, yet her tranquillity was evidently constrained; and as her
|
||
confusion had before been adduced as a proof of her guilt, she worked up
|
||
her mind to an appearance of courage. When she entered the court, she
|
||
threw her eyes round it, and quickly discovered where we were seated. A
|
||
tear seemed to dim her eye when she saw us; but she quickly recovered
|
||
herself, and a look of sorrowful affection seemed to attest her utter
|
||
guiltlessness.
|
||
|
||
The trial began; and after the advocate against her had stated the
|
||
charge, several witnesses were called. Several strange facts combined
|
||
against her, which might have staggered any one who had not such proof
|
||
of her innocence as I had. She had been out the whole of the night on
|
||
which the murder had been committed, and towards morning had been
|
||
perceived by a market-woman not far from the spot where the body of the
|
||
murdered child had been afterwards found. The woman asked her what she
|
||
did there; but she looked very strangely, and only returned a confused
|
||
and unintelligible answer. She returned to the house about eight
|
||
o’clock; and when one inquired where she had passed the night, she
|
||
replied, that she had been looking for the child, and demanded
|
||
earnestly, if any thing had been heard concerning him. When shewn the
|
||
body, she fell into violent hysterics, and kept her bed for several
|
||
days. The picture was then produced, which the servant had found in her
|
||
pocket; and when Elizabeth, in a faltering voice, proved that it was the
|
||
same which, an hour before the child had been missed, she had placed
|
||
round his neck, a murmur of horror and indignation filled the court.
|
||
|
||
Justine was called on for her defence. As the trial had proceeded, her
|
||
countenance had altered. Surprise, horror, and misery, were strongly
|
||
expressed. Sometimes she struggled with her tears; but when she was
|
||
desired to plead, she collected her powers, and spoke in an audible
|
||
although variable voice:—
|
||
|
||
“God knows,” she said, “how entirely I am innocent. But I do not pretend
|
||
that my protestations should acquit me: I rest my innocence on a plain
|
||
and simple explanation of the facts which have been adduced against me;
|
||
and I hope the character I have always borne will incline my judges to a
|
||
favourable interpretation, where any circumstance appears doubtful or
|
||
suspicious.”
|
||
|
||
She then related that, by the permission of Elizabeth, she had passed
|
||
the evening of the night on which the murder had been committed, at the
|
||
house of an aunt at Chêne, a village situated at about a league from
|
||
Geneva. On her return, at about nine o’clock, she met a man, who asked
|
||
her if she had seen any thing of the child who was lost. She was alarmed
|
||
by this account, and passed several hours in looking for him, when the
|
||
gates of Geneva were shut, and she was forced to remain several hours of
|
||
the night in a barn belonging to a cottage, being unwilling to call up
|
||
the inhabitants, to whom she was well known. Unable to rest or sleep,
|
||
she quitted her asylum early, that she might again endeavour to find my
|
||
brother. If she had gone near the spot where his body lay, it was
|
||
without her knowledge. That she had been bewildered when questioned by
|
||
the market-woman, was not surprising, since she had passed a sleepless
|
||
night, and the fate of poor William was yet uncertain. Concerning the
|
||
picture she could give no account.
|
||
|
||
“I know,” continued the unhappy victim, “how heavily and fatally this
|
||
one circumstance weighs against me, but I have no power of explaining
|
||
it; and when I have expressed my utter ignorance, I am only left to
|
||
conjecture concerning the probabilities by which it might have been
|
||
placed in my pocket. But here also I am checked. I believe that I have
|
||
no enemy on earth, and none surely would have been so wicked as to
|
||
destroy me wantonly. Did the murderer place it there? I know of no
|
||
opportunity afforded him for so doing; or if I had, why should he have
|
||
stolen the jewel, to part with it again so soon?
|
||
|
||
“I commit my cause to the justice of my judges, yet I see no room for
|
||
hope. I beg permission to have a few witnesses examined concerning my
|
||
character; and if their testimony shall not overweigh my supposed guilt,
|
||
I must be condemned, although I would pledge my salvation on my
|
||
innocence.”
|
||
|
||
Several witnesses were called, who had known her for many years, and
|
||
they spoke well of her; but fear, and hatred of the crime of which they
|
||
supposed her guilty, rendered them timorous, and unwilling to come
|
||
forward. Elizabeth saw even this last resource, her excellent
|
||
dispositions and irreproachable conduct, about to fail the accused,
|
||
when, although violently agitated, she desired permission to address the
|
||
court.
|
||
|
||
“I am,” said she, “the cousin of the unhappy child who was murdered, or
|
||
rather his sister, for I was educated by and have lived with his parents
|
||
ever since and even long before his birth. It may therefore be judged
|
||
indecent in me to come forward on this occasion; but when I see a
|
||
fellow-creature about to perish through the cowardice of her pretended
|
||
friends, I wish to be allowed to speak, that I may say what I know of
|
||
her character. I am well acquainted with the accused. I have lived in
|
||
the same house with her, at one time for five, and at another for nearly
|
||
two years. During all that period she appeared to me the most amiable
|
||
and benevolent of human creatures. She nursed Madame Frankenstein, my
|
||
aunt, in her last illness with the greatest affection and care; and
|
||
afterwards attended her own mother during a tedious illness, in a manner
|
||
that excited the admiration of all who knew her. After which she again
|
||
lived in my uncle’s house, where she was beloved by all the family. She
|
||
was warmly attached to the child who is now dead, and acted towards him
|
||
like a most affectionate mother. For my own part, I do not hesitate to
|
||
say, that, notwithstanding all the evidence produced against her, I
|
||
believe and rely on her perfect innocence. She had no temptation for
|
||
such an action: as to the bauble on which the chief proof rests, if she
|
||
had earnestly desired it, I should have willingly given it to her; so
|
||
much do I esteem and value her.”
|
||
|
||
Excellent Elizabeth! A murmur of approbation was heard; but it was
|
||
excited by her generous interference, and not in favour of poor Justine,
|
||
on whom the public indignation was turned with renewed violence,
|
||
charging her with the blackest ingratitude. She herself wept as
|
||
Elizabeth spoke, but she did not answer. My own agitation and anguish
|
||
was extreme during the whole trial. I believed in her innocence; I knew
|
||
it. Could the dæmon, who had (I did not for a minute doubt) murdered my
|
||
brother, also in his hellish sport have betrayed the innocent to death
|
||
and ignominy. I could not sustain the horror of my situation; and when I
|
||
perceived that the popular voice, and the countenances of the judges,
|
||
had already condemned my unhappy victim, I rushed out of the court in
|
||
agony. The tortures of the accused did not equal mine; she was sustained
|
||
by innocence, but the fangs of remorse tore my bosom, and would not
|
||
forego their hold.
|
||
|
||
I passed a night of unmingled wretchedness. In the morning I went to the
|
||
court; my lips and throat were parched. I dared not ask the fatal
|
||
question; but I was known, and the officer guessed the cause of my
|
||
visit. The ballots had been thrown; they were all black, and Justine was
|
||
condemned.
|
||
|
||
I cannot pretend to describe what I then felt. I had before experienced
|
||
sensations of horror; and I have endeavoured to bestow upon them
|
||
adequate expressions, but words cannot convey an idea of the
|
||
heart-sickening despair that I then endured. The person to whom I
|
||
addressed myself added, that Justine had already confessed her guilt.
|
||
“That evidence,” he observed, “was hardly required in so glaring a case,
|
||
but I am glad of it; and, indeed, none of our judges like to condemn a
|
||
criminal upon circumstantial evidence, be it ever so decisive.”
|
||
|
||
When I returned home, Elizabeth eagerly demanded the result.
|
||
|
||
“My cousin,” replied I, “it is decided as you may have expected; all
|
||
judges had rather that ten innocent should suffer, than that one guilty
|
||
should escape. But she has confessed.”
|
||
|
||
This was a dire blow to poor Elizabeth, who had relied with firmness
|
||
upon Justine’s innocence. “Alas!” said she, “how shall I ever again
|
||
believe in human benevolence? Justine, whom I loved and esteemed as my
|
||
sister, how could she put on those smiles of innocence only to betray;
|
||
her mild eyes seemed incapable of any severity or ill-humour, and yet
|
||
she has committed a murder.”
|
||
|
||
Soon after we heard that the poor victim had expressed a wish to see my
|
||
cousin. My father wished her not to go; but said, that he left it to her
|
||
own judgment and feelings to decide. “Yes,” said Elizabeth, “I will go,
|
||
although she is guilty; and you, Victor, shall accompany me: I cannot go
|
||
alone.” The idea of this visit was torture to me, yet I could not
|
||
refuse.
|
||
|
||
We entered the gloomy prison-chamber, and beheld Justine sitting on some
|
||
straw at the further end; her hands were manacled, and her head rested
|
||
on her knees. She rose on seeing us enter; and when we were left alone
|
||
with her, she threw herself at the feet of Elizabeth, weeping bitterly.
|
||
My cousin wept also.
|
||
|
||
“Oh, Justine!” said she, “why did you rob me of my last consolation. I
|
||
relied on your innocence; and although I was then very wretched, I was
|
||
not so miserable as I am now.”
|
||
|
||
“And do you also believe that I am so very, very wicked? Do you also
|
||
join with my enemies to crush me?” Her voice was suffocated with sobs.
|
||
|
||
“Rise, my poor girl,” said Elizabeth, “why do you kneel, if you are
|
||
innocent? I am not one of your enemies; I believed you guiltless,
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notwithstanding every evidence, until I heard that you had yourself
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declared your guilt. That report, you say, is false; and be assured,
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dear Justine, that nothing can shake my confidence in you for a moment,
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but your own confession.”
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“I did confess; but I confessed a lie. I confessed, that I might obtain
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absolution; but now that falsehood lies heavier at my heart than all my
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other sins. The God of heaven forgive me! Ever since I was condemned, my
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confessor has besieged me; he threatened and menaced, until I almost
|
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began to think that I was the monster that he said I was. He threatened
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excommunication and hell fire in my last moments, if I continued
|
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obdurate. Dear lady, I had none to support me; all looked on me as a
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wretch doomed to ignominy and perdition. What could I do? In an evil
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||
hour I subscribed to a lie; and now only am I truly miserable.”
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She paused, weeping, and then continued—“I thought with horror, my
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sweet lady, that you should believe your Justine, whom your blessed aunt
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had so highly honoured, and whom you loved, was a creature capable of a
|
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crime which none but the devil himself could have perpetrated. Dear
|
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William! dearest blessed child! I soon shall see you again in heaven,
|
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where we shall all be happy; and that consoles me, going as I am to
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suffer ignominy and death.”
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“Oh, Justine! forgive me for having for one moment distrusted you. Why
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did you confess? But do not mourn, my dear girl; I will every where
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proclaim your innocence, and force belief. Yet you must die; you, my
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playfellow, my companion, my more than sister. I never can survive so
|
||
horrible a misfortune.”
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“Dear, sweet Elizabeth, do not weep. You ought to raise me with thoughts
|
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of a better life, and elevate me from the petty cares of this world of
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injustice and strife. Do not you, excellent friend, drive me to
|
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despair.”
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|
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“I will try to comfort you; but this, I fear, is an evil too deep and
|
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poignant to admit of consolation, for there is no hope. Yet heaven
|
||
bless thee, my dearest Justine, with resignation, and a confidence
|
||
elevated beyond this world. Oh! how I hate its shews and mockeries! when
|
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one creature is murdered, another is immediately deprived of life in a
|
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slow torturing manner; then the executioners, their hands yet reeking
|
||
with the blood of innocence, believe that they have done a great deed.
|
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They call this _retribution_. Hateful name! When that word is
|
||
pronounced, I know greater and more horrid punishments are going to be
|
||
inflicted than the gloomiest tyrant has ever invented to satiate his
|
||
utmost revenge. Yet this is not consolation for you, my Justine, unless
|
||
indeed that you may glory in escaping from so miserable a den. Alas! I
|
||
would I were in peace with my aunt and my lovely William, escaped from a
|
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world which is hateful to me, and the visages of men which I abhor.”
|
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|
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Justine smiled languidly. “This, dear lady, is despair, and not
|
||
resignation. I must not learn the lesson that you would teach me. Talk
|
||
of something else, something that will bring peace, and not increase of
|
||
misery.”
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|
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During this conversation I had retired to a corner of the prison-room,
|
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where I could conceal the horrid anguish that possessed me. Despair! Who
|
||
dared talk of that? The poor victim, who on the morrow was to pass the
|
||
dreary boundary between life and death, felt not as I did, such deep and
|
||
bitter agony. I gnashed my teeth, and ground them together, uttering a
|
||
groan that came from my inmost soul. Justine started. When she saw who
|
||
it was, she approached me, and said, “Dear Sir, you are very kind to
|
||
visit me; you, I hope, do not believe that I am guilty.”
|
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|
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I could not answer. “No, Justine,” said Elizabeth; “he is more convinced
|
||
of your innocence than I was; for even when he heard that you had
|
||
confessed, he did not credit it.”
|
||
|
||
“I truly thank him. In these last moments I feel the sincerest gratitude
|
||
towards those who think of me with kindness. How sweet is the affection
|
||
of others to such a wretch as I am! It removes more than half my
|
||
misfortune; and I feel as if I could die in peace, now that my innocence
|
||
is acknowledged by you, dear lady, and your cousin.”
|
||
|
||
Thus the poor sufferer tried to comfort others and herself. She indeed
|
||
gained the resignation she desired. But I, the true murderer, felt the
|
||
never-dying worm alive in my bosom, which allowed of no hope or
|
||
consolation. Elizabeth also wept, and was unhappy; but her’s also was
|
||
the misery of innocence, which, like a cloud that passes over the fair
|
||
moon, for a while hides, but cannot tarnish its brightness. Anguish and
|
||
despair had penetrated into the core of my heart; I bore a hell within
|
||
me, which nothing could extinguish. We staid several hours with Justine;
|
||
and it was with great difficulty that Elizabeth could tear herself away.
|
||
“I wish,” cried she, “that I were to die with you; I cannot live in this
|
||
world of misery.”
|
||
|
||
Justine assumed an air of cheerfulness, while she with difficulty
|
||
repressed her bitter tears. She embraced Elizabeth, and said, in a voice
|
||
of half-suppressed emotion, “Farewell, sweet lady, dearest Elizabeth, my
|
||
beloved and only friend; may heaven in its bounty bless and preserve
|
||
you; may this be the last misfortune that you will ever suffer. Live,
|
||
and be happy, and make others so.”
|
||
|
||
As we returned, Elizabeth said, “You know not, my dear Victor, how much
|
||
I am relieved, now that I trust in the innocence of this unfortunate
|
||
girl. I never could again have known peace, if I had been deceived in my
|
||
reliance on her. For the moment that I did believe her guilty, I felt an
|
||
anguish that I could not have long sustained. Now my heart is lightened.
|
||
The innocent suffers; but she whom I thought amiable and good has not
|
||
betrayed the trust I reposed in her, and I am consoled.”
|
||
|
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Amiable cousin! such were your thoughts, mild and gentle as your own
|
||
dear eyes and voice. But I—I was a wretch, and none ever conceived of
|
||
the misery that I then endured.
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END OF VOL. I.
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FRANKENSTEIN;
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|
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OR,
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THE MODERN PROMETHEUS.
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IN THREE VOLUMES.
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VOL. II.
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London:
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_PRINTED FOR_
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LACKINGTON, HUGHES, HARDING, MAVOR, & JONES,
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FINSBURY SQUARE.
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1818.
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* * * * *
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Did I request thee, Maker, from my clay
|
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To mould me man? Did I solicit thee
|
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From darkness to promote me?——
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|
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Paradise Lost.
|
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|
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|
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|
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|
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CHAPTER I.
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|
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|
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Nothing is more painful to the human mind, than, after the feelings have
|
||
been worked up by a quick succession of events, the dead calmness of
|
||
inaction and certainty which follows, and deprives the soul both of hope
|
||
and fear. Justine died; she rested; and I was alive. The blood flowed
|
||
freely in my veins, but a weight of despair and remorse pressed on my
|
||
heart, which nothing could remove. Sleep fled from my eyes; I wandered
|
||
like an evil spirit, for I had committed deeds of mischief beyond
|
||
description horrible, and more, much more, (I persuaded myself) was yet
|
||
behind. Yet my heart overflowed with kindness, and the love of virtue. I
|
||
had begun life with benevolent intentions, and thirsted for the moment
|
||
when I should put them in practice, and make myself useful to my
|
||
fellow-beings. Now all was blasted: instead of that serenity of
|
||
conscience, which allowed me to look back upon the past with
|
||
self-satisfaction, and from thence to gather promise of new hopes, I
|
||
was seized by remorse and the sense of guilt, which hurried me away to
|
||
a hell of intense tortures, such as no language can describe.
|
||
|
||
This state of mind preyed upon my health, which had entirely recovered
|
||
from the first shock it had sustained. I shunned the face of man; all
|
||
sound of joy or complacency was torture to me; solitude was my only
|
||
consolation—deep, dark, death-like solitude.
|
||
|
||
My father observed with pain the alteration perceptible in my
|
||
disposition and habits, and endeavoured to reason with me on the folly
|
||
of giving way to immoderate grief. “Do you think, Victor,” said he,
|
||
“that I do not suffer also? No one could love a child more than I loved
|
||
your brother;” (tears came into his eyes as he spoke); “but is it not a
|
||
duty to the survivors, that we should refrain from augmenting their
|
||
unhappiness by an appearance of immoderate grief? It is also a duty owed
|
||
to yourself; for excessive sorrow prevents improvement or enjoyment, or
|
||
even the discharge of daily usefulness, without which no man is fit for
|
||
society.”
|
||
|
||
This advice, although good, was totally inapplicable to my case; I
|
||
should have been the first to hide my grief, and console my friends, if
|
||
remorse had not mingled its bitterness with my other sensations. Now I
|
||
could only answer my father with a look of despair, and endeavour to
|
||
hide myself from his view.
|
||
|
||
About this time we retired to our house at Belrive. This change was
|
||
particularly agreeable to me. The shutting of the gates regularly at ten
|
||
o’clock, and the impossibility of remaining on the lake after that
|
||
hour, had rendered our residence within the walls of Geneva very irksome
|
||
to me. I was now free. Often, after the rest of the family had retired
|
||
for the night, I took the boat, and passed many hours upon the water.
|
||
Sometimes, with my sails set, I was carried by the wind; and sometimes,
|
||
after rowing into the middle of the lake, I left the boat to pursue its
|
||
own course, and gave way to my own miserable reflections. I was often
|
||
tempted, when all was at peace around me, and I the only unquiet thing
|
||
that wandered restless in a scene so beautiful and heavenly, if I except
|
||
some bat, or the frogs, whose harsh and interrupted croaking was heard
|
||
only when I approached the shore—often, I say, I was tempted to plunge
|
||
into the silent lake, that the waters might close over me and my
|
||
calamities for ever. But I was restrained, when I thought of the heroic
|
||
and suffering Elizabeth, whom I tenderly loved, and whose existence was
|
||
bound up in mine. I thought also of my father, and surviving brother:
|
||
should I by my base desertion leave them exposed and unprotected to the
|
||
malice of the fiend whom I had let loose among them?
|
||
|
||
At these moments I wept bitterly, and wished that peace would revisit my
|
||
mind only that I might afford them consolation and happiness. But that
|
||
could not be. Remorse extinguished every hope. I had been the author of
|
||
unalterable evils; and I lived in daily fear, lest the monster whom I
|
||
had created should perpetrate some new wickedness. I had an obscure
|
||
feeling that all was not over, and that he would still commit some
|
||
signal crime, which by its enormity should almost efface the
|
||
recollection of the past. There was always scope for fear, so long as
|
||
any thing I loved remained behind. My abhorrence of this fiend cannot be
|
||
conceived. When I thought of him, I gnashed my teeth, my eyes became
|
||
inflamed, and I ardently wished to extinguish that life which I had so
|
||
thoughtlessly bestowed. When I reflected on his crimes and malice, my
|
||
hatred and revenge burst all bounds of moderation. I would have made a
|
||
pilgrimage to the highest peak of the Andes, could I, when there, have
|
||
precipitated him to their base. I wished to see him again, that I might
|
||
wreak the utmost extent of anger on his head, and avenge the deaths of
|
||
William and Justine.
|
||
|
||
Our house was the house of mourning. My father’s health was deeply
|
||
shaken by the horror of the recent events. Elizabeth was sad and
|
||
desponding; she no longer took delight in her ordinary occupations; all
|
||
pleasure seemed to her sacrilege toward the dead; eternal woe and tears
|
||
she then thought was the just tribute she should pay to innocence so
|
||
blasted and destroyed. She was no longer that happy creature, who in
|
||
earlier youth wandered with me on the banks of the lake, and talked with
|
||
ecstacy of our future prospects. She had become grave, and often
|
||
conversed of the inconstancy of fortune, and the instability of human
|
||
life.
|
||
|
||
“When I reflect, my dear cousin,” said she, “on the miserable death of
|
||
Justine Moritz, I no longer see the world and its works as they before
|
||
appeared to me. Before, I looked upon the accounts of vice and
|
||
injustice, that I read in books or heard from others, as tales of
|
||
ancient days, or imaginary evils; at least they were remote, and more
|
||
familiar to reason than to the imagination; but now misery has come
|
||
home, and men appear to me as monsters thirsting for each other’s blood.
|
||
Yet I am certainly unjust. Every body believed that poor girl to be
|
||
guilty; and if she could have committed the crime for which she
|
||
suffered, assuredly she would have been the most depraved of human
|
||
creatures. For the sake of a few jewels, to have murdered the son of her
|
||
benefactor and friend, a child whom she had nursed from its birth, and
|
||
appeared to love as if it had been her own! I could not consent to the
|
||
death of any human being; but certainly I should have thought such a
|
||
creature unfit to remain in the society of men. Yet she was innocent. I
|
||
know, I feel she was innocent; you are of the same opinion, and that
|
||
confirms me. Alas! Victor, when falsehood can look so like the truth,
|
||
who can assure themselves of certain happiness? I feel as if I were
|
||
walking on the edge of a precipice, towards which thousands are
|
||
crowding, and endeavouring to plunge me into the abyss. William and
|
||
Justine were assassinated, and the murderer escapes; he walks about the
|
||
world free, and perhaps respected. But even if I were condemned to
|
||
suffer on the scaffold for the same crimes, I would not change places
|
||
with such a wretch.”
|
||
|
||
I listened to this discourse with the extremest agony. I, not in deed,
|
||
but in effect, was the true murderer. Elizabeth read my anguish in my
|
||
countenance, and kindly taking my hand said, “My dearest cousin, you
|
||
must calm yourself. These events have affected me, God knows how deeply;
|
||
but I am not so wretched as you are. There is an expression of despair,
|
||
and sometimes of revenge, in your countenance, that makes me tremble. Be
|
||
calm, my dear Victor; I would sacrifice my life to your peace. We surely
|
||
shall be happy: quiet in our native country, and not mingling in the
|
||
world, what can disturb our tranquillity?”
|
||
|
||
She shed tears as she said this, distrusting the very solace that she
|
||
gave; but at the same time she smiled, that she might chase away the
|
||
fiend that lurked in my heart. My father, who saw in the unhappiness
|
||
that was painted in my face only an exaggeration of that sorrow which I
|
||
might naturally feel, thought that an amusement suited to my taste would
|
||
be the best means of restoring to me my wonted serenity. It was from
|
||
this cause that he had removed to the country; and, induced by the same
|
||
motive, he now proposed that we should all make an excursion to the
|
||
valley of Chamounix. I had been there before, but Elizabeth and Ernest
|
||
never had; and both had often expressed an earnest desire to see the
|
||
scenery of this place, which had been described to them as so wonderful
|
||
and sublime. Accordingly we departed from Geneva on this tour about the
|
||
middle of the month of August, nearly two months after the death of
|
||
Justine.
|
||
|
||
The weather was uncommonly fine; and if mine had been a sorrow to be
|
||
chased away by any fleeting circumstance, this excursion would certainly
|
||
have had the effect intended by my father. As it was, I was somewhat
|
||
interested in the scene; it sometimes lulled, although it could not
|
||
extinguish my grief. During the first day we travelled in a carriage. In
|
||
the morning we had seen the mountains at a distance, towards which we
|
||
gradually advanced. We perceived that the valley through which we wound,
|
||
and which was formed by the river Arve, whose course we followed, closed
|
||
in upon us by degrees; and when the sun had set, we beheld immense
|
||
mountains and precipices overhanging us on every side, and heard the
|
||
sound of the river raging among rocks, and the dashing of water-falls
|
||
around.
|
||
|
||
The next day we pursued our journey upon mules; and as we ascended still
|
||
higher, the valley assumed a more magnificent and astonishing character.
|
||
Ruined castles hanging on the precipices of piny mountains; the
|
||
impetuous Arve, and cottages every here and there peeping forth from
|
||
among the trees, formed a scene of singular beauty. But it was augmented
|
||
and rendered sublime by the mighty Alps, whose white and shining
|
||
pyramids and domes towered above all, as belonging to another earth, the
|
||
habitations of another race of beings.
|
||
|
||
We passed the bridge of Pelissier, where the ravine, which the river
|
||
forms, opened before us, and we began to ascend the mountain that
|
||
overhangs it. Soon after we entered the valley of Chamounix. This valley
|
||
is more wonderful and sublime, but not so beautiful and picturesque as
|
||
that of Servox, through which we had just passed. The high and snowy
|
||
mountains were its immediate boundaries; but we saw no more ruined
|
||
castles and fertile fields. Immense glaciers approached the road; we
|
||
heard the rumbling thunder of the falling avalanche, and marked the
|
||
smoke of its passage. Mont Blânc, the supreme and magnificent Mont
|
||
Blânc, raised itself from the surrounding _aiguilles_, and its
|
||
tremendous _dome_ overlooked the valley.
|
||
|
||
During this journey, I sometimes joined Elizabeth, and exerted myself to
|
||
point out to her the various beauties of the scene. I often suffered my
|
||
mule to lag behind, and indulged in the misery of reflection. At other
|
||
times I spurred on the animal before my companions, that I might forget
|
||
them, the world, and, more than all, myself. When at a distance, I
|
||
alighted, and threw myself on the grass, weighed down by horror and
|
||
despair. At eight in the evening I arrived at Chamounix. My father and
|
||
Elizabeth were very much fatigued; Ernest, who accompanied us, was
|
||
delighted, and in high spirits: the only circumstance that detracted
|
||
from his pleasure was the south wind, and the rain it seemed to promise
|
||
for the next day.
|
||
|
||
We retired early to our apartments, but not to sleep; at least I did
|
||
not. I remained many hours at the window, watching the pallid lightning
|
||
that played above Mont Blânc, and listening to the rushing of the Arve,
|
||
which ran below my window.
|
||
|
||
|
||
|
||
|
||
CHAPTER II.
|
||
|
||
|
||
The next day, contrary to the prognostications of our guides, was fine,
|
||
although clouded. We visited the source of the Arveiron, and rode about
|
||
the valley until evening. These sublime and magnificent scenes afforded
|
||
me the greatest consolation that I was capable of receiving. They
|
||
elevated me from all littleness of feeling; and although they did not
|
||
remove my grief, they subdued and tranquillized it. In some degree,
|
||
also, they diverted my mind from the thoughts over which it had brooded
|
||
for the last month. I returned in the evening, fatigued, but less
|
||
unhappy, and conversed with my family with more cheerfulness than had
|
||
been my custom for some time. My father was pleased, and Elizabeth
|
||
overjoyed. “My dear cousin,” said she, “you see what happiness you
|
||
diffuse when you are happy; do not relapse again!”
|
||
|
||
The following morning the rain poured down in torrents, and thick mists
|
||
hid the summits of the mountains. I rose early, but felt unusually
|
||
melancholy. The rain depressed me; my old feelings recurred, and I was
|
||
miserable. I knew how disappointed my father would be at this sudden
|
||
change, and I wished to avoid him until I had recovered myself so far as
|
||
to be enabled to conceal those feelings that overpowered me. I knew
|
||
that they would remain that day at the inn; and as I had ever inured
|
||
myself to rain, moisture, and cold, I resolved to go alone to the summit
|
||
of Montanvert. I remembered the effect that the view of the tremendous
|
||
and ever-moving glacier had produced upon my mind when I first saw it.
|
||
It had then filled me with a sublime ecstacy that gave wings to the
|
||
soul, and allowed it to soar from the obscure world to light and joy.
|
||
The sight of the awful and majestic in nature had indeed always the
|
||
effect of solemnizing my mind, and causing me to forget the passing
|
||
cares of life. I determined to go alone, for I was well acquainted with
|
||
the path, and the presence of another would destroy the solitary
|
||
grandeur of the scene.
|
||
|
||
The ascent is precipitous, but the path is cut into continual and short
|
||
windings, which enable you to surmount the perpendicularity of the
|
||
mountain. It is a scene terrifically desolate. In a thousand spots the
|
||
traces of the winter avalanche may be perceived, where trees lie broken
|
||
and strewed on the ground; some entirely destroyed, others bent, leaning
|
||
upon the jutting rocks of the mountain, or transversely upon other
|
||
trees. The path, as you ascend higher, is intersected by ravines of
|
||
snow, down which stones continually roll from above; one of them is
|
||
particularly dangerous, as the slightest sound, such as even speaking in
|
||
a loud voice, produces a concussion of air sufficient to draw
|
||
destruction upon the head of the speaker. The pines are not tall or
|
||
luxuriant, but they are sombre, and add an air of severity to the scene.
|
||
I looked on the valley beneath; vast mists were rising from the rivers
|
||
which ran through it, and curling in thick wreaths around the opposite
|
||
mountains, whose summits were hid in the uniform clouds, while rain
|
||
poured from the dark sky, and added to the melancholy impression I
|
||
received from the objects around me. Alas! why does man boast of
|
||
sensibilities superior to those apparent in the brute; it only renders
|
||
them more necessary beings. If our impulses were confined to hunger,
|
||
thirst, and desire, we might be nearly free; but now we are moved by
|
||
every wind that blows, and a chance word or scene that that word may
|
||
convey to us.
|
||
|
||
We rest; a dream has power to poison sleep.
|
||
We rise; one wand’ring thought pollutes the day.
|
||
We feel, conceive, or reason; laugh, or weep,
|
||
Embrace fond woe, or cast our cares away;
|
||
It is the same: for, be it joy or sorrow,
|
||
The path of its departure still is free.
|
||
Man’s yesterday may ne’er be like his morrow;
|
||
Nought may endure but mutability!
|
||
|
||
It was nearly noon when I arrived at the top of the ascent. For some
|
||
time I sat upon the rock that overlooks the sea of ice. A mist covered
|
||
both that and the surrounding mountains. Presently a breeze dissipated
|
||
the cloud, and I descended upon the glacier. The surface is very uneven,
|
||
rising like the waves of a troubled sea, descending low, and
|
||
interspersed by rifts that sink deep. The field of ice is almost a
|
||
league in width, but I spent nearly two hours in crossing it. The
|
||
opposite mountain is a bare perpendicular rock. From the side where I
|
||
now stood Montanvert was exactly opposite, at the distance of a league;
|
||
and above it rose Mont Blânc, in awful majesty. I remained in a recess
|
||
of the rock, gazing on this wonderful and stupendous scene. The sea, or
|
||
rather the vast river of ice, wound among its dependent mountains, whose
|
||
aërial summits hung over its recesses. Their icy and glittering peaks
|
||
shone in the sunlight over the clouds. My heart, which was before
|
||
sorrowful, now swelled with something like joy; I exclaimed—“Wandering
|
||
spirits, if indeed ye wander, and do not rest in your narrow beds, allow
|
||
me this faint happiness, or take me, as your companion, away from the
|
||
joys of life.”
|
||
|
||
As I said this, I suddenly beheld the figure of a man, at some distance,
|
||
advancing towards me with superhuman speed. He bounded over the crevices
|
||
in the ice, among which I had walked with caution; his stature also, as
|
||
he approached, seemed to exceed that of man. I was troubled: a mist came
|
||
over my eyes, and I felt a faintness seize me; but I was quickly
|
||
restored by the cold gale of the mountains. I perceived, as the shape
|
||
came nearer, (sight tremendous and abhorred!) that it was the wretch
|
||
whom I had created. I trembled with rage and horror, resolving to wait
|
||
his approach, and then close with him in mortal combat. He approached;
|
||
his countenance bespoke bitter anguish, combined with disdain and
|
||
malignity, while its unearthly ugliness rendered it almost too horrible
|
||
for human eyes. But I scarcely observed this; anger and hatred had at
|
||
first deprived me of utterance, and I recovered only to overwhelm him
|
||
with words expressive of furious detestation and contempt.
|
||
|
||
“Devil!” I exclaimed, “do you dare approach me? and do not you fear the
|
||
fierce vengeance of my arm wreaked on your miserable head? Begone, vile
|
||
insect! or rather stay, that I may trample you to dust! and, oh, that I
|
||
could, with the extinction of your miserable existence, restore those
|
||
victims whom you have so diabolically murdered!”
|
||
|
||
“I expected this reception,” said the dæmon. “All men hate the wretched;
|
||
how then must I be hated, who am miserable beyond all living things! Yet
|
||
you, my creator, detest and spurn me, thy creature, to whom thou art
|
||
bound by ties only dissoluble by the annihilation of one of us. You
|
||
purpose to kill me. How dare you sport thus with life? Do your duty
|
||
towards me, and I will do mine towards you and the rest of mankind. If
|
||
you will comply with my conditions, I will leave them and you at peace;
|
||
but if you refuse, I will glut the maw of death, until it be satiated
|
||
with the blood of your remaining friends.”
|
||
|
||
“Abhorred monster! fiend that thou art! the tortures of hell are too
|
||
mild a vengeance for thy crimes. Wretched devil! you reproach me with
|
||
your creation; come on then, that I may extinguish the spark which I so
|
||
negligently bestowed.”
|
||
|
||
My rage was without bounds; I sprang on him, impelled by all the
|
||
feelings which can arm one being against the existence of another.
|
||
|
||
He easily eluded me, and said,
|
||
|
||
“Be calm! I entreat you to hear me, before you give vent to your hatred
|
||
on my devoted head. Have I not suffered enough, that you seek to
|
||
increase my misery? Life, although it may only be an accumulation of
|
||
anguish, is dear to me, and I will defend it. Remember, thou hast made
|
||
me more powerful than thyself; my height is superior to thine; my joints
|
||
more supple. But I will not be tempted to set myself in opposition to
|
||
thee. I am thy creature, and I will be even mild and docile to my
|
||
natural lord and king, if thou wilt also perform thy part, the which
|
||
thou owest me. Oh, Frankenstein, be not equitable to every other, and
|
||
trample upon me alone, to whom thy justice, and even thy clemency and
|
||
affection, is most due. Remember, that I am thy creature: I ought to be
|
||
thy Adam; but I am rather the fallen angel, whom thou drivest from joy
|
||
for no misdeed. Every where I see bliss, from which I alone am
|
||
irrevocably excluded. I was benevolent and good; misery made me a fiend.
|
||
Make me happy, and I shall again be virtuous.”
|
||
|
||
“Begone! I will not hear you. There can be no community between you and
|
||
me; we are enemies. Begone, or let us try our strength in a fight, in
|
||
which one must fall.”
|
||
|
||
“How can I move thee? Will no entreaties cause thee to turn a favourable
|
||
eye upon thy creature, who implores thy goodness and compassion? Believe
|
||
me, Frankenstein: I was benevolent; my soul glowed with love and
|
||
humanity: but am I not alone, miserably alone? You, my creator, abhor
|
||
me; what hope can I gather from your fellow-creatures, who owe me
|
||
nothing? they spurn and hate me. The desert mountains and dreary
|
||
glaciers are my refuge. I have wandered here many days; the caves of
|
||
ice, which I only do not fear, are a dwelling to me, and the only one
|
||
which man does not grudge. These bleak skies I hail, for they are kinder
|
||
to me than your fellow-beings. If the multitude of mankind knew of my
|
||
existence, they would do as you do, and arm themselves for my
|
||
destruction. Shall I not then hate them who abhor me? I will keep no
|
||
terms with my enemies. I am miserable, and they shall share my
|
||
wretchedness. Yet it is in your power to recompense me, and deliver them
|
||
from an evil which it only remains for you to make so great, that not
|
||
only you and your family, but thousands of others, shall be swallowed
|
||
up in the whirlwinds of its rage. Let your compassion be moved, and do
|
||
not disdain me. Listen to my tale: when you have heard that, abandon or
|
||
commiserate me, as you shall judge that I deserve. But hear me. The
|
||
guilty are allowed, by human laws, bloody as they may be, to speak in
|
||
their own defence before they are condemned. Listen to me, Frankenstein.
|
||
You accuse me of murder; and yet you would, with a satisfied conscience,
|
||
destroy your own creature. Oh, praise the eternal justice of man! Yet I
|
||
ask you not to spare me: listen to me; and then, if you can, and if you
|
||
will, destroy the work of your hands.”
|
||
|
||
“Why do you call to my remembrance circumstances of which I shudder to
|
||
reflect, that I have been the miserable origin and author? Cursed be the
|
||
day, abhorred devil, in which you first saw light! Cursed (although I
|
||
curse myself) be the hands that formed you! You have made me wretched
|
||
beyond expression. You have left me no power to consider whether I am
|
||
just to you, or not. Begone! relieve me from the sight of your detested
|
||
form.”
|
||
|
||
“Thus I relieve thee, my creator,” he said, and placed his hated hands
|
||
before my eyes, which I flung from me with violence; “thus I take from
|
||
thee a sight which you abhor. Still thou canst listen to me, and grant
|
||
me thy compassion. By the virtues that I once possessed, I demand this
|
||
from you. Hear my tale; it is long and strange, and the temperature of
|
||
this place is not fitting to your fine sensations; come to the hut upon
|
||
the mountain. The sun is yet high in the heavens; before it descends to
|
||
hide itself behind yon snowy precipices, and illuminate another world,
|
||
you will have heard my story, and can decide. On you it rests, whether I
|
||
quit for ever the neighbourhood of man, and lead a harmless life, or
|
||
become the scourge of your fellow-creatures, and the author of your own
|
||
speedy ruin.”
|
||
|
||
As he said this, he led the way across the ice: I followed. My heart was
|
||
full, and I did not answer him; but, as I proceeded, I weighed the
|
||
various arguments that he had used, and determined at least to listen to
|
||
his tale. I was partly urged by curiosity, and compassion confirmed my
|
||
resolution. I had hitherto supposed him to be the murderer of my
|
||
brother, and I eagerly sought a confirmation or denial of this opinion.
|
||
For the first time, also, I felt what the duties of a creator towards
|
||
his creature were, and that I ought to render him happy before I
|
||
complained of his wickedness. These motives urged me to comply with his
|
||
demand. We crossed the ice, therefore, and ascended the opposite rock.
|
||
The air was cold, and the rain again began to descend: we entered the
|
||
hut, the fiend with an air of exultation, I with a heavy heart, and
|
||
depressed spirits. But I consented to listen; and, seating myself by the
|
||
fire which my odious companion had lighted, he thus began his tale.
|
||
|
||
|
||
|
||
|
||
CHAPTER III.
|
||
|
||
|
||
“It is with considerable difficulty that I remember the original æra of
|
||
my being: all the events of that period appear confused and indistinct.
|
||
A strange multiplicity of sensations seized me, and I saw, felt, heard,
|
||
and smelt, at the same time; and it was, indeed, a long time before I
|
||
learned to distinguish between the operations of my various senses. By
|
||
degrees, I remember, a stronger light pressed upon my nerves, so that I
|
||
was obliged to shut my eyes. Darkness then came over me, and troubled
|
||
me; but hardly had I felt this, when, by opening my eyes, as I now
|
||
suppose, the light poured in upon me again. I walked, and, I believe,
|
||
descended; but I presently found a great alteration in my sensations.
|
||
Before, dark and opaque bodies had surrounded me, impervious to my touch
|
||
or sight; but I now found that I could wander on at liberty, with no
|
||
obstacles which I could not either surmount or avoid. The light became
|
||
more and more oppressive to me; and, the heat wearying me as I walked, I
|
||
sought a place where I could receive shade. This was the forest near
|
||
Ingolstadt; and here I lay by the side of a brook resting from my
|
||
fatigue, until I felt tormented by hunger and thirst. This roused me
|
||
from my nearly dormant state, and I ate some berries which I found
|
||
hanging on the trees, or lying on the ground. I slaked my thirst at the
|
||
brook; and then lying down, was overcome by sleep.
|
||
|
||
“It was dark when I awoke; I felt cold also, and half-frightened as it
|
||
were instinctively, finding myself so desolate. Before I had quitted
|
||
your apartment, on a sensation of cold, I had covered myself with some
|
||
clothes; but these were insufficient to secure me from the dews of
|
||
night. I was a poor, helpless, miserable wretch; I knew, and could
|
||
distinguish, nothing; but, feeling pain invade me on all sides, I sat
|
||
down and wept.
|
||
|
||
“Soon a gentle light stole over the heavens, and gave me a sensation of
|
||
pleasure. I started up, and beheld a radiant form rise from among the
|
||
trees. I gazed with a kind of wonder. It moved slowly, but it
|
||
enlightened my path; and I again went out in search of berries. I was
|
||
still cold, when under one of the trees I found a huge cloak, with which
|
||
I covered myself, and sat down upon the ground. No distinct ideas
|
||
occupied my mind; all was confused. I felt light, and hunger, and
|
||
thirst, and darkness; innumerable sounds rung in my ears, and on all
|
||
sides various scents saluted me: the only object that I could
|
||
distinguish was the bright moon, and I fixed my eyes on that with
|
||
pleasure.
|
||
|
||
“Several changes of day and night passed, and the orb of night had
|
||
greatly lessened when I began to distinguish my sensations from each
|
||
other. I gradually saw plainly the clear stream that supplied me with
|
||
drink, and the trees that shaded me with their foliage. I was delighted
|
||
when I first discovered that a pleasant sound, which often saluted my
|
||
ears, proceeded from the throats of the little winged animals who had
|
||
often intercepted the light from my eyes. I began also to observe, with
|
||
greater accuracy, the forms that surrounded me, and to perceive the
|
||
boundaries of the radiant roof of light which canopied me. Sometimes I
|
||
tried to imitate the pleasant songs of the birds, but was unable.
|
||
Sometimes I wished to express my sensations in my own mode, but the
|
||
uncouth and inarticulate sounds which broke from me frightened me into
|
||
silence again.
|
||
|
||
“The moon had disappeared from the night, and again, with a lessened
|
||
form, shewed itself, while I still remained in the forest. My sensations
|
||
had, by this time, become distinct, and my mind received every day
|
||
additional ideas. My eyes became accustomed to the light, and to
|
||
perceive objects in their right forms; I distinguished the insect from
|
||
the herb, and, by degrees, one herb from another. I found that the
|
||
sparrow uttered none but harsh notes, whilst those of the blackbird and
|
||
thrush were sweet and enticing.
|
||
|
||
“One day, when I was oppressed by cold, I found a fire which had been
|
||
left by some wandering beggars, and was overcome with delight at the
|
||
warmth I experienced from it. In my joy I thrust my hand into the live
|
||
embers, but quickly drew it out again with a cry of pain. How strange, I
|
||
thought, that the same cause should produce such opposite effects! I
|
||
examined the materials of the fire, and to my joy found it to be
|
||
composed of wood. I quickly collected some branches; but they were wet,
|
||
and would not burn. I was pained at this, and sat still watching the
|
||
operation of the fire. The wet wood which I had placed near the heat
|
||
dried, and itself became inflamed. I reflected on this; and, by touching
|
||
the various branches, I discovered the cause, and busied myself in
|
||
collecting a great quantity of wood, that I might dry it, and have a
|
||
plentiful supply of fire. When night came on, and brought sleep with it,
|
||
I was in the greatest fear lest my fire should be extinguished. I
|
||
covered it carefully with dry wood and leaves, and placed wet branches
|
||
upon it; and then, spreading my cloak, I lay on the ground, and sunk
|
||
into sleep.
|
||
|
||
“It was morning when I awoke, and my first care was to visit the fire. I
|
||
uncovered it, and a gentle breeze quickly fanned it into a flame. I
|
||
observed this also, and contrived a fan of branches, which roused the
|
||
embers when they were nearly extinguished. When night came again, I
|
||
found, with pleasure, that the fire gave light as well as heat; and that
|
||
the discovery of this element was useful to me in my food; for I found
|
||
some of the offals that the travellers had left had been roasted, and
|
||
tasted much more savoury than the berries I gathered from the trees. I
|
||
tried, therefore, to dress my food in the same manner, placing it on the
|
||
live embers. I found that the berries were spoiled by this operation,
|
||
and the nuts and roots much improved.
|
||
|
||
“Food, however, became scarce; and I often spent the whole day searching
|
||
in vain for a few acorns to assuage the pangs of hunger. When I found
|
||
this, I resolved to quit the place that I had hitherto inhabited, to
|
||
seek for one where the few wants I experienced would be more easily
|
||
satisfied. In this emigration, I exceedingly lamented the loss of the
|
||
fire which I had obtained through accident, and knew not how to
|
||
re-produce it. I gave several hours to the serious consideration of
|
||
this difficulty; but I was obliged to relinquish all attempt to supply
|
||
it; and, wrapping myself up in my cloak, I struck across the wood
|
||
towards the setting sun. I passed three days in these rambles, and at
|
||
length discovered the open country. A great fall of snow had taken place
|
||
the night before, and the fields were of one uniform white; the
|
||
appearance was disconsolate, and I found my feet chilled by the cold
|
||
damp substance that covered the ground.
|
||
|
||
“It was about seven in the morning, and I longed to obtain food and
|
||
shelter; at length I perceived a small hut, on a rising ground, which
|
||
had doubtless been built for the convenience of some shepherd. This was
|
||
a new sight to me; and I examined the structure with great curiosity.
|
||
Finding the door open, I entered. An old man sat in it, near a fire,
|
||
over which he was preparing his breakfast. He turned on hearing a noise;
|
||
and, perceiving me, shrieked loudly, and, quitting the hut, ran across
|
||
the fields with a speed of which his debilitated form hardly appeared
|
||
capable. His appearance, different from any I had ever before seen, and
|
||
his flight, somewhat surprised me. But I was enchanted by the appearance
|
||
of the hut: here the snow and rain could not penetrate; the ground was
|
||
dry; and it presented to me then as exquisite and divine a retreat as
|
||
Pandæmonium appeared to the dæmons of hell after their sufferings in the
|
||
lake of fire. I greedily devoured the remnants of the shepherd’s
|
||
breakfast, which consisted of bread, cheese, milk, and wine; the
|
||
latter, however, I did not like. Then overcome by fatigue, I lay down
|
||
among some straw, and fell asleep.
|
||
|
||
“It was noon when I awoke; and, allured by the warmth of the sun, which
|
||
shone brightly on the white ground, I determined to recommence my
|
||
travels; and, depositing the remains of the peasant’s breakfast in a
|
||
wallet I found, I proceeded across the fields for several hours, until
|
||
at sunset I arrived at a village. How miraculous did this appear! the
|
||
huts, the neater cottages, and stately houses, engaged my admiration by
|
||
turns. The vegetables in the gardens, the milk and cheese that I saw
|
||
placed at the windows of some of the cottages, allured my appetite. One
|
||
of the best of these I entered; but I had hardly placed my foot within
|
||
the door, before the children shrieked, and one of the women fainted.
|
||
The whole village was roused; some fled, some attacked me, until,
|
||
grievously bruised by stones and many other kinds of missile weapons, I
|
||
escaped to the open country, and fearfully took refuge in a low hovel,
|
||
quite bare, and making a wretched appearance after the palaces I had
|
||
beheld in the village. This hovel, however, joined a cottage of a neat
|
||
and pleasant appearance; but, after my late dearly-bought experience, I
|
||
dared not enter it. My place of refuge was constructed of wood, but so
|
||
low, that I could with difficulty sit upright in it. No wood, however,
|
||
was placed on the earth, which formed the floor, but it was dry; and
|
||
although the wind entered it by innumerable chinks, I found it an
|
||
agreeable asylum from the snow and rain.
|
||
|
||
“Here then I retreated, and lay down, happy to have found a shelter,
|
||
however miserable, from the inclemency of the season, and still more
|
||
from the barbarity of man.
|
||
|
||
“As soon as morning dawned, I crept from my kennel, that I might view
|
||
the adjacent cottage, and discover if I could remain in the habitation I
|
||
had found. It was situated against the back of the cottage, and
|
||
surrounded on the sides which were exposed by a pig-stye and a clear
|
||
pool of water. One part was open, and by that I had crept in; but now I
|
||
covered every crevice by which I might be perceived with stones and
|
||
wood, yet in such a manner that I might move them on occasion to pass
|
||
out: all the light I enjoyed came through the stye, and that was
|
||
sufficient for me.
|
||
|
||
“Having thus arranged my dwelling, and carpeted it with clean straw, I
|
||
retired; for I saw the figure of a man at a distance, and I remembered
|
||
too well my treatment the night before, to trust myself in his power. I
|
||
had first, however, provided for my sustenance for that day, by a loaf
|
||
of coarse bread, which I purloined, and a cup with which I could drink,
|
||
more conveniently than from my hand, of the pure water which flowed by
|
||
my retreat. The floor was a little raised, so that it was kept perfectly
|
||
dry, and by its vicinity to the chimney of the cottage it was tolerably
|
||
warm.
|
||
|
||
“Being thus provided, I resolved to reside in this hovel, until
|
||
something should occur which might alter my determination. It was indeed
|
||
a paradise, compared to the bleak forest, my former residence, the
|
||
rain-dropping branches, and dank earth. I ate my breakfast with
|
||
pleasure, and was about to remove a plank to procure myself a little
|
||
water, when I heard a step, and, looking through a small chink, I beheld
|
||
a young creature, with a pail on her head, passing before my hovel. The
|
||
girl was young and of gentle demeanour, unlike what I have since found
|
||
cottagers and farm-house servants to be. Yet she was meanly dressed, a
|
||
coarse blue petticoat and a linen jacket being her only garb; her fair
|
||
hair was plaited, but not adorned; she looked patient, yet sad. I lost
|
||
sight of her; and in about a quarter of an hour she returned, bearing
|
||
the pail, which was now partly filled with milk. As she walked along,
|
||
seemingly incommoded by the burden, a young man met her, whose
|
||
countenance expressed a deeper despondence. Uttering a few sounds with
|
||
an air of melancholy, he took the pail from her head, and bore it to the
|
||
cottage himself. She followed, and they disappeared. Presently I saw the
|
||
young man again, with some tools in his hand, cross the field behind the
|
||
cottage; and the girl was also busied, sometimes in the house, and
|
||
sometimes in the yard.
|
||
|
||
“On examining my dwelling, I found that one of the windows of the
|
||
cottage had formerly occupied a part of it, but the panes had been
|
||
filled up with wood. In one of these was a small and almost
|
||
imperceptible chink, through which the eye could just penetrate. Through
|
||
this crevice, a small room was visible, white-washed and clean, but very
|
||
bare of furniture. In one corner, near a small fire, sat an old man,
|
||
leaning his head on his hands in a disconsolate attitude. The young girl
|
||
was occupied in arranging the cottage; but presently she took something
|
||
out of a drawer, which employed her hands, and she sat down beside the
|
||
old man, who, taking up an instrument, began to play, and to produce
|
||
sounds, sweeter than the voice of the thrush or the nightingale. It was
|
||
a lovely sight, even to me, poor wretch! who had never beheld aught
|
||
beautiful before. The silver hair and benevolent countenance of the aged
|
||
cottager, won my reverence; while the gentle manners of the girl enticed
|
||
my love. He played a sweet mournful air, which I perceived drew tears
|
||
from the eyes of his amiable companion, of which the old man took no
|
||
notice, until she sobbed audibly; he then pronounced a few sounds, and
|
||
the fair creature, leaving her work, knelt at his feet. He raised her,
|
||
and smiled with such kindness and affection, that I felt sensations of a
|
||
peculiar and over-powering nature: they were a mixture of pain and
|
||
pleasure, such as I had never before experienced, either from hunger or
|
||
cold, warmth or food; and I withdrew from the window, unable to bear
|
||
these emotions.
|
||
|
||
“Soon after this the young man returned, bearing on his shoulders a load
|
||
of wood. The girl met him at the door, helped to relieve him of his
|
||
burden, and, taking some of the fuel into the cottage, placed it on the
|
||
fire; then she and the youth went apart into a nook of the cottage, and
|
||
he shewed her a large loaf and a piece of cheese. She seemed pleased;
|
||
and went into the garden for some roots and plants, which she placed in
|
||
water, and then upon the fire. She afterwards continued her work, whilst
|
||
the young man went into the garden, and appeared busily employed in
|
||
digging and pulling up roots. After he had been employed thus about an
|
||
hour, the young woman joined him, and they entered the cottage together.
|
||
|
||
“The old man had, in the mean time, been pensive; but, on the appearance
|
||
of his companions, he assumed a more cheerful air, and they sat down to
|
||
eat. The meal was quickly dispatched. The young woman was again occupied
|
||
in arranging the cottage; the old man walked before the cottage in the
|
||
sun for a few minutes, leaning on the arm of the youth. Nothing could
|
||
exceed in beauty the contrast between these two excellent creatures. One
|
||
was old, with silver hairs and a countenance beaming with benevolence
|
||
and love: the younger was slight and graceful in his figure, and his
|
||
features were moulded with the finest symmetry; yet his eyes and
|
||
attitude expressed the utmost sadness and despondency. The old man
|
||
returned to the cottage; and the youth, with tools different from those
|
||
he had used in the morning, directed his steps across the fields.
|
||
|
||
“Night quickly shut in; but, to my extreme wonder, I found that the
|
||
cottagers had a means of prolonging light, by the use of tapers, and was
|
||
delighted to find, that the setting of the sun did not put an end to the
|
||
pleasure I experienced in watching my human neighbours. In the evening,
|
||
the young girl and her companion were employed in various occupations
|
||
which I did not understand; and the old man again took up the
|
||
instrument, which produced the divine sounds that had enchanted me in
|
||
the morning. So soon as he had finished, the youth began, not to play,
|
||
but to utter sounds that were monotonous, and neither resembling the
|
||
harmony of the old man’s instrument or the songs of the birds; I since
|
||
found that he read aloud, but at that time I knew nothing of the science
|
||
of words or letters.
|
||
|
||
“The family, after having been thus occupied for a short time,
|
||
extinguished their lights, and retired, as I conjectured, to rest.”
|
||
|
||
|
||
|
||
|
||
CHAPTER IV.
|
||
|
||
|
||
“I lay on my straw, but I could not sleep. I thought of the occurrences
|
||
of the day. What chiefly struck me was the gentle manners of these
|
||
people; and I longed to join them, but dared not. I remembered too well
|
||
the treatment I had suffered the night before from the barbarous
|
||
villagers, and resolved, whatever course of conduct I might hereafter
|
||
think it right to pursue, that for the present I would remain quietly in
|
||
my hovel, watching, and endeavouring to discover the motives which
|
||
influenced their actions.
|
||
|
||
“The cottagers arose the next morning before the sun. The young woman
|
||
arranged the cottage, and prepared the food; and the youth departed
|
||
after the first meal.
|
||
|
||
“This day was passed in the same routine as that which preceded it. The
|
||
young man was constantly employed out of doors, and the girl in various
|
||
laborious occupations within. The old man, whom I soon perceived to be
|
||
blind, employed his leisure hours on his instrument, or in
|
||
contemplation. Nothing could exceed the love and respect which the
|
||
younger cottagers exhibited towards their venerable companion. They
|
||
performed towards him every little office of affection and duty with
|
||
gentleness; and he rewarded them by his benevolent smiles.
|
||
|
||
“They were not entirely happy. The young man and his companion often
|
||
went apart, and appeared to weep. I saw no cause for their unhappiness;
|
||
but I was deeply affected by it. If such lovely creatures were
|
||
miserable, it was less strange that I, an imperfect and solitary being,
|
||
should be wretched. Yet why were these gentle beings unhappy? They
|
||
possessed a delightful house (for such it was in my eyes), and every
|
||
luxury; they had a fire to warm them when chill, and delicious viands
|
||
when hungry; they were dressed in excellent clothes; and, still more,
|
||
they enjoyed one another’s company and speech, interchanging each day
|
||
looks of affection and kindness. What did their tears imply? Did they
|
||
really express pain? I was at first unable to solve these questions; but
|
||
perpetual attention, and time, explained to me many appearances which
|
||
were at first enigmatic.
|
||
|
||
“A considerable period elapsed before I discovered one of the causes of
|
||
the uneasiness of this amiable family; it was poverty: and they suffered
|
||
that evil in a very distressing degree. Their nourishment consisted
|
||
entirely of the vegetables of their garden, and the milk of one cow, who
|
||
gave very little during the winter, when its masters could scarcely
|
||
procure food to support it. They often, I believe, suffered the pangs of
|
||
hunger very poignantly, especially the two younger cottagers; for
|
||
several times they placed food before the old man, when they reserved
|
||
none for themselves.
|
||
|
||
“This trait of kindness moved me sensibly. I had been accustomed,
|
||
during the night, to steal a part of their store for my own consumption;
|
||
but when I found that in doing this I inflicted pain on the cottagers, I
|
||
abstained, and satisfied myself with berries, nuts, and roots, which I
|
||
gathered from a neighbouring wood.
|
||
|
||
“I discovered also another means through which I was enabled to assist
|
||
their labours. I found that the youth spent a great part of each day in
|
||
collecting wood for the family fire; and, during the night, I often took
|
||
his tools, the use of which I quickly discovered, and brought home
|
||
firing sufficient for the consumption of several days.
|
||
|
||
“I remember, the first time that I did this, the young woman, when she
|
||
opened the door in the morning, appeared greatly astonished on seeing a
|
||
great pile of wood on the outside. She uttered some words in a loud
|
||
voice, and the youth joined her, who also expressed surprise. I
|
||
observed, with pleasure, that he did not go to the forest that day, but
|
||
spent it in repairing the cottage, and cultivating the garden.
|
||
|
||
“By degrees I made a discovery of still greater moment. I found that
|
||
these people possessed a method of communicating their experience and
|
||
feelings to one another by articulate sounds. I perceived that the words
|
||
they spoke sometimes produced pleasure or pain, smiles or sadness, in
|
||
the minds and countenances of the hearers. This was indeed a godlike
|
||
science, and I ardently desired to become acquainted with it. But I was
|
||
baffled in every attempt I made for this purpose. Their pronunciation
|
||
was quick; and the words they uttered, not having any apparent connexion
|
||
with visible objects, I was unable to discover any clue by which I could
|
||
unravel the mystery of their reference. By great application, however,
|
||
and after having remained during the space of several revolutions of the
|
||
moon in my hovel, I discovered the names that were given to some of the
|
||
most familiar objects of discourse: I learned and applied the words
|
||
_fire_, _milk_, _bread_, and _wood_. I learned also the names of the
|
||
cottagers themselves. The youth and his companion had each of them
|
||
several names, but the old man had only one, which was _father_. The
|
||
girl was called _sister_, or _Agatha_; and the youth _Felix_, _brother_,
|
||
or _son_. I cannot describe the delight I felt when I learned the ideas
|
||
appropriated to each of these sounds, and was able to pronounce them. I
|
||
distinguished several other words, without being able as yet to
|
||
understand or apply them; such as _good_, _dearest_, _unhappy_.
|
||
|
||
“I spent the winter in this manner. The gentle manners and beauty of the
|
||
cottagers greatly endeared them to me: when they were unhappy, I felt
|
||
depressed; when they rejoiced, I sympathized in their joys. I saw few
|
||
human beings beside them; and if any other happened to enter the
|
||
cottage, their harsh manners and rude gait only enhanced to me the
|
||
superior accomplishments of my friends. The old man, I could perceive,
|
||
often endeavoured to encourage his children, as sometimes I found that
|
||
he called them, to cast off their melancholy. He would talk in a
|
||
cheerful accent, with an expression of goodness that bestowed pleasure
|
||
even upon me. Agatha listened with respect, her eyes sometimes filled
|
||
with tears, which she endeavoured to wipe away unperceived; but I
|
||
generally found that her countenance and tone were more cheerful after
|
||
having listened to the exhortations of her father. It was not thus with
|
||
Felix. He was always the saddest of the groupe; and, even to my
|
||
unpractised senses, he appeared to have suffered more deeply than his
|
||
friends. But if his countenance was more sorrowful, his voice was more
|
||
cheerful than that of his sister, especially when he addressed the old
|
||
man.
|
||
|
||
“I could mention innumerable instances, which, although slight, marked
|
||
the dispositions of these amiable cottagers. In the midst of poverty and
|
||
want, Felix carried with pleasure to his sister the first little white
|
||
flower that peeped out from beneath the snowy ground. Early in the
|
||
morning before she had risen, he cleared away the snow that obstructed
|
||
her path to the milk-house, drew water from the well, and brought the
|
||
wood from the out-house, where, to his perpetual astonishment, he found
|
||
his store always replenished by an invisible hand. In the day, I
|
||
believe, he worked sometimes for a neighbouring farmer, because he often
|
||
went forth, and did not return until dinner, yet brought no wood with
|
||
him. At other times he worked in the garden; but, as there was little to
|
||
do in the frosty season, he read to the old man and Agatha.
|
||
|
||
“This reading had puzzled me extremely at first; but, by degrees, I
|
||
discovered that he uttered many of the same sounds when he read as when
|
||
he talked. I conjectured, therefore, that he found on the paper signs
|
||
for speech which he understood, and I ardently longed to comprehend
|
||
these also; but how was that possible, when I did not even understand
|
||
the sounds for which they stood as signs? I improved, however, sensibly
|
||
in this science, but not sufficiently to follow up any kind of
|
||
conversation, although I applied my whole mind to the endeavour: for I
|
||
easily perceived that, although I eagerly longed to discover myself to
|
||
the cottagers, I ought not to make the attempt until I had first become
|
||
master of their language; which knowledge might enable me to make them
|
||
overlook the deformity of my figure; for with this also the contrast
|
||
perpetually presented to my eyes had made me acquainted.
|
||
|
||
“I had admired the perfect forms of my cottagers—their grace, beauty,
|
||
and delicate complexions: but how was I terrified, when I viewed myself
|
||
in a transparent pool! At first I started back, unable to believe that
|
||
it was indeed I who was reflected in the mirror; and when I became fully
|
||
convinced that I was in reality the monster that I am, I was filled with
|
||
the bitterest sensations of despondence and mortification. Alas! I did
|
||
not yet entirely know the fatal effects of this miserable deformity.
|
||
|
||
“As the sun became warmer, and the light of day longer, the snow
|
||
vanished, and I beheld the bare trees and the black earth. From this
|
||
time Felix was more employed; and the heart-moving indications of
|
||
impending famine disappeared. Their food, as I afterwards found, was
|
||
coarse, but it was wholesome; and they procured a sufficiency of it.
|
||
Several new kinds of plants sprung up in the garden, which they dressed;
|
||
and these signs of comfort increased daily as the season advanced.
|
||
|
||
“The old man, leaning on his son, walked each day at noon, when it did
|
||
not rain, as I found it was called when the heavens poured forth its
|
||
waters. This frequently took place; but a high wind quickly dried the
|
||
earth, and the season became far more pleasant than it had been.
|
||
|
||
“My mode of life in my hovel was uniform. During the morning I attended
|
||
the motions of the cottagers; and when they were dispersed in various
|
||
occupations, I slept: the remainder of the day was spent in observing my
|
||
friends. When they had retired to rest, if there was any moon, or the
|
||
night was star-light, I went into the woods, and collected my own food
|
||
and fuel for the cottage. When I returned, as often as it was necessary,
|
||
I cleared their path from the snow, and performed those offices that I
|
||
had seen done by Felix. I afterwards found that these labours, performed
|
||
by an invisible hand, greatly astonished them; and once or twice I heard
|
||
them, on these occasions, utter the words _good spirit_, _wonderful_;
|
||
but I did not then understand the signification of these terms.
|
||
|
||
“My thoughts now became more active, and I longed to discover the
|
||
motives and feelings of these lovely creatures; I was inquisitive to
|
||
know why Felix appeared so miserable, and Agatha so sad. I thought
|
||
(foolish wretch!) that it might be in my power to restore happiness to
|
||
these deserving people. When I slept, or was absent, the forms of the
|
||
venerable blind father, the gentle Agatha, and the excellent Felix,
|
||
flitted before me. I looked upon them as superior beings, who would be
|
||
the arbiters of my future destiny. I formed in my imagination a thousand
|
||
pictures of presenting myself to them, and their reception of me. I
|
||
imagined that they would be disgusted, until, by my gentle demeanour and
|
||
conciliating words, I should first win their favour, and afterwards
|
||
their love.
|
||
|
||
“These thoughts exhilarated me, and led me to apply with fresh ardour to
|
||
the acquiring the art of language. My organs were indeed harsh, but
|
||
supple; and although my voice was very unlike the soft music of their
|
||
tones, yet I pronounced such words as I understood with tolerable ease.
|
||
It was as the ass and the lap-dog; yet surely the gentle ass, whose
|
||
intentions were affectionate, although his manners were rude, deserved
|
||
better treatment than blows and execration.
|
||
|
||
“The pleasant showers and genial warmth of spring greatly altered the
|
||
aspect of the earth. Men, who before this change seemed to have been hid
|
||
in caves, dispersed themselves, and were employed in various arts of
|
||
cultivation. The birds sang in more cheerful notes, and the leaves
|
||
began to bud forth on the trees. Happy, happy earth! fit habitation for
|
||
gods, which, so short a time before, was bleak, damp, and unwholesome.
|
||
My spirits were elevated by the enchanting appearance of nature; the
|
||
past was blotted from my memory, the present was tranquil, and the
|
||
future gilded by bright rays of hope, and anticipations of joy.”
|
||
|
||
|
||
|
||
|
||
CHAPTER V.
|
||
|
||
|
||
“I now hasten to the more moving part of my story. I shall relate events
|
||
that impressed me with feelings which, from what I was, have made me
|
||
what I am.
|
||
|
||
“Spring advanced rapidly; the weather became fine, and the skies
|
||
cloudless. It surprised me, that what before was desert and gloomy
|
||
should now bloom with the most beautiful flowers and verdure. My senses
|
||
were gratified and refreshed by a thousand scents of delight, and a
|
||
thousand sights of beauty.
|
||
|
||
“It was on one of these days, when my cottagers periodically rested from
|
||
labour—the old man played on his guitar, and the children listened to
|
||
him—I observed that the countenance of Felix was melancholy beyond
|
||
expression: he sighed frequently; and once his father paused in his
|
||
music, and I conjectured by his manner that he inquired the cause of his
|
||
son’s sorrow. Felix replied in a cheerful accent, and the old man was
|
||
recommencing his music, when some one tapped at the door.
|
||
|
||
“It was a lady on horseback, accompanied by a countryman as a guide. The
|
||
lady was dressed in a dark suit, and covered with a thick black veil.
|
||
Agatha asked a question; to which the stranger only replied by
|
||
pronouncing, in a sweet accent, the name of Felix. Her voice was
|
||
musical, but unlike that of either of my friends. On hearing this word,
|
||
Felix came up hastily to the lady; who, when she saw him, threw up her
|
||
veil, and I beheld a countenance of angelic beauty and expression. Her
|
||
hair of a shining raven black, and curiously braided; her eyes were
|
||
dark, but gentle, although animated; her features of a regular
|
||
proportion, and her complexion wondrously fair, each cheek tinged with a
|
||
lovely pink.
|
||
|
||
“Felix seemed ravished with delight when he saw her, every trait of
|
||
sorrow vanished from his face, and it instantly expressed a degree of
|
||
ecstatic joy, of which I could hardly have believed it capable; his eyes
|
||
sparkled, as his cheek flushed with pleasure; and at that moment I
|
||
thought him as beautiful as the stranger. She appeared affected by
|
||
different feelings; wiping a few tears from her lovely eyes, she held
|
||
out her hand to Felix, who kissed it rapturously, and called her, as
|
||
well as I could distinguish, his sweet Arabian. She did not appear to
|
||
understand him, but smiled. He assisted her to dismount, and, dismissing
|
||
her guide, conducted her into the cottage. Some conversation took place
|
||
between him and his father; and the young stranger knelt at the old
|
||
man’s feet, and would have kissed his hand, but he raised her, and
|
||
embraced her affectionately.
|
||
|
||
“I soon perceived, that although the stranger uttered articulate sounds,
|
||
and appeared to have a language of her own, she was neither understood
|
||
by, or herself understood, the cottagers. They made many signs which I
|
||
did not comprehend; but I saw that her presence diffused gladness
|
||
through the cottage, dispelling their sorrow as the sun dissipates the
|
||
morning mists. Felix seemed peculiarly happy, and with smiles of delight
|
||
welcomed his Arabian. Agatha, the ever-gentle Agatha, kissed the hands
|
||
of the lovely stranger; and, pointing to her brother, made signs which
|
||
appeared to me to mean that he had been sorrowful until she came. Some
|
||
hours passed thus, while they, by their countenances, expressed joy, the
|
||
cause of which I did not comprehend. Presently I found, by the frequent
|
||
recurrence of one sound which the stranger repeated after them, that she
|
||
was endeavouring to learn their language; and the idea instantly
|
||
occurred to me, that I should make use of the same instructions to the
|
||
same end. The stranger learned about twenty words at the first lesson,
|
||
most of them indeed were those which I had before understood, but I
|
||
profited by the others.
|
||
|
||
“As night came on, Agatha and the Arabian retired early. When they
|
||
separated, Felix kissed the hand of the stranger, and said, ‘Good night,
|
||
sweet Safie.’ He sat up much longer, conversing with his father; and, by
|
||
the frequent repetition of her name, I conjectured that their lovely
|
||
guest was the subject of their conversation. I ardently desired to
|
||
understand them, and bent every faculty towards that purpose, but found
|
||
it utterly impossible.
|
||
|
||
“The next morning Felix went out to his work; and, after the usual
|
||
occupations of Agatha were finished, the Arabian sat at the feet of the
|
||
old man, and, taking his guitar, played some airs so entrancingly
|
||
beautiful, that they at once drew tears of sorrow and delight from my
|
||
eyes. She sang, and her voice flowed in a rich cadence, swelling or
|
||
dying away, like a nightingale of the woods.
|
||
|
||
“When she had finished, she gave the guitar to Agatha, who at first
|
||
declined it. She played a simple air, and her voice accompanied it in
|
||
sweet accents, but unlike the wondrous strain of the stranger. The old
|
||
man appeared enraptured, and said some words, which Agatha endeavoured
|
||
to explain to Safie, and by which he appeared to wish to express that
|
||
she bestowed on him the greatest delight by her music.
|
||
|
||
“The days now passed as peaceably as before, with the sole alteration,
|
||
that joy had taken place of sadness in the countenances of my friends.
|
||
Safie was always gay and happy; she and I improved rapidly in the
|
||
knowledge of language, so that in two months I began to comprehend most
|
||
of the words uttered by my protectors.
|
||
|
||
“In the meanwhile also the black ground was covered with herbage, and
|
||
the green banks interspersed with innumerable flowers, sweet to the
|
||
scent and the eyes, stars of pale radiance among the moonlight woods;
|
||
the sun became warmer, the nights clear and balmy; and my nocturnal
|
||
rambles were an extreme pleasure to me, although they were considerably
|
||
shortened by the late setting and early rising of the sun; for I never
|
||
ventured abroad during daylight, fearful of meeting with the same
|
||
treatment as I had formerly endured in the first village which I
|
||
entered.
|
||
|
||
“My days were spent in close attention, that I might more speedily
|
||
master the language; and I may boast that I improved more rapidly than
|
||
the Arabian, who understood very little, and conversed in broken
|
||
accents, whilst I comprehended and could imitate almost every word that
|
||
was spoken.
|
||
|
||
“While I improved in speech, I also learned the science of letters, as it
|
||
was taught to the stranger; and this opened before me a wide field for
|
||
wonder and delight.
|
||
|
||
“The book from which Felix instructed Safie was Volney’s _Ruins of
|
||
Empires_. I should not have understood the purport of this book, had not
|
||
Felix, in reading it, given very minute explanations. He had chosen this
|
||
work, he said, because the declamatory style was framed in imitation of
|
||
the eastern authors. Through this work I obtained a cursory knowledge of
|
||
history, and a view of the several empires at present existing in the
|
||
world; it gave me an insight into the manners, governments, and
|
||
religions of the different nations of the earth. I heard of the slothful
|
||
Asiatics; of the stupendous genius and mental activity of the Grecians;
|
||
of the wars and wonderful virtue of the early Romans—of their
|
||
subsequent degeneration—of the decline of that mighty empire; of
|
||
chivalry, Christianity, and kings. I heard of the discovery of the
|
||
American hemisphere, and wept with Safie over the hapless fate of its
|
||
original inhabitants.
|
||
|
||
“These wonderful narrations inspired me with strange feelings. Was man,
|
||
indeed, at once so powerful, so virtuous, and magnificent, yet so
|
||
vicious and base? He appeared at one time a mere scion of the evil
|
||
principle, and at another as all that can be conceived of noble and
|
||
godlike. To be a great and virtuous man appeared the highest honour that
|
||
can befall a sensitive being; to be base and vicious, as many on record
|
||
have been, appeared the lowest degradation, a condition more abject than
|
||
that of the blind mole or harmless worm. For a long time I could not
|
||
conceive how one man could go forth to murder his fellow, or even why
|
||
there were laws and governments; but when I heard details of vice and
|
||
bloodshed, my wonder ceased, and I turned away with disgust and
|
||
loathing.
|
||
|
||
“Every conversation of the cottagers now opened new wonders to me. While
|
||
I listened to the instructions which Felix bestowed upon the Arabian,
|
||
the strange system of human society was explained to me. I heard of the
|
||
division of property, of immense wealth and squalid poverty; of rank,
|
||
descent, and noble blood.
|
||
|
||
“The words induced me to turn towards myself. I learned that the
|
||
possessions most esteemed by your fellow-creatures were, high and
|
||
unsullied descent united with riches. A man might be respected with only
|
||
one of these acquisitions; but without either he was considered, except
|
||
in very rare instances, as a vagabond and a slave, doomed to waste his
|
||
powers for the profit of the chosen few. And what was I? Of my creation
|
||
and creator I was absolutely ignorant; but I knew that I possessed no
|
||
money, no friends, no kind of property. I was, besides, endowed with a
|
||
figure hideously deformed and loathsome; I was not even of the same
|
||
nature as man. I was more agile than they, and could subsist upon
|
||
coarser diet; I bore the extremes of heat and cold with less injury to
|
||
my frame; my stature far exceeded their’s. When I looked around, I saw
|
||
and heard of none like me. Was I then a monster, a blot upon the earth,
|
||
from which all men fled, and whom all men disowned?
|
||
|
||
“I cannot describe to you the agony that these reflections inflicted
|
||
upon me; I tried to dispel them, but sorrow only increased with
|
||
knowledge. Oh, that I had for ever remained in my native wood, nor known
|
||
or felt beyond the sensations of hunger, thirst, and heat!
|
||
|
||
“Of what a strange nature is knowledge! It clings to the mind, when it
|
||
has once seized on it, like a lichen on the rock. I wished sometimes to
|
||
shake off all thought and feeling; but I learned that there was but one
|
||
means to overcome the sensation of pain, and that was death—a state
|
||
which I feared yet did not understand. I admired virtue and good
|
||
feelings, and loved the gentle manners and amiable qualities of my
|
||
cottagers; but I was shut out from intercourse with them, except through
|
||
means which I obtained by stealth, when I was unseen and unknown, and
|
||
which rather increased than satisfied the desire I had of becoming one
|
||
among my fellows. The gentle words of Agatha, and the animated smiles of
|
||
the charming Arabian, were not for me. The mild exhortations of the old
|
||
man, and the lively conversation of the loved Felix, were not for me.
|
||
Miserable, unhappy wretch!
|
||
|
||
“Other lessons were impressed upon me even more deeply. I heard of the
|
||
difference of sexes; of the birth and growth of children; how the father
|
||
doated on the smiles of the infant, and the lively sallies of the older
|
||
child; how all the life and cares of the mother were wrapt up in the
|
||
precious charge; how the mind of youth expanded and gained knowledge; of
|
||
brother, sister, and all the various relationships which bind one human
|
||
being to another in mutual bonds.
|
||
|
||
“But where were my friends and relations? No father had watched my
|
||
infant days, no mother had blessed me with smiles and caresses; or if
|
||
they had, all my past life was now a blot, a blind vacancy in which I
|
||
distinguished nothing. From my earliest remembrance I had been as I then
|
||
was in height and proportion. I had never yet seen a being resembling
|
||
me, or who claimed any intercourse with me. What was I? The question
|
||
again recurred, to be answered only with groans.
|
||
|
||
“I will soon explain to what these feelings tended; but allow me now to
|
||
return to the cottagers, whose story excited in me such various feelings
|
||
of indignation, delight, and wonder, but which all terminated in
|
||
additional love and reverence for my protectors (for so I loved, in an
|
||
innocent, half painful self-deceit, to call them).”
|
||
|
||
|
||
|
||
|
||
CHAPTER VI.
|
||
|
||
|
||
“Some time elapsed before I learned the history of my friends. It was
|
||
one which could not fail to impress itself deeply on my mind, unfolding
|
||
as it did a number of circumstances each interesting and wonderful to
|
||
one so utterly inexperienced as I was.
|
||
|
||
“The name of the old man was De Lacey. He was descended from a good
|
||
family in France, where he had lived for many years in affluence,
|
||
respected by his superiors, and beloved by his equals. His son was bred
|
||
in the service of his country; and Agatha had ranked with ladies of the
|
||
highest distinction. A few months before my arrival, they had lived in a
|
||
large and luxurious city, called Paris, surrounded by friends, and
|
||
possessed of every enjoyment which virtue, refinement of intellect, or
|
||
taste, accompanied by a moderate fortune, could afford.
|
||
|
||
“The father of Safie had been the cause of their ruin. He was a Turkish
|
||
merchant, and had inhabited Paris for many years, when, for some reason
|
||
which I could not learn, he became obnoxious to the government. He was
|
||
seized and cast into prison the very day that Safie arrived from
|
||
Constantinople to join him. He was tried, and condemned to death. The
|
||
injustice of his sentence was very flagrant; all Paris was indignant;
|
||
and it was judged that his religion and wealth, rather than the crime
|
||
alleged against him, had been the cause of his condemnation.
|
||
|
||
“Felix had been present at the trial; his horror and indignation were
|
||
uncontrollable, when he heard the decision of the court. He made, at
|
||
that moment, a solemn vow to deliver him, and then looked around for the
|
||
means. After many fruitless attempts to gain admittance to the prison,
|
||
he found a strongly grated window in an unguarded part of the building,
|
||
which lighted the dungeon of the unfortunate Mahometan; who, loaded with
|
||
chains, waited in despair the execution of the barbarous sentence. Felix
|
||
visited the grate at night, and made known to the prisoner his
|
||
intentions in his favour. The Turk, amazed and delighted, endeavoured to
|
||
kindle the zeal of his deliverer by promises of reward and wealth. Felix
|
||
rejected his offers with contempt; yet when he saw the lovely Safie, who
|
||
was allowed to visit her father, and who, by her gestures, expressed her
|
||
lively gratitude, the youth could not help owning to his own mind, that
|
||
the captive possessed a treasure which would fully reward his toil and
|
||
hazard.
|
||
|
||
“The Turk quickly perceived the impression that his daughter had made on
|
||
the heart of Felix, and endeavoured to secure him more entirely in his
|
||
interests by the promise of her hand in marriage, so soon as he should
|
||
be conveyed to a place of safety. Felix was too delicate to accept this
|
||
offer; yet he looked forward to the probability of that event as to the
|
||
consummation of his happiness.
|
||
|
||
“During the ensuing days, while the preparations were going forward for
|
||
the escape of the merchant, the zeal of Felix was warmed by several
|
||
letters that he received from this lovely girl, who found means to
|
||
express her thoughts in the language of her lover by the aid of an old
|
||
man, a servant of her father’s, who understood French. She thanked him
|
||
in the most ardent terms for his intended services towards her father;
|
||
and at the same time she gently deplored her own fate.
|
||
|
||
“I have copies of these letters; for I found means, during my residence
|
||
in the hovel, to procure the implements of writing; and the letters were
|
||
often in the hands of Felix or Agatha. Before I depart, I will give them
|
||
to you, they will prove the truth of my tale; but at present, as the
|
||
sun is already far declined, I shall only have time to repeat the
|
||
substance of them to you.
|
||
|
||
“Safie related, that her mother was a Christian Arab, seized and made a
|
||
slave by the Turks; recommended by her beauty, she had won the heart of
|
||
the father of Safie, who married her. The young girl spoke in high and
|
||
enthusiastic terms of her mother, who, born in freedom spurned the
|
||
bondage to which she was now reduced. She instructed her daughter in the
|
||
tenets of her religion, and taught her to aspire to higher powers of
|
||
intellect, and an independence of spirit, forbidden to the female
|
||
followers of Mahomet. This lady died; but her lessons were indelibly
|
||
impressed on the mind of Safie, who sickened at the prospect of again
|
||
returning to Asia, and the being immured within the walls of a harem,
|
||
allowed only to occupy herself with puerile amusements, ill suited to
|
||
the temper of her soul, now accustomed to grand ideas and a noble
|
||
emulation for virtue. The prospect of marrying a Christian, and
|
||
remaining in a country where women were allowed to take a rank in
|
||
society, was enchanting to her.
|
||
|
||
“The day for the execution of the Turk was fixed; but, on the night
|
||
previous to it, he had quitted prison, and before morning was distant
|
||
many leagues from Paris. Felix had procured passports in the name of his
|
||
father, sister, and himself. He had previously communicated his plan to
|
||
the former, who aided the deceit by quitting his house, under the
|
||
pretence of a journey, and concealed himself, with his daughter, in an
|
||
obscure part of Paris.
|
||
|
||
“Felix conducted the fugitives through France to Lyons, and across Mont
|
||
Cenis to Leghorn, where the merchant had decided to wait a favourable
|
||
opportunity of passing into some part of the Turkish dominions.
|
||
|
||
“Safie resolved to remain with her father until the moment of his
|
||
departure, before which time the Turk renewed his promise that she
|
||
should be united to his deliverer; and Felix remained with them in
|
||
expectation of that event; and in the mean time he enjoyed the society
|
||
of the Arabian, who exhibited towards him the simplest and tenderest
|
||
affection. They conversed with one another through the means of an
|
||
interpreter, and sometimes with the interpretation of looks; and Safie
|
||
sang to him the divine airs of her native country.
|
||
|
||
“The Turk allowed this intimacy to take place, and encouraged the hopes
|
||
of the youthful lovers, while in his heart he had formed far other
|
||
plans. He loathed the idea that his daughter should be united to a
|
||
Christian; but he feared the resentment of Felix if he should appear
|
||
lukewarm; for he knew that he was still in the power of his deliverer,
|
||
if he should choose to betray him to the Italian state which they
|
||
inhabited. He revolved a thousand plans by which he should be enabled to
|
||
prolong the deceit until it might be no longer necessary, and secretly
|
||
to take his daughter with him when he departed. His plans were greatly
|
||
facilitated by the news which arrived from Paris.
|
||
|
||
“The government of France were greatly enraged at the escape of their
|
||
victim, and spared no pains to detect and punish his deliverer. The plot
|
||
of Felix was quickly discovered, and De Lacey and Agatha were thrown
|
||
into prison. The news reached Felix, and roused him from his dream of
|
||
pleasure. His blind and aged father, and his gentle sister, lay in a
|
||
noisome dungeon, while he enjoyed the free air, and the society of her
|
||
whom he loved. This idea was torture to him. He quickly arranged with
|
||
the Turk, that if the latter should find a favourable opportunity for
|
||
escape before Felix could return to Italy, Safie should remain as a
|
||
boarder at a convent at Leghorn; and then, quitting the lovely Arabian,
|
||
he hastened to Paris, and delivered himself up to the vengeance of the
|
||
law, hoping to free De Lacey and Agatha by this proceeding.
|
||
|
||
“He did not succeed. They remained confined for five months before the
|
||
trial took place; the result of which deprived them of their fortune,
|
||
and condemned them to a perpetual exile from their native country.
|
||
|
||
“They found a miserable asylum in the cottage in Germany, where I
|
||
discovered them. Felix soon learned that the treacherous Turk, for whom
|
||
he and his family endured such unheard-of oppression, on discovering
|
||
that his deliverer was thus reduced to poverty and impotence, became a
|
||
traitor to good feeling and honour, and had quitted Italy with his
|
||
daughter, insultingly sending Felix a pittance of money to aid him, as
|
||
he said, in some plan of future maintenance.
|
||
|
||
“Such were the events that preyed on the heart of Felix, and rendered
|
||
him, when I first saw him, the most miserable of his family. He could
|
||
have endured poverty, and when this distress had been the meed of his
|
||
virtue, he would have gloried in it: but the ingratitude of the Turk,
|
||
and the loss of his beloved Safie, were misfortunes more bitter and
|
||
irreparable. The arrival of the Arabian now infused new life into his
|
||
soul.
|
||
|
||
“When the news reached Leghorn, that Felix was deprived of his wealth
|
||
and rank, the merchant commanded his daughter to think no more of her
|
||
lover, but to prepare to return with him to her native country. The
|
||
generous nature of Safie was outraged by this command; she attempted to
|
||
expostulate with her father, but he left her angrily, reiterating his
|
||
tyrannical mandate.
|
||
|
||
“A few days after, the Turk entered his daughter’s apartment, and told
|
||
her hastily, that he had reason to believe that his residence at Leghorn
|
||
had been divulged, and that he should speedily be delivered up to the
|
||
French government; he had, consequently, hired a vessel to convey him
|
||
to Constantinople, for which city he should sail in a few hours. He
|
||
intended to leave his daughter under the care of a confidential servant,
|
||
to follow at her leisure with the greater part of his property, which
|
||
had not yet arrived at Leghorn.
|
||
|
||
“When alone, Safie resolved in her own mind the plan of conduct that it
|
||
would become her to pursue in this emergency. A residence in Turkey was
|
||
abhorrent to her; her religion and feelings were alike adverse to it. By
|
||
some papers of her father’s, which fell into her hands, she heard of the
|
||
exile of her lover, and learnt the name of the spot where he then
|
||
resided. She hesitated some time, but at length she formed her
|
||
determination. Taking with her some jewels that belonged to her, and a
|
||
small sum of money, she quitted Italy, with an attendant, a native of
|
||
Leghorn, but who understood the common language of Turkey, and departed
|
||
for Germany.
|
||
|
||
“She arrived in safety at a town about twenty leagues from the cottage
|
||
of De Lacey, when her attendant fell dangerously ill. Safie nursed her
|
||
with the most devoted affection; but the poor girl died, and the Arabian
|
||
was left alone, unacquainted with the language of the country, and
|
||
utterly ignorant of the customs of the world. She fell, however, into
|
||
good hands. The Italian had mentioned the name of the spot for which
|
||
they were bound; and, after her death, the woman of the house in which
|
||
they had lived took care that Safie should arrive in safety at the
|
||
cottage of her lover.”
|
||
|
||
|
||
|
||
|
||
CHAPTER VII.
|
||
|
||
|
||
“Such was the history of my beloved cottagers. It impressed me deeply. I
|
||
learned, from the views of social life which it developed, to admire
|
||
their virtues, and to deprecate the vices of mankind.
|
||
|
||
“As yet I looked upon crime as a distant evil; benevolence and
|
||
generosity were ever present before me, inciting within me a desire to
|
||
become an actor in the busy scene where so many admirable qualities were
|
||
called forth and displayed. But, in giving an account of the progress of
|
||
my intellect, I must not omit a circumstance which occurred in the
|
||
beginning of the month of August of the same year.
|
||
|
||
“One night, during my accustomed visit to the neighbouring wood, where I
|
||
collected my own food, and brought home firing for my protectors, I
|
||
found on the ground a leathern portmanteau, containing several articles
|
||
of dress and some books. I eagerly seized the prize, and returned with
|
||
it to my hovel. Fortunately the books were written in the language the
|
||
elements of which I had acquired at the cottage; they consisted of
|
||
_Paradise Lost_, a volume of _Plutarch’s Lives_, and the _Sorrows of
|
||
Werter_. The possession of these treasures gave me extreme delight; I
|
||
now continually studied and exercised my mind upon these histories,
|
||
whilst my friends were employed in their ordinary occupations.
|
||
|
||
“I can hardly describe to you the effect of these books. They produced
|
||
in me an infinity of new images and feelings, that sometimes raised me
|
||
to ecstacy, but more frequently sunk me into the lowest dejection. In
|
||
the _Sorrows of Werter_, besides the interest of its simple and
|
||
affecting story, so many opinions are canvassed, and so many lights
|
||
thrown upon what had hitherto been to me obscure subjects, that I found
|
||
in it a never-ending source of speculation and astonishment. The gentle
|
||
and domestic manners it described, combined with lofty sentiments and
|
||
feelings, which had for their object something out of self, accorded
|
||
well with my experience among my protectors, and with the wants which
|
||
were for ever alive in my own bosom. But I thought Werter himself a more
|
||
divine being than I had ever beheld or imagined; his character contained
|
||
no pretension, but it sunk deep. The disquisitions upon death and
|
||
suicide were calculated to fill me with wonder. I did not pretend to
|
||
enter into the merits of the case, yet I inclined towards the opinions
|
||
of the hero, whose extinction I wept, without precisely understanding
|
||
it.
|
||
|
||
“As I read, however, I applied much personally to my own feelings and
|
||
condition. I found myself similar, yet at the same time strangely unlike
|
||
the beings concerning whom I read, and to whose conversation I was a
|
||
listener. I sympathized with, and partly understood them, but I was
|
||
unformed in mind; I was dependent on none, and related to none. ‘The
|
||
path of my departure was free;’ and there was none to lament my
|
||
annihilation. My person was hideous, and my stature gigantic: what did
|
||
this mean? Who was I? What was I? Whence did I come? What was my
|
||
destination? These questions continually recurred, but I was unable to
|
||
solve them.
|
||
|
||
“The volume of _Plutarch’s Lives_ which I possessed, contained the
|
||
histories of the first founders of the ancient republics. This book had
|
||
a far different effect upon me from the _Sorrows of Werter_. I learned
|
||
from Werter’s imaginations despondency and gloom: but Plutarch taught me
|
||
high thoughts; he elevated me above the wretched sphere of my own
|
||
reflections, to admire and love the heroes of past ages. Many things I
|
||
read surpassed my understanding and experience. I had a very confused
|
||
knowledge of kingdoms, wide extents of country, mighty rivers, and
|
||
boundless seas. But I was perfectly unacquainted with towns, and large
|
||
assemblages of men. The cottage of my protectors had been the only
|
||
school in which I had studied human nature; but this book developed new
|
||
and mightier scenes of action. I read of men concerned in public affairs
|
||
governing or massacring their species. I felt the greatest ardour for
|
||
virtue rise within me, and abhorrence for vice, as far as I understood
|
||
the signification of those terms, relative as they were, as I applied
|
||
them, to pleasure and pain alone. Induced by these feelings, I was of
|
||
course led to admire peaceable law-givers, Numa, Solon, and Lycurgus,
|
||
in preference to Romulus and Theseus. The patriarchal lives of my
|
||
protectors caused these impressions to take a firm hold on my mind;
|
||
perhaps, if my first introduction to humanity had been made by a young
|
||
soldier, burning for glory and slaughter, I should have been imbued with
|
||
different sensations.
|
||
|
||
“But _Paradise Lost_ excited different and far deeper emotions. I read
|
||
it, as I had read the other volumes which had fallen into my hands, as a
|
||
true history. It moved every feeling of wonder and awe, that the picture
|
||
of an omnipotent God warring with his creatures was capable of exciting.
|
||
I often referred the several situations, as their similarity struck me,
|
||
to my own. Like Adam, I was created apparently united by no link to any
|
||
other being in existence; but his state was far different from mine in
|
||
every other respect. He had come forth from the hands of God a perfect
|
||
creature, happy and prosperous, guarded by the especial care of his
|
||
Creator; he was allowed to converse with, and acquire knowledge from
|
||
beings of a superior nature: but I was wretched, helpless, and alone.
|
||
Many times I considered Satan as the fitter emblem of my condition; for
|
||
often, like him, when I viewed the bliss of my protectors, the bitter
|
||
gall of envy rose within me.
|
||
|
||
“Another circumstance strengthened and confirmed these feelings. Soon
|
||
after my arrival in the hovel, I discovered some papers in the pocket of
|
||
the dress which I had taken from your laboratory. At first I had
|
||
neglected them; but now that I was able to decypher the characters in
|
||
which they were written, I began to study them with diligence. It was
|
||
your journal of the four months that preceded my creation. You minutely
|
||
described in these papers every step you took in the progress of your
|
||
work; this history was mingled with accounts of domestic occurrences.
|
||
You, doubtless, recollect these papers. Here they are. Every thing is
|
||
related in them which bears reference to my accursed origin; the whole
|
||
detail of that series of disgusting circumstances which produced it is
|
||
set in view; the minutest description of my odious and loathsome person
|
||
is given, in language which painted your own horrors, and rendered mine
|
||
ineffaceable. I sickened as I read. ‘Hateful day when I received life!’
|
||
I exclaimed in agony. ‘Cursed creator! Why did you form a monster so
|
||
hideous that even you turned from me in disgust? God in pity made man
|
||
beautiful and alluring, after his own image; but my form is a filthy
|
||
type of your’s, more horrid from its very resemblance. Satan had his
|
||
companions, fellow-devils, to admire and encourage him; but I am
|
||
solitary and detested.’
|
||
|
||
“These were the reflections of my hours of despondency and solitude; but
|
||
when I contemplated the virtues of the cottagers, their amiable and
|
||
benevolent dispositions, I persuaded myself that when they should become
|
||
acquainted with my admiration of their virtues, they would compassionate
|
||
me, and overlook my personal deformity. Could they turn from their door
|
||
one, however monstrous, who solicited their compassion and friendship?
|
||
I resolved, at least, not to despair, but in every way to fit myself for
|
||
an interview with them which would decide my fate. I postponed this
|
||
attempt for some months longer; for the importance attached to its
|
||
success inspired me with a dread lest I should fail. Besides, I found
|
||
that my understanding improved so much with every day’s experience, that
|
||
I was unwilling to commence this undertaking until a few more months
|
||
should have added to my wisdom.
|
||
|
||
“Several changes, in the mean time, took place in the cottage. The
|
||
presence of Safie diffused happiness among its inhabitants; and I also
|
||
found that a greater degree of plenty reigned there. Felix and Agatha
|
||
spent more time in amusement and conversation, and were assisted in
|
||
their labours by servants. They did not appear rich, but they were
|
||
contented and happy; their feelings were serene and peaceful, while mine
|
||
became every day more tumultuous. Increase of knowledge only discovered
|
||
to me more clearly what a wretched outcast I was. I cherished hope, it
|
||
is true; but it vanished, when I beheld my person reflected in water, or
|
||
my shadow in the moon-shine, even as that frail image and that
|
||
inconstant shade.
|
||
|
||
“I endeavoured to crush these fears, and to fortify myself for the trial
|
||
which in a few months I resolved to undergo; and sometimes I allowed my
|
||
thoughts, unchecked by reason, to ramble in the fields of Paradise, and
|
||
dared to fancy amiable and lovely creatures sympathizing with my
|
||
feelings and cheering my gloom; their angelic countenances breathed
|
||
smiles of consolation. But it was all a dream: no Eve soothed my
|
||
sorrows, or shared my thoughts; I was alone. I remembered Adam’s
|
||
supplication to his Creator; but where was mine? he had abandoned me,
|
||
and, in the bitterness of my heart, I cursed him.
|
||
|
||
“Autumn passed thus. I saw, with surprise and grief, the leaves decay
|
||
and fall, and nature again assume the barren and bleak appearance it had
|
||
worn when I first beheld the woods and the lovely moon. Yet I did not
|
||
heed the bleakness of the weather; I was better fitted by my
|
||
conformation for the endurance of cold than heat. But my chief delights
|
||
were the sight of the flowers, the birds, and all the gay apparel of
|
||
summer; when those deserted me, I turned with more attention towards the
|
||
cottagers. Their happiness was not decreased by the absence of summer.
|
||
They loved, and sympathized with one another; and their joys, depending
|
||
on each other, were not interrupted by the casualties that took place
|
||
around them. The more I saw of them, the greater became my desire to
|
||
claim their protection and kindness; my heart yearned to be known and
|
||
loved by these amiable creatures: to see their sweet looks turned
|
||
towards me with affection, was the utmost limit of my ambition. I dared
|
||
not think that they would turn them from me with disdain and horror. The
|
||
poor that stopped at their door were never driven away. I asked, it is
|
||
true, for greater treasures than a little food or rest; I required
|
||
kindness and sympathy; but I did not believe myself utterly unworthy of
|
||
it.
|
||
|
||
“The winter advanced, and an entire revolution of the seasons had taken
|
||
place since I awoke into life. My attention, at this time, was solely
|
||
directed towards my plan of introducing myself into the cottage of my
|
||
protectors. I revolved many projects; but that on which I finally fixed
|
||
was, to enter the dwelling when the blind old man should be alone. I had
|
||
sagacity enough to discover, that the unnatural hideousness of my person
|
||
was the chief object of horror with those who had formerly beheld me. My
|
||
voice, although harsh, had nothing terrible in it; I thought, therefore,
|
||
that if, in the absence of his children, I could gain the good-will and
|
||
mediation of the old De Lacy, I might, by his means, be tolerated by my
|
||
younger protectors.
|
||
|
||
“One day, when the sun shone on the red leaves that strewed the ground,
|
||
and diffused cheerfulness, although it denied warmth, Safie, Agatha, and
|
||
Felix, departed on a long country walk, and the old man, at his own
|
||
desire, was left alone in the cottage. When his children had departed,
|
||
he took up his guitar, and played several mournful, but sweet airs, more
|
||
sweet and mournful than I had ever heard him play before. At first his
|
||
countenance was illuminated with pleasure, but, as he continued,
|
||
thoughtfulness and sadness succeeded; at length, laying aside the
|
||
instrument, he sat absorbed in reflection.
|
||
|
||
“My heart beat quick; this was the hour and moment of trial, which
|
||
would decide my hopes, or realize my fears. The servants were gone to a
|
||
neighbouring fair. All was silent in and around the cottage: it was an
|
||
excellent opportunity; yet, when I proceeded to execute my plan, my
|
||
limbs failed me, and I sunk to the ground. Again I rose; and, exerting
|
||
all the firmness of which I was master, removed the planks which I had
|
||
placed before my hovel to conceal my retreat. The fresh air revived me,
|
||
and, with renewed determination, I approached the door of their cottage.
|
||
|
||
“I knocked. ‘Who is there?’ said the old man—‘Come in.’
|
||
|
||
“I entered; ‘Pardon this intrusion,’ said I, ‘I am a traveller in want
|
||
of a little rest; you would greatly oblige me, if you would allow me to
|
||
remain a few minutes before the fire.’
|
||
|
||
“‘Enter,’ said De Lacy; ‘and I will try in what manner I can relieve
|
||
your wants; but, unfortunately, my children are from home, and, as I am
|
||
blind, I am afraid I shall find it difficult to procure food for you.’
|
||
|
||
“‘Do not trouble yourself, my kind host, I have food; it is warmth and
|
||
rest only that I need.’
|
||
|
||
“I sat down, and a silence ensued. I knew that every minute was precious
|
||
to me, yet I remained irresolute in what manner to commence the
|
||
interview; when the old man addressed me—
|
||
|
||
“‘By your language, stranger, I suppose you are my countryman;—are you
|
||
French?’
|
||
|
||
“‘No; but I was educated by a French family, and understand that
|
||
language only. I am now going to claim the protection of some friends,
|
||
whom I sincerely love, and of whose favour I have some hopes.’
|
||
|
||
“‘Are these Germans?’
|
||
|
||
“‘No, they are French. But let us change the subject. I am an
|
||
unfortunate and deserted creature; I look around, and I have no relation
|
||
or friend upon earth. These amiable people to whom I go have never seen
|
||
me, and know little of me. I am full of fears; for if I fail there, I am
|
||
an outcast in the world for ever.’
|
||
|
||
“‘Do not despair. To be friendless is indeed to be unfortunate; but the
|
||
hearts of men, when unprejudiced by any obvious self-interest, are full
|
||
of brotherly love and charity. Rely, therefore, on your hopes; and if
|
||
these friends are good and amiable, do not despair.’
|
||
|
||
“‘They are kind—they are the most excellent creatures in the world;
|
||
but, unfortunately, they are prejudiced against me. I have good
|
||
dispositions; my life has been hitherto harmless, and, in some degree,
|
||
beneficial; but a fatal prejudice clouds their eyes, and where they
|
||
ought to see a feeling and kind friend, they behold only a detestable
|
||
monster.’
|
||
|
||
“‘That is indeed unfortunate; but if you are really blameless, cannot
|
||
you undeceive them?’
|
||
|
||
“‘I am about to undertake that task; and it is on that account that I
|
||
feel so many overwhelming terrors. I tenderly love these friends; I
|
||
have, unknown to them, been for many months in the habits of daily
|
||
kindness towards them; but they believe that I wish to injure them, and
|
||
it is that prejudice which I wish to overcome.’
|
||
|
||
“‘Where do these friends reside?’
|
||
|
||
“‘Near this spot.’
|
||
|
||
“The old man paused, and then continued, ‘If you will unreservedly
|
||
confide to me the particulars of your tale, I perhaps may be of use in
|
||
undeceiving them. I am blind, and cannot judge of your countenance, but
|
||
there is something in your words which persuades me that you are
|
||
sincere. I am poor, and an exile; but it will afford me true pleasure to
|
||
be in any way serviceable to a human creature.’
|
||
|
||
“‘Excellent man! I thank you, and accept your generous offer. You raise
|
||
me from the dust by this kindness; and I trust that, by your aid, I
|
||
shall not be driven from the society and sympathy of your
|
||
fellow-creatures.’
|
||
|
||
“‘Heaven forbid! even if you were really criminal; for that can only
|
||
drive you to desperation, and not instigate you to virtue. I also am
|
||
unfortunate; I and my family have been condemned, although innocent:
|
||
judge, therefore, if I do not feel for your misfortunes.’
|
||
|
||
“‘How can I thank you, my best and only benefactor? from your lips first
|
||
have I heard the voice of kindness directed towards me; I shall be for
|
||
ever grateful; and your present humanity assures me of success with
|
||
those friends whom I am on the point of meeting.’
|
||
|
||
“‘May I know the names and residence of those friends?’
|
||
|
||
“I paused. This, I thought, was the moment of decision, which was to rob
|
||
me of, or bestow happiness on me for ever. I struggled vainly for
|
||
firmness sufficient to answer him, but the effort destroyed all my
|
||
remaining strength; I sank on the chair, and sobbed aloud. At that
|
||
moment I heard the steps of my younger protectors. I had not a moment to
|
||
lose; but, seizing the hand of the old man, I cried, ‘Now is the
|
||
time!—save and protect me! You and your family are the friends whom I
|
||
seek. Do not you desert me in the hour of trial!’
|
||
|
||
“‘Great God!’ exclaimed the old man, ‘who are you?’
|
||
|
||
“At that instant the cottage door was opened, and Felix, Safie, and
|
||
Agatha entered. Who can describe their horror and consternation on
|
||
beholding me? Agatha fainted; and Safie, unable to attend to her friend,
|
||
rushed out of the cottage. Felix darted forward, and with supernatural
|
||
force tore me from his father, to whose knees I clung: in a transport of
|
||
fury, he dashed me to the ground, and struck me violently with a stick.
|
||
I could have torn him limb from limb, as the lion rends the antelope.
|
||
But my heart sunk within me as with bitter sickness, and I refrained. I
|
||
saw him on the point of repeating his blow, when, overcome by pain and
|
||
anguish, I quitted the cottage, and in the general tumult escaped
|
||
unperceived to my hovel.”
|
||
|
||
|
||
|
||
|
||
CHAPTER VIII.
|
||
|
||
|
||
“Cursed, cursed creator! Why did I live? Why, in that instant, did I not
|
||
extinguish the spark of existence which you had so wantonly bestowed? I
|
||
know not; despair had not yet taken possession of me; my feelings were
|
||
those of rage and revenge. I could with pleasure have destroyed the
|
||
cottage and its inhabitants, and have glutted myself with their shrieks
|
||
and misery.
|
||
|
||
“When night came, I quitted my retreat, and wandered in the wood; and
|
||
now, no longer restrained by the fear of discovery, I gave vent to my
|
||
anguish in fearful howlings. I was like a wild beast that had broken the
|
||
toils; destroying the objects that obstructed me, and ranging through
|
||
the wood with a stag-like swiftness. Oh! what a miserable night I
|
||
passed! the cold stars shone in mockery, and the bare trees waved their
|
||
branches above me: now and then the sweet voice of a bird burst forth
|
||
amidst the universal stillness. All, save I, were at rest or in
|
||
enjoyment: I, like the arch fiend, bore a hell within me; and, finding
|
||
myself unsympathized with, wished to tear up the trees, spread havoc and
|
||
destruction around me, and then to have sat down and enjoyed the ruin.
|
||
|
||
“But this was a luxury of sensation that could not endure; I became
|
||
fatigued with excess of bodily exertion, and sank on the damp grass in
|
||
the sick impotence of despair. There was none among the myriads of men
|
||
that existed who would pity or assist me; and should I feel kindness
|
||
towards my enemies? No: from that moment I declared everlasting war
|
||
against the species, and, more than all, against him who had formed me,
|
||
and sent me forth to this insupportable misery.
|
||
|
||
“The sun rose; I heard the voices of men, and knew that it was
|
||
impossible to return to my retreat during that day. Accordingly I hid
|
||
myself in some thick underwood, determining to devote the ensuing hours
|
||
to reflection on my situation.
|
||
|
||
“The pleasant sunshine, and the pure air of day, restored me to some
|
||
degree of tranquillity; and when I considered what had passed at the
|
||
cottage, I could not help believing that I had been too hasty in my
|
||
conclusions. I had certainly acted imprudently. It was apparent that my
|
||
conversation had interested the father in my behalf, and I was a fool in
|
||
having exposed my person to the horror of his children. I ought to have
|
||
familiarized the old De Lacy to me, and by degrees have discovered
|
||
myself to the rest of his family, when they should have been prepared
|
||
for my approach. But I did not believe my errors to be irretrievable;
|
||
and, after much consideration, I resolved to return to the cottage, seek
|
||
the old man, and by my representations win him to my party.
|
||
|
||
“These thoughts calmed me, and in the afternoon I sank into a profound
|
||
sleep; but the fever of my blood did not allow me to be visited by
|
||
peaceful dreams. The horrible scene of the preceding day was for ever
|
||
acting before my eyes; the females were flying, and the enraged Felix
|
||
tearing me from his father’s feet. I awoke exhausted; and, finding that
|
||
it was already night, I crept forth from my hiding-place, and went in
|
||
search of food.
|
||
|
||
“When my hunger was appeased, I directed my steps towards the well-known
|
||
path that conducted to the cottage. All there was at peace. I crept into
|
||
my hovel, and remained in silent expectation of the accustomed hour when
|
||
the family arose. That hour past, the sun mounted high in the heavens,
|
||
but the cottagers did not appear. I trembled violently, apprehending
|
||
some dreadful misfortune. The inside of the cottage was dark, and I
|
||
heard no motion; I cannot describe the agony of this suspence.
|
||
|
||
“Presently two countrymen passed by; but, pausing near the cottage, they
|
||
entered into conversation, using violent gesticulations; but I did not
|
||
understand what they said, as they spoke the language of the country,
|
||
which differed from that of my protectors. Soon after, however, Felix
|
||
approached with another man: I was surprised, as I knew that he had not
|
||
quitted the cottage that morning, and waited anxiously to discover, from
|
||
his discourse, the meaning of these unusual appearances.
|
||
|
||
“‘Do you consider,’ said his companion to him, ‘that you will be obliged
|
||
to pay three months’ rent, and to lose the produce of your garden? I do
|
||
not wish to take any unfair advantage, and I beg therefore that you will
|
||
take some days to consider of your determination.’
|
||
|
||
“‘It is utterly useless,’ replied Felix, ‘we can never again inhabit
|
||
your cottage. The life of my father is in the greatest danger, owing to
|
||
the dreadful circumstance that I have related. My wife and my sister
|
||
will never recover their horror. I entreat you not to reason with me any
|
||
more. Take possession of your tenement, and let me fly from this place.’
|
||
|
||
“Felix trembled violently as he said this. He and his companion entered
|
||
the cottage, in which they remained for a few minutes, and then
|
||
departed. I never saw any of the family of De Lacy more.
|
||
|
||
“I continued for the remainder of the day in my hovel in a state of
|
||
utter and stupid despair. My protectors had departed, and had broken the
|
||
only link that held me to the world. For the first time the feelings of
|
||
revenge and hatred filled my bosom, and I did not strive to controul
|
||
them; but, allowing myself to be borne away by the stream, I bent my
|
||
mind towards injury and death. When I thought of my friends, of the mild
|
||
voice of De Lacy, the gentle eyes of Agatha, and the exquisite beauty of
|
||
the Arabian, these thoughts vanished, and a gush of tears somewhat
|
||
soothed me. But again, when I reflected that they had spurned and
|
||
deserted me, anger returned, a rage of anger; and, unable to injure any
|
||
thing human, I turned my fury towards inanimate objects. As night
|
||
advanced, I placed a variety of combustibles around the cottage; and,
|
||
after having destroyed every vestige of cultivation in the garden, I
|
||
waited with forced impatience until the moon had sunk to commence my
|
||
operations.
|
||
|
||
“As the night advanced, a fierce wind arose from the woods, and quickly
|
||
dispersed the clouds that had loitered in the heavens: the blast tore
|
||
along like a mighty avalanche, and produced a kind of insanity in my
|
||
spirits, that burst all bounds of reason and reflection. I lighted the
|
||
dry branch of a tree, and danced with fury around the devoted cottage,
|
||
my eyes still fixed on the western horizon, the edge of which the moon
|
||
nearly touched. A part of its orb was at length hid, and I waved my
|
||
brand; it sunk, and, with a loud scream, I fired the straw, and heath,
|
||
and bushes, which I had collected. The wind fanned the fire, and the
|
||
cottage was quickly enveloped by the flames, which clung to it, and
|
||
licked it with their forked and destroying tongues.
|
||
|
||
“As soon as I was convinced that no assistance could save any part of
|
||
the habitation, I quitted the scene, and sought for refuge in the woods.
|
||
|
||
“And now, with the world before me, whither should I bend my steps? I
|
||
resolved to fly far from the scene of my misfortunes; but to me, hated
|
||
and despised, every country must be equally horrible. At length the
|
||
thought of you crossed my mind. I learned from your papers that you were
|
||
my father, my creator; and to whom could I apply with more fitness than
|
||
to him who had given me life? Among the lessons that Felix had bestowed
|
||
upon Safie geography had not been omitted: I had learned from these the
|
||
relative situations of the different countries of the earth. You had
|
||
mentioned Geneva as the name of your native town; and towards this place
|
||
I resolved to proceed.
|
||
|
||
“But how was I to direct myself? I knew that I must travel in a
|
||
south-westerly direction to reach my destination; but the sun was my
|
||
only guide. I did not know the names of the towns that I was to pass
|
||
through, nor could I ask information from a single human being; but I
|
||
did not despair. From you only could I hope for succour, although
|
||
towards you I felt no sentiment but that of hatred. Unfeeling, heartless
|
||
creator! you had endowed me with perceptions and passions, and then cast
|
||
me abroad an object for the scorn and horror of mankind. But on you only
|
||
had I any claim for pity and redress, and from you I determined to seek
|
||
that justice which I vainly attempted to gain from any other being that
|
||
wore the human form.
|
||
|
||
“My travels were long, and the sufferings I endured intense. It was late
|
||
in autumn when I quitted the district where I had so long resided. I
|
||
travelled only at night, fearful of encountering the visage of a human
|
||
being. Nature decayed around me, and the sun became heatless; rain and
|
||
snow poured around me; mighty rivers were frozen; the surface of the
|
||
earth was hard, and chill, and bare, and I found no shelter. Oh, earth!
|
||
how often did I imprecate curses on the cause of my being! The mildness
|
||
of my nature had fled, and all within me was turned to gall and
|
||
bitterness. The nearer I approached to your habitation, the more deeply
|
||
did I feel the spirit of revenge enkindled in my heart. Snow fell, and
|
||
the waters were hardened, but I rested not. A few incidents now and then
|
||
directed me, and I possessed a map of the country; but I often wandered
|
||
wide from my path. The agony of my feelings allowed me no respite: no
|
||
incident occurred from which my rage and misery could not extract its
|
||
food; but a circumstance that happened when I arrived on the confines of
|
||
Switzerland, when the sun had recovered its warmth, and the earth again
|
||
began to look green, confirmed in an especial manner the bitterness and
|
||
horror of my feelings.
|
||
|
||
“I generally rested during the day, and travelled only when I was
|
||
secured by night from the view of man. One morning, however, finding
|
||
that my path lay through a deep wood, I ventured to continue my journey
|
||
after the sun had risen; the day, which was one of the first of spring,
|
||
cheered even me by the loveliness of its sunshine and the balminess of
|
||
the air. I felt emotions of gentleness and pleasure, that had long
|
||
appeared dead, revive within me. Half surprised by the novelty of these
|
||
sensations, I allowed myself to be borne away by them; and, forgetting
|
||
my solitude and deformity, dared to be happy. Soft tears again bedewed
|
||
my cheeks, and I even raised my humid eyes with thankfulness towards the
|
||
blessed sun which bestowed such joy upon me.
|
||
|
||
“I continued to wind among the paths of the wood, until I came to its
|
||
boundary, which was skirted by a deep and rapid river, into which many
|
||
of the trees bent their branches, now budding with the fresh spring.
|
||
Here I paused, not exactly knowing what path to pursue, when I heard the
|
||
sound of voices, that induced me to conceal myself under the shade of a
|
||
cypress. I was scarcely hid, when a young girl came running towards the
|
||
spot where I was concealed, laughing as if she ran from some one in
|
||
sport. She continued her course along the precipitous sides of the
|
||
river, when suddenly her foot slipt, and she fell into the rapid stream.
|
||
I rushed from my hiding-place, and, with extreme labour from the force
|
||
of the current, saved her, and dragged her to shore. She was senseless;
|
||
and I endeavoured, by every means in my power, to restore animation,
|
||
when I was suddenly interrupted by the approach of a rustic, who was
|
||
probably the person from whom she had playfully fled. On seeing me, he
|
||
darted towards me, and, tearing the girl from my arms, hastened towards
|
||
the deeper parts of the wood. I followed speedily, I hardly knew why;
|
||
but when the man saw me draw near, he aimed a gun, which he carried, at
|
||
my body, and fired. I sunk to the ground, and my injurer, with increased
|
||
swiftness, escaped into the wood.
|
||
|
||
“This was then the reward of my benevolence! I had saved a human being
|
||
from destruction, and, as a recompense, I now writhed under the
|
||
miserable pain of a wound, which shattered the flesh and bone. The
|
||
feelings of kindness and gentleness, which I had entertained but a few
|
||
moments before, gave place to hellish rage and gnashing of teeth.
|
||
Inflamed by pain, I vowed eternal hatred and vengeance to all mankind.
|
||
But the agony of my wound overcame me; my pulses paused, and I fainted.
|
||
|
||
“For some weeks I led a miserable life in the woods, endeavouring to
|
||
cure the wound which I had received. The ball had entered my shoulder,
|
||
and I knew not whether it had remained there or passed through; at any
|
||
rate I had no means of extracting it. My sufferings were augmented also
|
||
by the oppressive sense of the injustice and ingratitude of their
|
||
infliction. My daily vows rose for revenge—a deep and deadly revenge,
|
||
such as would alone compensate for the outrages and anguish I had
|
||
endured.
|
||
|
||
“After some weeks my wound healed, and I continued my journey. The
|
||
labours I endured were no longer to be alleviated by the bright sun or
|
||
gentle breezes of spring; all joy was but a mockery, which insulted my
|
||
desolate state, and made me feel more painfully that I was not made for
|
||
the enjoyment of pleasure.
|
||
|
||
“But my toils now drew near a close; and, two months from this time, I
|
||
reached the environs of Geneva.
|
||
|
||
“It was evening when I arrived, and I retired to a hiding-place among
|
||
the fields that surround it, to meditate in what manner I should apply
|
||
to you. I was oppressed by fatigue and hunger, and far too unhappy to
|
||
enjoy the gentle breezes of evening, or the prospect of the sun setting
|
||
behind the stupendous mountains of Jura.
|
||
|
||
“At this time a slight sleep relieved me from the pain of reflection,
|
||
which was disturbed by the approach of a beautiful child, who came
|
||
running into the recess I had chosen with all the sportiveness of
|
||
infancy. Suddenly, as I gazed on him, an idea seized me, that this
|
||
little creature was unprejudiced, and had lived too short a time to have
|
||
imbibed a horror of deformity. If, therefore, I could seize him, and
|
||
educate him as my companion and friend, I should not be so desolate in
|
||
this peopled earth.
|
||
|
||
“Urged by this impulse, I seized on the boy as he passed, and drew him
|
||
towards me. As soon as he beheld my form, he placed his hands before his
|
||
eyes, and uttered a shrill scream: I drew his hand forcibly from his
|
||
face, and said, ‘Child, what is the meaning of this? I do not intend to
|
||
hurt you; listen to me.’
|
||
|
||
“He struggled violently; ‘Let me go,’ he cried; ‘monster! ugly wretch!
|
||
you wish to eat me, and tear me to pieces—You are an ogre—Let me go,
|
||
or I will tell my papa.’
|
||
|
||
“‘Boy, you will never see your father again; you must come with me.’
|
||
|
||
“‘Hideous monster! let me go; My papa is a Syndic—he is M.
|
||
Frankenstein—he would punish you. You dare not keep me.’
|
||
|
||
“‘Frankenstein! you belong then to my enemy—to him towards whom I have
|
||
sworn eternal revenge; you shall be my first victim.’
|
||
|
||
“The child still struggled, and loaded me with epithets which carried
|
||
despair to my heart: I grasped his throat to silence him, and in a
|
||
moment he lay dead at my feet.
|
||
|
||
“I gazed on my victim, and my heart swelled with exultation and hellish
|
||
triumph: clapping my hands, I exclaimed, ‘I, too, can create desolation;
|
||
my enemy is not impregnable; this death will carry despair to him, and a
|
||
thousand other miseries shall torment and destroy him.’
|
||
|
||
“As I fixed my eyes on the child, I saw something glittering on his
|
||
breast. I took it; it was a portrait of a most lovely woman. In spite of
|
||
my malignity, it softened and attracted me. For a few moments I gazed
|
||
with delight on her dark eyes, fringed by deep lashes, and her lovely
|
||
lips; but presently my rage returned: I remembered that I was for ever
|
||
deprived of the delights that such beautiful creatures could bestow; and
|
||
that she whose resemblance I contemplated would, in regarding me, have
|
||
changed that air of divine benignity to one expressive of disgust and
|
||
affright.
|
||
|
||
“Can you wonder that such thoughts transported me with rage? I only
|
||
wonder that at that moment, instead of venting my sensations in
|
||
exclamations and agony, I did not rush among mankind, and perish in the
|
||
attempt to destroy them.
|
||
|
||
“While I was overcome by these feelings, I left the spot where I had
|
||
committed the murder, and was seeking a more secluded hiding-place, when
|
||
I perceived a woman passing near me. She was young, not indeed so
|
||
beautiful as her whose portrait I held, but of an agreeable aspect, and
|
||
blooming in the loveliness of youth and health. Here, I thought, is one
|
||
of those whose smiles are bestowed on all but me; she shall not escape:
|
||
thanks to the lessons of Felix, and the sanguinary laws of man, I have
|
||
learned how to work mischief. I approached her unperceived, and placed
|
||
the portrait securely in one of the folds of her dress.
|
||
|
||
“For some days I haunted the spot where these scenes had taken place;
|
||
sometimes wishing to see you, sometimes resolved to quit the world and
|
||
its miseries for ever. At length I wandered towards these mountains, and
|
||
have ranged through their immense recesses, consumed by a burning
|
||
passion which you alone can gratify. We may not part until you have
|
||
promised to comply with my requisition. I am alone, and miserable; man
|
||
will not associate with me; but one as deformed and horrible as myself
|
||
would not deny herself to me. My companion must be of the same species,
|
||
and have the same defects. This being you must create.”
|
||
|
||
|
||
|
||
|
||
CHAPTER IX.
|
||
|
||
|
||
The being finished speaking, and fixed his looks upon me in expectation
|
||
of a reply. But I was bewildered, perplexed, and unable to arrange my
|
||
ideas sufficiently to understand the full extent of his proposition. He
|
||
continued—
|
||
|
||
“You must create a female for me, with whom I can live in the
|
||
interchange of those sympathies necessary for my being. This you alone
|
||
can do; and I demand it of you as a right which you must not refuse.”
|
||
|
||
The latter part of his tale had kindled anew in me the anger that had
|
||
died away while he narrated his peaceful life among the cottagers, and,
|
||
as he said this, I could no longer suppress the rage that burned within
|
||
me.
|
||
|
||
“I do refuse it,” I replied; “and no torture shall ever extort a consent
|
||
from me. You may render me the most miserable of men, but you shall
|
||
never make me base in my own eyes. Shall I create another like yourself,
|
||
whose joint wickedness might desolate the world. Begone! I have answered
|
||
you; you may torture me, but I will never consent.”
|
||
|
||
“You are in the wrong,” replied the fiend; “and, instead of threatening,
|
||
I am content to reason with you. I am malicious because I am miserable;
|
||
am I not shunned and hated by all mankind? You, my creator, would tear
|
||
me to pieces, and triumph; remember that, and tell me why I should pity
|
||
man more than he pities me? You would not call it murder, if you could
|
||
precipitate me into one of those ice-rifts, and destroy my frame, the
|
||
work of your own hands. Shall I respect man, when he contemns me? Let
|
||
him live with me in the interchange of kindness, and, instead of injury,
|
||
I would bestow every benefit upon him with tears of gratitude at his
|
||
acceptance. But that cannot be; the human senses are insurmountable
|
||
barriers to our union. Yet mine shall not be the submission of abject
|
||
slavery. I will revenge my injuries: if I cannot inspire love, I will
|
||
cause fear; and chiefly towards you my arch-enemy, because my creator,
|
||
do I swear inextinguishable hatred. Have a care: I will work at your
|
||
destruction, nor finish until I desolate your heart, so that you curse
|
||
the hour of your birth.”
|
||
|
||
A fiendish rage animated him as he said this; his face was wrinkled into
|
||
contortions too horrible for human eyes to behold; but presently he
|
||
calmed himself, and proceeded—
|
||
|
||
“I intended to reason. This passion is detrimental to me; for you do not
|
||
reflect that you are the cause of its excess. If any being felt emotions
|
||
of benevolence towards me, I should return them an hundred and an
|
||
hundred fold; for that one creature’s sake, I would make peace with the
|
||
whole kind! But I now indulge in dreams of bliss that cannot be
|
||
realized. What I ask of you is reasonable and moderate; I demand a
|
||
creature of another sex, but as hideous as myself: the gratification is
|
||
small, but it is all that I can receive, and it shall content me. It is
|
||
true, we shall be monsters, cut off from all the world; but on that
|
||
account we shall be more attached to one another. Our lives will not be
|
||
happy, but they will be harmless, and free from the misery I now feel.
|
||
Oh! my creator, make me happy; let me feel gratitude towards you for one
|
||
benefit! Let me see that I excite the sympathy of some existing thing;
|
||
do not deny me my request!”
|
||
|
||
I was moved. I shuddered when I thought of the possible consequences of
|
||
my consent; but I felt that there was some justice in his argument. His
|
||
tale, and the feelings he now expressed, proved him to be a creature of
|
||
fine sensations; and did I not, as his maker, owe him all the portion of
|
||
happiness that it was in my power to bestow? He saw my change of
|
||
feeling, and continued—
|
||
|
||
“If you consent, neither you nor any other human being shall ever see us
|
||
again: I will go to the vast wilds of South America. My food is not that
|
||
of man; I do not destroy the lamb and the kid, to glut my appetite;
|
||
acorns and berries afford me sufficient nourishment. My companion will
|
||
be of the same nature as myself, and will be content with the same fare.
|
||
We shall make our bed of dried leaves; the sun will shine on us as on
|
||
man, and will ripen our food. The picture I present to you is peaceful
|
||
and human, and you must feel that you could deny it only in the
|
||
wantonness of power and cruelty. Pitiless as you have been towards me, I
|
||
now see compassion in your eyes: let me seize the favourable moment, and
|
||
persuade you to promise what I so ardently desire.”
|
||
|
||
“You propose,” replied I, “to fly from the habitations of man, to dwell
|
||
in those wilds where the beasts of the field will be your only
|
||
companions. How can you, who long for the love and sympathy of man,
|
||
persevere in this exile? You will return, and again seek their kindness,
|
||
and you will meet with their detestation; your evil passions will be
|
||
renewed, and you will then have a companion to aid you in the task of
|
||
destruction. This may not be; cease to argue the point, for I cannot
|
||
consent.”
|
||
|
||
“How inconstant are your feelings! but a moment ago you were moved by my
|
||
representations, and why do you again harden yourself to my complaints?
|
||
I swear to you, by the earth which I inhabit, and by you that made me,
|
||
that, with the companion you bestow, I will quit the neighbourhood of
|
||
man, and dwell, as it may chance, in the most savage of places. My evil
|
||
passions will have fled, for I shall meet with sympathy; my life will
|
||
flow quietly away, and, in my dying moments, I shall not curse my
|
||
maker.”
|
||
|
||
His words had a strange effect upon me. I compassionated him, and
|
||
sometimes felt a wish to console him; but when I looked upon him, when I
|
||
saw the filthy mass that moved and talked, my heart sickened, and my
|
||
feelings were altered to those of horror and hatred. I tried to stifle
|
||
these sensations; I thought, that as I could not sympathize with him, I
|
||
had no right to withhold from him the small portion of happiness which
|
||
was yet in my power to bestow.
|
||
|
||
“You swear,” I said, “to be harmless; but have you not already shewn a
|
||
degree of malice that should reasonably make me distrust you? May not
|
||
even this be a feint that will increase your triumph by affording a
|
||
wider scope for your revenge?”
|
||
|
||
“How is this? I thought I had moved your compassion, and yet you still
|
||
refuse to bestow on me the only benefit that can soften my heart, and
|
||
render me harmless. If I have no ties and no affections, hatred and vice
|
||
must be my portion; the love of another will destroy the cause of my
|
||
crimes, and I shall become a thing, of whose existence every one will be
|
||
ignorant. My vices are the children of a forced solitude that I abhor;
|
||
and my virtues will necessarily arise when I live in communion with an
|
||
equal. I shall feel the affections of a sensitive being, and become
|
||
linked to the chain of existence and events, from which I am now
|
||
excluded.”
|
||
|
||
I paused some time to reflect on all he had related, and the various
|
||
arguments which he had employed. I thought of the promise of virtues
|
||
which he had displayed on the opening of his existence, and the
|
||
subsequent blight of all kindly feeling by the loathing and scorn which
|
||
his protectors had manifested towards him. His power and threats were
|
||
not omitted in my calculations: a creature who could exist in the ice
|
||
caves of the glaciers, and hide himself from pursuit among the ridges of
|
||
inaccessible precipices, was a being possessing faculties it would be
|
||
vain to cope with. After a long pause of reflection, I concluded, that
|
||
the justice due both to him and my fellow-creatures demanded of me that
|
||
I should comply with his request. Turning to him, therefore, I said—
|
||
|
||
“I consent to your demand, on your solemn oath to quit Europe for ever,
|
||
and every other place in the neighbourhood of man, as soon as I shall
|
||
deliver into your hands a female who will accompany you in your exile.”
|
||
|
||
“I swear,” he cried, “by the sun, and by the blue sky of heaven, that if
|
||
you grant my prayer, while they exist you shall never behold me again.
|
||
Depart to your home, and commence your labours: I shall watch their
|
||
progress with unutterable anxiety; and fear not but that when you are
|
||
ready I shall appear.”
|
||
|
||
Saying this, he suddenly quitted me, fearful, perhaps, of any change in
|
||
my sentiments. I saw him descend the mountain with greater speed than
|
||
the flight of an eagle, and quickly lost him among the undulations of
|
||
the sea of ice.
|
||
|
||
His tale had occupied the whole day; and the sun was upon the verge of
|
||
the horizon when he departed. I knew that I ought to hasten my descent
|
||
towards the valley, as I should soon be encompassed in darkness; but my
|
||
heart was heavy, and my steps slow. The labour of winding among the
|
||
little paths of the mountains, and fixing my feet firmly as I advanced,
|
||
perplexed me, occupied as I was by the emotions which the occurrences of
|
||
the day had produced. Night was far advanced, when I came to the
|
||
half-way resting-place, and seated myself beside the fountain. The stars
|
||
shone at intervals, as the clouds passed from over them; the dark pines
|
||
rose before me, and every here and there a broken tree lay on the
|
||
ground: it was a scene of wonderful solemnity, and stirred strange
|
||
thoughts within me. I wept bitterly; and, clasping my hands in agony, I
|
||
exclaimed, “Oh! stars, and clouds, and winds, ye are all about to mock
|
||
me: if ye really pity me, crush sensation and memory; let me become as
|
||
nought; but if not, depart, depart and leave me in darkness.”
|
||
|
||
These were wild and miserable thoughts; but I cannot describe to you how
|
||
the eternal twinkling of the stars weighed upon me, and how I listened
|
||
to every blast of wind, as if it were a dull ugly siroc on its way to
|
||
consume me.
|
||
|
||
Morning dawned before I arrived at the village of Chamounix; but my
|
||
presence, so haggard and strange, hardly calmed the fears of my family,
|
||
who had waited the whole night in anxious expectation of my return.
|
||
|
||
The following day we returned to Geneva. The intention of my father in
|
||
coming had been to divert my mind, and to restore me to my lost
|
||
tranquillity; but the medicine had been fatal. And, unable to account
|
||
for the excess of misery I appeared to suffer, he hastened to return
|
||
home, hoping the quiet and monotony of a domestic life would by degrees
|
||
alleviate my sufferings from whatsoever cause they might spring.
|
||
|
||
For myself, I was passive in all their arrangements; and the gentle
|
||
affection of my beloved Elizabeth was inadequate to draw me from the
|
||
depth of my despair. The promise I had made to the dæmon weighed upon my
|
||
mind, like Dante’s iron cowl on the heads of the hellish hypocrites. All
|
||
pleasures of earth and sky passed before me like a dream, and that
|
||
thought only had to me the reality of life. Can you wonder, that
|
||
sometimes a kind of insanity possessed me, or that I saw continually
|
||
about me a multitude of filthy animals inflicting on me incessant
|
||
torture, that often extorted screams and bitter groans?
|
||
|
||
By degrees, however, these feelings became calmed. I entered again into
|
||
the every-day scene of life, if not with interest, at least with some
|
||
degree of tranquillity.
|
||
|
||
|
||
END OF VOL. II.
|
||
|
||
|
||
|
||
|
||
FRANKENSTEIN;
|
||
|
||
OR,
|
||
|
||
THE MODERN PROMETHEUS.
|
||
|
||
|
||
IN THREE VOLUMES.
|
||
VOL. III.
|
||
|
||
London:
|
||
|
||
_PRINTED FOR_
|
||
LACKINGTON, HUGHES, HARDING, MAVOR, & JONES,
|
||
FINSBURY SQUARE.
|
||
|
||
1818.
|
||
|
||
* * * * *
|
||
|
||
Did I request thee, Maker, from my clay
|
||
To mould me man? Did I solicit thee
|
||
From darkness to promote me?——
|
||
|
||
Paradise Lost.
|
||
|
||
|
||
|
||
|
||
CHAPTER I.
|
||
|
||
|
||
Day after day, week after week, passed away on my return to Geneva; and
|
||
I could not collect the courage to recommence my work. I feared the
|
||
vengeance of the disappointed fiend, yet I was unable to overcome my
|
||
repugnance to the task which was enjoined me. I found that I could not
|
||
compose a female without again devoting several months to profound study
|
||
and laborious disquisition. I had heard of some discoveries having been
|
||
made by an English philosopher, the knowledge of which was material to
|
||
my success, and I sometimes thought of obtaining my father’s consent to
|
||
visit England for this purpose; but I clung to every pretence of delay,
|
||
and could not resolve to interrupt my returning tranquillity. My health,
|
||
which had hitherto declined, was now much restored; and my spirits, when
|
||
unchecked by the memory of my unhappy promise, rose proportionably. My
|
||
father saw this change with pleasure, and he turned his thoughts towards
|
||
the best method of eradicating the remains of my melancholy, which
|
||
every now and then would return by fits, and with a devouring blackness
|
||
overcast the approaching sunshine. At these moments I took refuge in the
|
||
most perfect solitude. I passed whole days on the lake alone in a little
|
||
boat, watching the clouds, and listening to the rippling of the waves,
|
||
silent and listless. But the fresh air and bright sun seldom failed to
|
||
restore me to some degree of composure; and, on my return, I met the
|
||
salutations of my friends with a readier smile and a more cheerful
|
||
heart.
|
||
|
||
It was after my return from one of these rambles that my father, calling
|
||
me aside, thus addressed me:—
|
||
|
||
“I am happy to remark, my dear son, that you have resumed your former
|
||
pleasures, and seem to be returning to yourself. And yet you are still
|
||
unhappy, and still avoid our society. For some time I was lost in
|
||
conjecture as to the cause of this; but yesterday an idea struck me, and
|
||
if it is well founded, I conjure you to avow it. Reserve on such a point
|
||
would be not only useless, but draw down treble misery on us all.”
|
||
|
||
I trembled violently at this exordium, and my father continued—
|
||
|
||
“I confess, my son, that I have always looked forward to your marriage
|
||
with your cousin as the tie of our domestic comfort, and the stay of my
|
||
declining years. You were attached to each other from your earliest
|
||
infancy; you studied together, and appeared, in dispositions and tastes,
|
||
entirely suited to one another. But so blind is the experience of man,
|
||
that what I conceived to be the best assistants to my plan may have
|
||
entirely destroyed it. You, perhaps, regard her as your sister, without
|
||
any wish that she might become your wife. Nay, you may have met with
|
||
another whom you may love; and, considering yourself as bound in honour
|
||
to your cousin, this struggle may occasion the poignant misery which you
|
||
appear to feel.”
|
||
|
||
“My dear father, re-assure yourself. I love my cousin tenderly and
|
||
sincerely. I never saw any woman who excited, as Elizabeth does, my
|
||
warmest admiration and affection. My future hopes and prospects are
|
||
entirely bound up in the expectation of our union.”
|
||
|
||
“The expression of your sentiments on this subject, my dear Victor,
|
||
gives me more pleasure than I have for some time experienced. If you
|
||
feel thus, we shall assuredly be happy, however present events may cast
|
||
a gloom over us. But it is this gloom, which appears to have taken so
|
||
strong a hold of your mind, that I wish to dissipate. Tell me,
|
||
therefore, whether you object to an immediate solemnization of the
|
||
marriage. We have been unfortunate, and recent events have drawn us from
|
||
that every-day tranquillity befitting my years and infirmities. You are
|
||
younger; yet I do not suppose, possessed as you are of a competent
|
||
fortune, that an early marriage would at all interfere with any future
|
||
plans of honour and utility that you may have formed. Do not suppose,
|
||
however, that I wish to dictate happiness to you, or that a delay on
|
||
your part would cause me any serious uneasiness. Interpret my words
|
||
with candour, and answer me, I conjure you, with confidence and
|
||
sincerity.”
|
||
|
||
I listened to my father in silence, and remained for some time incapable
|
||
of offering any reply. I revolved rapidly in my mind a multitude of
|
||
thoughts, and endeavoured to arrive at some conclusion. Alas! to me the
|
||
idea of an immediate union with my cousin was one of horror and dismay.
|
||
I was bound by a solemn promise, which I had not yet fulfilled, and
|
||
dared not break; or, if I did, what manifold miseries might not impend
|
||
over me and my devoted family! Could I enter into a festival with this
|
||
deadly weight yet hanging round my neck, and bowing me to the ground. I
|
||
must perform my engagement, and let the monster depart with his mate,
|
||
before I allowed myself to enjoy the delight of an union from which I
|
||
expected peace.
|
||
|
||
I remembered also the necessity imposed upon me of either journeying to
|
||
England, or entering into a long correspondence with those philosophers
|
||
of that country, whose knowledge and discoveries were of indispensable
|
||
use to me in my present undertaking. The latter method of obtaining the
|
||
desired intelligence was dilatory and unsatisfactory: besides, any
|
||
variation was agreeable to me, and I was delighted with the idea of
|
||
spending a year or two in change of scene and variety of occupation, in
|
||
absence from my family; during which period some event might happen
|
||
which would restore me to them in peace and happiness: my promise might
|
||
be fulfilled, and the monster have departed; or some accident might
|
||
occur to destroy him, and put an end to my slavery for ever.
|
||
|
||
These feelings dictated my answer to my father. I expressed a wish to
|
||
visit England; but, concealing the true reasons of this request, I
|
||
clothed my desires under the guise of wishing to travel and see the
|
||
world before I sat down for life within the walls of my native town.
|
||
|
||
I urged my entreaty with earnestness, and my father was easily induced
|
||
to comply; for a more indulgent and less dictatorial parent did not
|
||
exist upon earth. Our plan was soon arranged. I should travel to
|
||
Strasburgh, where Clerval would join me. Some short time would be spent
|
||
in the towns of Holland, and our principal stay would be in England. We
|
||
should return by France; and it was agreed that the tour should occupy
|
||
the space of two years.
|
||
|
||
My father pleased himself with the reflection, that my union with
|
||
Elizabeth should take place immediately on my return to Geneva. “These
|
||
two years,” said he, “will pass swiftly, and it will be the last delay
|
||
that will oppose itself to your happiness. And, indeed, I earnestly
|
||
desire that period to arrive, when we shall all be united, and neither
|
||
hopes or fears arise to disturb our domestic calm.”
|
||
|
||
“I am content,” I replied, “with your arrangement. By that time we shall
|
||
both have become wiser, and I hope happier, than we at present are.” I
|
||
sighed; but my father kindly forbore to question me further concerning
|
||
the cause of my dejection. He hoped that new scenes, and the amusement
|
||
of travelling, would restore my tranquillity.
|
||
|
||
I now made arrangements for my journey; but one feeling haunted me,
|
||
which filled me with fear and agitation. During my absence I should
|
||
leave my friends unconscious of the existence of their enemy, and
|
||
unprotected from his attacks, exasperated as he might be by my
|
||
departure. But he had promised to follow me wherever I might go; and
|
||
would he not accompany me to England? This imagination was dreadful in
|
||
itself, but soothing, inasmuch as it supposed the safety of my friends.
|
||
I was agonized with the idea of the possibility that the reverse of this
|
||
might happen. But through the whole period during which I was the slave
|
||
of my creature, I allowed myself to be governed by the impulses of the
|
||
moment; and my present sensations strongly intimated that the fiend
|
||
would follow me, and exempt my family from the danger of his
|
||
machinations.
|
||
|
||
It was in the latter end of August that I departed, to pass two years of
|
||
exile. Elizabeth approved of the reasons of my departure, and only
|
||
regretted that she had not the same opportunities of enlarging her
|
||
experience, and cultivating her understanding. She wept, however, as she
|
||
bade me farewell, and entreated me to return happy and tranquil. “We
|
||
all,” said she, “depend upon you; and if you are miserable, what must be
|
||
our feelings?”
|
||
|
||
I threw myself into the carriage that was to convey me away, hardly
|
||
knowing whither I was going, and careless of what was passing around. I
|
||
remembered only, and it was with a bitter anguish that I reflected on
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||
it, to order that my chemical instruments should be packed to go with
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||
me: for I resolved to fulfil my promise while abroad, and return, if
|
||
possible, a free man. Filled with dreary imaginations, I passed through
|
||
many beautiful and majestic scenes; but my eyes were fixed and
|
||
unobserving. I could only think of the bourne of my travels, and the
|
||
work which was to occupy me whilst they endured.
|
||
|
||
After some days spent in listless indolence, during which I traversed
|
||
many leagues, I arrived at Strasburgh, where I waited two days for
|
||
Clerval. He came. Alas, how great was the contrast between us! He was
|
||
alive to every new scene; joyful when he saw the beauties of the setting
|
||
sun, and more happy when he beheld it rise, and recommence a new day. He
|
||
pointed out to me the shifting colours of the landscape, and the
|
||
appearances of the sky. “This is what it is to live;” he cried, “now I
|
||
enjoy existence! But you, my dear Frankenstein, wherefore are you
|
||
desponding and sorrowful?” In truth, I was occupied by gloomy thoughts,
|
||
and neither saw the descent of the evening star, nor the golden sun-rise
|
||
reflected in the Rhine.—And you, my friend, would be far more amused
|
||
with the journal of Clerval, who observed the scenery with an eye of
|
||
feeling and delight, than to listen to my reflections. I, a miserable
|
||
wretch, haunted by a curse that shut up every avenue to enjoyment.
|
||
|
||
We had agreed to descend the Rhine in a boat from Strasburgh to
|
||
Rotterdam, whence we might take shipping for London. During this voyage,
|
||
we passed by many willowy islands, and saw several beautiful towns. We
|
||
staid a day at Manheim, and, on the fifth from our departure from
|
||
Strasburgh, arrived at Mayence. The course of the Rhine below Mayence
|
||
becomes much more picturesque. The river descends rapidly, and winds
|
||
between hills, not high, but steep, and of beautiful forms. We saw many
|
||
ruined castles standing on the edges of precipices, surrounded by black
|
||
woods, high and inaccessible. This part of the Rhine, indeed, presents a
|
||
singularly variegated landscape. In one spot you view rugged hills,
|
||
ruined castles overlooking tremendous precipices, with the dark Rhine
|
||
rushing beneath; and, on the sudden turn of a promontory, flourishing
|
||
vineyards, with green sloping banks, and a meandering river, and
|
||
populous towns, occupy the scene.
|
||
|
||
We travelled at the time of the vintage, and heard the song of the
|
||
labourers, as we glided down the stream. Even I, depressed in mind, and
|
||
my spirits continually agitated by gloomy feelings, even I was pleased.
|
||
I lay at the bottom of the boat, and, as I gazed on the cloudless blue
|
||
sky, I seemed to drink in a tranquillity to which I had long been a
|
||
stranger. And if these were my sensations, who can describe those of
|
||
Henry? He felt as if he had been transported to Fairy-land, and enjoyed
|
||
a happiness seldom tasted by man. “I have seen,” he said, “the most
|
||
beautiful scenes of my own country; I have visited the lakes of Lucerne
|
||
and Uri, where the snowy mountains descend almost perpendicularly to the
|
||
water, casting black and impenetrable shades, which would cause a gloomy
|
||
and mournful appearance, were it not for the most verdant islands that
|
||
relieve the eye by their gay appearance; I have seen this lake agitated
|
||
by a tempest, when the wind tore up whirlwinds of water, and gave you an
|
||
idea of what the water-spout must be on the great ocean, and the waves
|
||
dash with fury the base of the mountain, where the priest and his
|
||
mistress were overwhelmed by an avalanche, and where their dying voices
|
||
are still said to be heard amid the pauses of the nightly wind; I have
|
||
seen the mountains of La Valais, and the Pays de Vaud: but this country,
|
||
Victor, pleases me more than all those wonders. The mountains of
|
||
Switzerland are more majestic and strange; but there is a charm in the
|
||
banks of this divine river, that I never before saw equalled. Look at
|
||
that castle which overhangs yon precipice; and that also on the island,
|
||
almost concealed amongst the foliage of those lovely trees; and now that
|
||
group of labourers coming from among their vines; and that village
|
||
half-hid in the recess of the mountain. Oh, surely, the spirit that
|
||
inhabits and guards this place has a soul more in harmony with man, than
|
||
those who pile the glacier, or retire to the inaccessible peaks of the
|
||
mountains of our own country.”
|
||
|
||
Clerval! beloved friend! even now it delights me to record your words,
|
||
and to dwell on the praise of which you are so eminently deserving. He
|
||
was a being formed in the “very poetry of nature.” His wild and
|
||
enthusiastic imagination was chastened by the sensibility of his heart.
|
||
His soul overflowed with ardent affections, and his friendship was of
|
||
that devoted and wondrous nature that the worldly-minded teach us to
|
||
look for only in the imagination. But even human sympathies were not
|
||
sufficient to satisfy his eager mind. The scenery of external nature,
|
||
which others regard only with admiration, he loved with ardour:
|
||
|
||
—— ——“The sounding cataract
|
||
Haunted _him_ like a passion: the tall rock,
|
||
The mountain, and the deep and gloomy wood,
|
||
Their colours and their forms, were then to him
|
||
An appetite; a feeling, and a love,
|
||
That had no need of a remoter charm,
|
||
By thought supplied, or any interest
|
||
Unborrowed from the eye.”
|
||
|
||
And where does he now exist? Is this gentle and lovely being lost for
|
||
ever? Has this mind so replete with ideas, imaginations fanciful and
|
||
magnificent, which formed a world, whose existence depended on the life
|
||
of its creator; has this mind perished? Does it now only exist in my
|
||
memory? No, it is not thus; your form so divinely wrought, and beaming
|
||
with beauty, has decayed, but your spirit still visits and consoles your
|
||
unhappy friend.
|
||
|
||
Pardon this gush of sorrow; these ineffectual words are but a slight
|
||
tribute to the unexampled worth of Henry, but they soothe my heart,
|
||
overflowing with the anguish which his remembrance creates. I will
|
||
proceed with my tale.
|
||
|
||
Beyond Cologne we descended to the plains of Holland; and we resolved to
|
||
post the remainder of our way; for the wind was contrary, and the stream
|
||
of the river was too gentle to aid us.
|
||
|
||
Our journey here lost the interest arising from beautiful scenery; but
|
||
we arrived in a few days at Rotterdam, whence we proceeded by sea to
|
||
England. It was on a clear morning, in the latter days of December, that
|
||
I first saw the white cliffs of Britain. The banks of the Thames
|
||
presented a new scene; they were flat, but fertile, and almost every
|
||
town was marked by the remembrance of some story. We saw Tilbury Fort,
|
||
and remembered the Spanish armada; Gravesend, Woolwich, and Greenwich,
|
||
places which I had heard of even in my country.
|
||
|
||
At length we saw the numerous steeples of London, St. Paul’s towering
|
||
above all, and the Tower famed in English history.
|
||
|
||
|
||
|
||
|
||
CHAPTER II.
|
||
|
||
|
||
London was our present point of rest; we determined to remain several
|
||
months in this wonderful and celebrated city. Clerval desired the
|
||
intercourse of the men of genius and talent who flourished at this time;
|
||
but this was with me a secondary object; I was principally occupied with
|
||
the means of obtaining the information necessary for the completion of
|
||
my promise, and quickly availed myself of the letters of introduction
|
||
that I had brought with me, addressed to the most distinguished natural
|
||
philosophers.
|
||
|
||
If this journey had taken place during my days of study and happiness,
|
||
it would have afforded me inexpressible pleasure. But a blight had come
|
||
over my existence, and I only visited these people for the sake of the
|
||
information they might give me on the subject in which my interest was
|
||
so terribly profound. Company was irksome to me; when alone, I could
|
||
fill my mind with the sights of heaven and earth; the voice of Henry
|
||
soothed me, and I could thus cheat myself into a transitory peace. But
|
||
busy uninteresting joyous faces brought back despair to my heart. I saw
|
||
an insurmountable barrier placed between me and my fellow-men; this
|
||
barrier was sealed with the blood of William and Justine; and to reflect
|
||
on the events connected with those names filled my soul with anguish.
|
||
|
||
But in Clerval I saw the image of my former self; he was inquisitive,
|
||
and anxious to gain experience and instruction. The difference of
|
||
manners which he observed was to him an inexhaustible source of
|
||
instruction and amusement. He was for ever busy; and the only check to
|
||
his enjoyments was my sorrowful and dejected mien. I tried to conceal
|
||
this as much as possible, that I might not debar him from the pleasures
|
||
natural to one who was entering on a new scene of life, undisturbed by
|
||
any care or bitter recollection. I often refused to accompany him,
|
||
alleging another engagement, that I might remain alone. I now also began
|
||
to collect the materials necessary for my new creation, and this was to
|
||
me like the torture of single drops of water continually falling on the
|
||
head. Every thought that was devoted to it was an extreme anguish, and
|
||
every word that I spoke in allusion to it caused my lips to quiver, and
|
||
my heart to palpitate.
|
||
|
||
After passing some months in London, we received a letter from a person
|
||
in Scotland, who had formerly been our visitor at Geneva. He mentioned
|
||
the beauties of his native country, and asked us if those were not
|
||
sufficient allurements to induce us to prolong our journey as far north
|
||
as Perth, where he resided. Clerval eagerly desired to accept this
|
||
invitation; and I, although I abhorred society, wished to view again
|
||
mountains and streams, and all the wondrous works with which Nature
|
||
adorns her chosen dwelling-places.
|
||
|
||
We had arrived in England at the beginning of October, and it was now
|
||
February. We accordingly determined to commence our journey towards the
|
||
north at the expiration of another month. In this expedition we did not
|
||
intend to follow the great road to Edinburgh, but to visit Windsor,
|
||
Oxford, Matlock, and the Cumberland lakes, resolving to arrive at the
|
||
completion of this tour about the end of July. I packed my chemical
|
||
instruments, and the materials I had collected, resolving to finish my
|
||
labours in some obscure nook in the northern highlands of Scotland.
|
||
|
||
We quitted London on the 27th of March, and remained a few days at
|
||
Windsor, rambling in its beautiful forest. This was a new scene to us
|
||
mountaineers; the majestic oaks, the quantity of game, and the herds of
|
||
stately deer, were all novelties to us.
|
||
|
||
From thence we proceeded to Oxford. As we entered this city, our minds
|
||
were filled with the remembrance of the events that had been transacted
|
||
there more than a century and a half before. It was here that Charles I.
|
||
had collected his forces. This city had remained faithful to him, after
|
||
the whole nation had forsaken his cause to join the standard of
|
||
parliament and liberty. The memory of that unfortunate king, and his
|
||
companions, the amiable Falkland, the insolent Gower, his queen, and
|
||
son, gave a peculiar interest to every part of the city, which they
|
||
might be supposed to have inhabited. The spirit of elder days found a
|
||
dwelling here, and we delighted to trace its footsteps. If these
|
||
feelings had not found an imaginary gratification, the appearance of the
|
||
city had yet in itself sufficient beauty to obtain our admiration. The
|
||
colleges are ancient and picturesque; the streets are almost
|
||
magnificent; and the lovely Isis, which flows beside it through meadows
|
||
of exquisite verdure, is spread forth into a placid expanse of waters,
|
||
which reflects its majestic assemblage of towers, and spires, and domes,
|
||
embosomed among aged trees.
|
||
|
||
I enjoyed this scene; and yet my enjoyment was embittered both by the
|
||
memory of the past, and the anticipation of the future. I was formed for
|
||
peaceful happiness. During my youthful days discontent never visited my
|
||
mind; and if I was ever overcome by _ennui_, the sight of what is
|
||
beautiful in nature, or the study of what is excellent and sublime in
|
||
the productions of man, could always interest my heart, and communicate
|
||
elasticity to my spirits. But I am a blasted tree; the bolt has entered
|
||
my soul; and I felt then that I should survive to exhibit, what I shall
|
||
soon cease to be—a miserable spectacle of wrecked humanity, pitiable to
|
||
others, and abhorrent to myself.
|
||
|
||
We passed a considerable period at Oxford, rambling among its environs,
|
||
and endeavouring to identify every spot which might relate to the most
|
||
animating epoch of English history. Our little voyages of discovery were
|
||
often prolonged by the successive objects that presented themselves. We
|
||
visited the tomb of the illustrious Hampden, and the field on which that
|
||
patriot fell. For a moment my soul was elevated from its debasing and
|
||
miserable fears to contemplate the divine ideas of liberty and
|
||
self-sacrifice, of which these sights were the monuments and the
|
||
remembrancers. For an instant I dared to shake off my chains, and look
|
||
around me with a free and lofty spirit; but the iron had eaten into my
|
||
flesh, and I sank again, trembling and hopeless, into my miserable self.
|
||
|
||
We left Oxford with regret, and proceeded to Matlock, which was our next
|
||
place of rest. The country in the neighbourhood of this village
|
||
resembled, to a greater degree, the scenery of Switzerland; but every
|
||
thing is on a lower scale, and the green hills want the crown of distant
|
||
white Alps, which always attend on the piny mountains of my native
|
||
country. We visited the wondrous cave, and the little cabinets of
|
||
natural history, where the curiosities are disposed in the same manner
|
||
as in the collections at Servox and Chamounix. The latter name made me
|
||
tremble, when pronounced by Henry; and I hastened to quit Matlock, with
|
||
which that terrible scene was thus associated.
|
||
|
||
From Derby still journeying northward, we passed two months in
|
||
Cumberland and Westmoreland. I could now almost fancy myself among the
|
||
Swiss mountains. The little patches of snow which yet lingered on the
|
||
northern sides of the mountains, the lakes, and the dashing of the rocky
|
||
streams, were all familiar and dear sights to me. Here also we made some
|
||
acquaintances, who almost contrived to cheat me into happiness. The
|
||
delight of Clerval was proportionably greater than mine; his mind
|
||
expanded in the company of men of talent, and he found in his own nature
|
||
greater capacities and resources than he could have imagined himself to
|
||
have possessed while he associated with his inferiors. “I could pass my
|
||
life here,” said he to me; “and among these mountains I should scarcely
|
||
regret Switzerland and the Rhine.”
|
||
|
||
But he found that a traveller’s life is one that includes much pain
|
||
amidst its enjoyments. His feelings are for ever on the stretch; and
|
||
when he begins to sink into repose, he finds himself obliged to quit
|
||
that on which he rests in pleasure for something new, which again
|
||
engages his attention, and which also he forsakes for other novelties.
|
||
|
||
We had scarcely visited the various lakes of Cumberland and
|
||
Westmoreland, and conceived an affection for some of the inhabitants,
|
||
when the period of our appointment with our Scotch friend approached,
|
||
and we left them to travel on. For my own part I was not sorry. I had
|
||
now neglected my promise for some time, and I feared the effects of the
|
||
dæmon’s disappointment. He might remain in Switzerland, and wreak his
|
||
vengeance on my relatives. This idea pursued me, and tormented me at
|
||
every moment from which I might otherwise have snatched repose and
|
||
peace. I waited for my letters with feverish impatience: if they were
|
||
delayed, I was miserable, and overcome by a thousand fears; and when
|
||
they arrived, and I saw the superscription of Elizabeth or my father, I
|
||
hardly dared to read and ascertain my fate. Sometimes I thought that the
|
||
fiend followed me, and might expedite my remissness by murdering my
|
||
companion. When these thoughts possessed me, I would not quit Henry for
|
||
a moment, but followed him as his shadow, to protect him from the
|
||
fancied rage of his destroyer. I felt as if I had committed some great
|
||
crime, the consciousness of which haunted me. I was guiltless, but I had
|
||
indeed drawn down a horrible curse upon my head, as mortal as that of
|
||
crime.
|
||
|
||
I visited Edinburgh with languid eyes and mind; and yet that city might
|
||
have interested the most unfortunate being. Clerval did not like it so
|
||
well as Oxford; for the antiquity of the latter city was more pleasing
|
||
to him. But the beauty and regularity of the new town of Edinburgh, its
|
||
romantic castle, and its environs, the most delightful in the world,
|
||
Arthur’s Seat, St. Bernard’s Well, and the Pentland Hills, compensated
|
||
him for the change, and filled him with cheerfulness and admiration. But
|
||
I was impatient to arrive at the termination of my journey.
|
||
|
||
We left Edinburgh in a week, passing through Coupar, St. Andrews, and
|
||
along the banks of the Tay, to Perth, where our friend expected us. But
|
||
I was in no mood to laugh and talk with strangers, or enter into their
|
||
feelings or plans with the good humour expected from a guest; and
|
||
accordingly I told Clerval that I wished to make the tour of Scotland
|
||
alone. “Do you,” said I, “enjoy yourself, and let this be our
|
||
rendezvous. I may be absent a month or two; but do not interfere with my
|
||
motions, I entreat you: leave me to peace and solitude for a short time;
|
||
and when I return, I hope it will be with a lighter heart, more
|
||
congenial to your own temper.”
|
||
|
||
Henry wished to dissuade me; but, seeing me bent on this plan, ceased to
|
||
remonstrate. He entreated me to write often. “I had rather be with you,”
|
||
he said, “in your solitary rambles, than with these Scotch people, whom
|
||
I do not know: hasten then, my dear friend, to return, that I may again
|
||
feel myself somewhat at home, which I cannot do in your absence.”
|
||
|
||
Having parted from my friend, I determined to visit some remote spot of
|
||
Scotland, and finish my work in solitude. I did not doubt but that the
|
||
monster followed me, and would discover himself to me when I should have
|
||
finished, that he might receive his companion.
|
||
|
||
With this resolution I traversed the northern highlands, and fixed on
|
||
one of the remotest of the Orkneys as the scene labours. It was a place
|
||
fitted for such a work, being hardly more than a rock, whose high sides
|
||
were continually beaten upon by the waves. The soil was barren, scarcely
|
||
affording pasture for a few miserable cows, and oatmeal for its
|
||
inhabitants, which consisted of five persons, whose gaunt and scraggy
|
||
limbs gave tokens of their miserable fare. Vegetables and bread, when
|
||
they indulged in such luxuries, and even fresh water, was to be procured
|
||
from the main land, which was about five miles distant.
|
||
|
||
On the whole island there were but three miserable huts, and one of
|
||
these was vacant when I arrived. This I hired. It contained but two
|
||
rooms, and these exhibited all the squalidness of the most miserable
|
||
penury. The thatch had fallen in, the walls were unplastered, and the
|
||
door was off its hinges. I ordered it to be repaired, bought some
|
||
furniture, and took possession; an incident which would, doubtless, have
|
||
occasioned some surprise, had not all the senses of the cottagers been
|
||
benumbed by want and squalid poverty. As it was, I lived ungazed at and
|
||
unmolested, hardly thanked for the pittance of food and clothes which I
|
||
gave; so much does suffering blunt even the coarsest sensations of men.
|
||
|
||
In this retreat I devoted the morning to labour; but in the evening,
|
||
when the weather permitted, I walked on the stony beach of the sea, to
|
||
listen to the waves as they roared, and dashed at my feet. It was a
|
||
monotonous, yet ever-changing scene. I thought of Switzerland; it was
|
||
far different from this desolate and appalling landscape. Its hills are
|
||
covered with vines, and its cottages are scattered thickly in the
|
||
plains. Its fair lakes reflect a blue and gentle sky; and, when troubled
|
||
by the winds, their tumult is but as the play of a lively infant, when
|
||
compared to the roarings of the giant ocean.
|
||
|
||
In this manner I distributed my occupations when I first arrived; but,
|
||
as I proceeded in my labour, it became every day more horrible and
|
||
irksome to me. Sometimes I could not prevail on myself to enter my
|
||
laboratory for several days; and at other times I toiled day and night
|
||
in order to complete my work. It was indeed a filthy process in which I
|
||
was engaged. During my first experiment, a kind of enthusiastic frenzy
|
||
had blinded me to the horror of my employment; my mind was intently
|
||
fixed on the sequel of my labour, and my eyes were shut to the horror of
|
||
my proceedings. But now I went to it in cold blood, and my heart often
|
||
sickened at the work of my hands.
|
||
|
||
Thus situated, employed in the most detestable occupation, immersed in a
|
||
solitude where nothing could for an instant call my attention from the
|
||
actual scene in which I was engaged, my spirits became unequal; I grew
|
||
restless and nervous. Every moment I feared to meet my persecutor.
|
||
Sometimes I sat with my eyes fixed on the ground, fearing to raise them
|
||
lest they should encounter the object which I so much dreaded to behold.
|
||
I feared to wander from the sight of my fellow-creatures, lest when
|
||
alone he should come to claim his companion.
|
||
|
||
In the mean time I worked on, and my labour was already considerably
|
||
advanced. I looked towards its completion with a tremulous and eager
|
||
hope, which I dared not trust myself to question, but which was
|
||
intermixed with obscure forebodings of evil, that made my heart sicken
|
||
in my bosom.
|
||
|
||
|
||
|
||
|
||
CHAPTER III.
|
||
|
||
|
||
I sat one evening in my laboratory; the sun had set, and the moon was
|
||
just rising from the sea; I had not sufficient light for my employment,
|
||
and I remained idle, in a pause of consideration of whether I should
|
||
leave my labour for the night, or hasten its conclusion by an
|
||
unremitting attention to it. As I sat, a train of reflection occurred to
|
||
me, which led me to consider the effects of what I was now doing. Three
|
||
years before I was engaged in the same manner, and had created a fiend
|
||
whose unparalleled barbarity had desolated my heart, and filled it for
|
||
ever with the bitterest remorse. I was now about to form another being,
|
||
of whose dispositions I was alike ignorant; she might become ten
|
||
thousand times more malignant than her mate, and delight, for its own
|
||
sake, in murder and wretchedness. He had sworn to quit the neighbourhood
|
||
of man, and hide himself in deserts; but she had not; and she, who in
|
||
all probability was to become a thinking and reasoning animal, might
|
||
refuse to comply with a compact made before her creation. They might
|
||
even hate each other; the creature who already lived loathed his own
|
||
deformity, and might he not conceive a greater abhorrence for it when it
|
||
came before his eyes in the female form? She also might turn with
|
||
disgust from him to the superior beauty of man; she might quit him, and
|
||
he be again alone, exasperated by the fresh provocation of being
|
||
deserted by one of his own species.
|
||
|
||
Even if they were to leave Europe, and inhabit the deserts of the new
|
||
world, yet one of the first results of those sympathies for which the
|
||
dæmon thirsted would be children, and a race of devils would be
|
||
propagated upon the earth, who might make the very existence of the
|
||
species of man a condition precarious and full of terror. Had I a right,
|
||
for my own benefit, to inflict this curse upon everlasting generations?
|
||
I had before been moved by the sophisms of the being I had created; I
|
||
had been struck senseless by his fiendish threats: but now, for the
|
||
first time, the wickedness of my promise burst upon me; I shuddered to
|
||
think that future ages might curse me as their pest, whose selfishness
|
||
had not hesitated to buy its own peace at the price perhaps of the
|
||
existence of the whole human race.
|
||
|
||
I trembled, and my heart failed within me; when, on looking up, I saw,
|
||
by the light of the moon, the dæmon at the casement. A ghastly grin
|
||
wrinkled his lips as he gazed on me, where I sat fulfilling the task
|
||
which he had allotted to me. Yes, he had followed me in my travels; he
|
||
had loitered in forests, hid himself in caves, or taken refuge in wide
|
||
and desert heaths; and he now came to mark my progress, and claim the
|
||
fulfilment of my promise.
|
||
|
||
As I looked on him, his countenance expressed the utmost extent of
|
||
malice and treachery. I thought with a sensation of madness on my
|
||
promise of creating another like to him, and, trembling with passion,
|
||
tore to pieces the thing on which I was engaged. The wretch saw me
|
||
destroy the creature on whose future existence he depended for
|
||
happiness, and, with a howl of devilish despair and revenge, withdrew.
|
||
|
||
I left the room, and, locking the door, made a solemn vow in my own
|
||
heart never to resume my labours; and then, with trembling steps, I
|
||
sought my own apartment. I was alone; none were near me to dissipate the
|
||
gloom, and relieve me from the sickening oppression of the most terrible
|
||
reveries.
|
||
|
||
Several hours past, and I remained near my window gazing on the sea; it
|
||
was almost motionless, for the winds were hushed, and all nature reposed
|
||
under the eye of the quiet moon. A few fishing vessels alone specked the
|
||
water, and now and then the gentle breeze wafted the sound of voices, as
|
||
the fishermen called to one another. I felt the silence, although I was
|
||
hardly conscious of its extreme profundity until my ear was suddenly
|
||
arrested by the paddling of oars near the shore, and a person landed
|
||
close to my house.
|
||
|
||
In a few minutes after, I heard the creaking of my door, as if some one
|
||
endeavoured to open it softly. I trembled from head to foot; I felt a
|
||
presentiment of who it was, and wished to rouse one of the peasants who
|
||
dwelt in a cottage not far from mine; but I was overcome by the
|
||
sensation of helplessness, so often felt in frightful dreams, when you
|
||
in vain endeavour to fly from an impending danger, and was rooted to the
|
||
spot.
|
||
|
||
Presently I heard the sound of footsteps along the passage; the door
|
||
opened, and the wretch whom I dreaded appeared. Shutting the door, he
|
||
approached me, and said, in a smothered voice—
|
||
|
||
“You have destroyed the work which you began; what is it that you
|
||
intend? Do you dare to break your promise? I have endured toil and
|
||
misery: I left Switzerland with you; I crept along the shores of the
|
||
Rhine, among its willow islands, and over the summits of its hills. I
|
||
have dwelt many months in the heaths of England, and among the deserts
|
||
of Scotland. I have endured incalculable fatigue, and cold, and hunger;
|
||
do you dare destroy my hopes?”
|
||
|
||
“Begone! I do break my promise; never will I create another like
|
||
yourself, equal in deformity and wickedness.”
|
||
|
||
“Slave, I before reasoned with you, but you have proved yourself
|
||
unworthy of my condescension. Remember that I have power; you believe
|
||
yourself miserable, but I can make you so wretched that the light of day
|
||
will be hateful to you. You are my creator, but I am your
|
||
master;—obey!”
|
||
|
||
“The hour of my weakness is past, and the period of your power is
|
||
arrived. Your threats cannot move me to do an act of wickedness; but
|
||
they confirm me in a resolution of not creating you a companion in vice.
|
||
Shall I, in cool blood, set loose upon the earth a dæmon, whose delight
|
||
is in death and wretchedness. Begone! I am firm, and your words will
|
||
only exasperate my rage.”
|
||
|
||
The monster saw my determination in my face, and gnashed his teeth in
|
||
the impotence of anger. “Shall each man,” cried he, “find a wife for his
|
||
bosom, and each beast have his mate, and I be alone? I had feelings of
|
||
affection, and they were requited by detestation and scorn. Man, you may
|
||
hate; but beware! Your hours will pass in dread and misery, and soon the
|
||
bolt will fall which must ravish from you your happiness for ever. Are
|
||
you to be happy, while I grovel in the intensity of my wretchedness? You
|
||
can blast my other passions; but revenge remains—revenge, henceforth
|
||
dearer than light or food! I may die; but first you, my tyrant and
|
||
tormentor, shall curse the sun that gazes on your misery. Beware; for I
|
||
am fearless, and therefore powerful. I will watch with the wiliness of a
|
||
snake, that I may sting with its venom. Man, you shall repent of the
|
||
injuries you inflict.”
|
||
|
||
“Devil, cease; and do not poison the air with these sounds of malice. I
|
||
have declared my resolution to you, and I am no coward to bend beneath
|
||
words. Leave me; I am inexorable.”
|
||
|
||
“It is well. I go; but remember, I shall be with you on your
|
||
wedding-night.”
|
||
|
||
I started forward, and exclaimed, “Villain! before you sign my
|
||
death-warrant, be sure that you are yourself safe.”
|
||
|
||
I would have seized him; but he eluded me, and quitted the house with
|
||
precipitation: in a few moments I saw him in his boat, which shot across
|
||
the waters with an arrowy swiftness, and was soon lost amidst the waves.
|
||
|
||
All was again silent; but his words rung in my ears. I burned with rage
|
||
to pursue the murderer of my peace, and precipitate him into the ocean.
|
||
I walked up and down my room hastily and perturbed, while my imagination
|
||
conjured up a thousand images to torment and sting me. Why had I not
|
||
followed him, and closed with him in mortal strife? But I had suffered
|
||
him to depart, and he had directed his course towards the main land. I
|
||
shuddered to think who might be the next victim sacrificed to his
|
||
insatiate revenge. And then I thought again of his words—“_I will be
|
||
with you on your wedding-night._” That then was the period fixed for the
|
||
fulfilment of my destiny. In that hour I should die, and at once satisfy
|
||
and extinguish his malice. The prospect did not move me to fear; yet
|
||
when I thought of my beloved Elizabeth,—of her tears and endless
|
||
sorrow, when she should find her lover so barbarously snatched from
|
||
her,—tears, the first I had shed for many months, streamed from my
|
||
eyes, and I resolved not to fall before my enemy without a bitter
|
||
struggle.
|
||
|
||
The night passed away, and the sun rose from the ocean; my feelings
|
||
became calmer, if it may be called calmness, when the violence of rage
|
||
sinks into the depths of despair. I left the house, the horrid scene of
|
||
the last night’s contention, and walked on the beach of the sea, which I
|
||
almost regarded as an insuperable barrier between me and my
|
||
fellow-creatures; nay, a wish that such should prove the fact stole
|
||
across me. I desired that I might pass my life on that barren rock,
|
||
wearily it is true, but uninterrupted by any sudden shock of misery. If
|
||
I returned, it was to be sacrificed, or to see those whom I most loved
|
||
die under the grasp of a dæmon whom I had myself created.
|
||
|
||
I walked about the isle like a restless spectre, separated from all it
|
||
loved, and miserable in the separation. When it became noon, and the sun
|
||
rose higher, I lay down on the grass, and was overpowered by a deep
|
||
sleep. I had been awake the whole of the preceding night, my nerves were
|
||
agitated, and my eyes inflamed by watching and misery. The sleep into
|
||
which I now sunk refreshed me; and when I awoke, I again felt as if I
|
||
belonged to a race of human beings like myself, and I began to reflect
|
||
upon what had passed with greater composure; yet still the words of the
|
||
fiend rung in my ears like a death-knell, they appeared like a dream,
|
||
yet distinct and oppressive as a reality.
|
||
|
||
The sun had far descended, and I still sat on the shore, satisfying my
|
||
appetite, which had become ravenous, with an oaten cake, when I saw a
|
||
fishing-boat land close to me, and one of the men brought me a packet;
|
||
it contained letters from Geneva, and one from Clerval, entreating me to
|
||
join him. He said that nearly a year had elapsed since we had quitted
|
||
Switzerland, and France was yet unvisited. He entreated me, therefore,
|
||
to leave my solitary isle, and meet him at Perth, in a week from that
|
||
time, when we might arrange the plan of our future proceedings. This
|
||
letter in a degree recalled me to life, and I determined to quit my
|
||
island at the expiration of two days.
|
||
|
||
Yet, before I departed, there was a task to perform, on which I
|
||
shuddered to reflect: I must pack my chemical instruments; and for that
|
||
purpose I must enter the room which had been the scene of my odious
|
||
work, and I must handle those utensils, the sight of which was sickening
|
||
to me. The next morning, at day-break, I summoned sufficient courage,
|
||
and unlocked the door of my laboratory. The remains of the half-finished
|
||
creature, whom I had destroyed, lay scattered on the floor, and I almost
|
||
felt as if I had mangled the living flesh of a human being. I paused to
|
||
collect myself, and then entered the chamber. With trembling hand I
|
||
conveyed the instruments out of the room; but I reflected that I ought
|
||
not to leave the relics of my work to excite the horror and suspicion of
|
||
the peasants, and I accordingly put them into a basket, with a great
|
||
quantity of stones, and laying them up, determined to throw them into
|
||
the sea that very night; and in the mean time I sat upon the beach,
|
||
employed in cleaning and arranging my chemical apparatus.
|
||
|
||
Nothing could be more complete than the alteration that had taken place
|
||
in my feelings since the night of the appearance of the dæmon. I had
|
||
before regarded my promise with a gloomy despair, as a thing that, with
|
||
whatever consequences, must be fulfilled; but I now felt as if a film
|
||
had been taken from before my eyes, and that I, for the first time, saw
|
||
clearly. The idea of renewing my labours did not for one instant occur
|
||
to me; the threat I had heard weighed on my thoughts, but I did not
|
||
reflect that a voluntary act of mine could avert it. I had resolved in
|
||
my own mind, that to create another like the fiend I had first made
|
||
would be an act of the basest and most atrocious selfishness; and I
|
||
banished from my mind every thought that could lead to a different
|
||
conclusion.
|
||
|
||
Between two and three in the morning the moon rose; and I then, putting
|
||
my basket aboard a little skiff, sailed out about four miles from the
|
||
shore. The scene was perfectly solitary: a few boats were returning
|
||
towards land, but I sailed away from them. I felt as if I was about the
|
||
commission of a dreadful crime, and avoided with shuddering anxiety any
|
||
encounter with my fellow-creatures. At one time the moon, which had
|
||
before been clear, was suddenly overspread by a thick cloud, and I took
|
||
advantage of the moment of darkness, and cast my basket into the sea; I
|
||
listened to the gurgling sound as it sunk, and then sailed away from the
|
||
spot. The sky became clouded; but the air was pure, although chilled by
|
||
the north-east breeze that was then rising. But it refreshed me, and
|
||
filled me with such agreeable sensations, that I resolved to prolong my
|
||
stay on the water, and fixing the rudder in a direct position, stretched
|
||
myself at the bottom of the boat. Clouds hid the moon, every thing was
|
||
obscure, and I heard only the sound of the boat, as its keel cut through
|
||
the waves; the murmur lulled me, and in a short time I slept soundly.
|
||
|
||
I do not know how long I remained in this situation, but when I awoke I
|
||
found that the sun had already mounted considerably. The wind was high,
|
||
and the waves continually threatened the safety of my little skiff. I
|
||
found that the wind was north-east, and must have driven me far from the
|
||
coast from which I had embarked. I endeavoured to change my course, but
|
||
quickly found that if I again made the attempt the boat would be
|
||
instantly filled with water. Thus situated, my only resource was to
|
||
drive before the wind. I confess that I felt a few sensations of terror.
|
||
I had no compass with me, and was so little acquainted with the
|
||
geography of this part of the world that the sun was of little benefit
|
||
to me. I might be driven into the wide Atlantic, and feel all the
|
||
tortures of starvation, or be swallowed up in the immeasurable waters
|
||
that roared and buffeted around me. I had already been out many hours,
|
||
and felt the torment of a burning thirst, a prelude to my other
|
||
sufferings. I looked on the heavens, which were covered by clouds that
|
||
flew before the wind only to be replaced by others: I looked upon the
|
||
sea, it was to be my grave. “Fiend,” I exclaimed, “your task is already
|
||
fulfilled!” I thought of Elizabeth, of my father, and of Clerval; and
|
||
sunk into a reverie, so despairing and frightful, that even now, when
|
||
the scene is on the point of closing before me for ever, I shudder to
|
||
reflect on it.
|
||
|
||
Some hours passed thus; but by degrees, as the sun declined towards the
|
||
horizon, the wind died away into a gentle breeze, and the sea became
|
||
free from breakers. But these gave place to a heavy swell; I felt sick,
|
||
and hardly able to hold the rudder, when suddenly I saw a line of high
|
||
land towards the south.
|
||
|
||
Almost spent, as I was, by fatigue, and the dreadful suspense I endured
|
||
for several hours, this sudden certainty of life rushed like a flood of
|
||
warm joy to my heart, and tears gushed from my eyes.
|
||
|
||
How mutable are our feelings, and how strange is that clinging love we
|
||
have of life even in the excess of misery! I constructed another sail
|
||
with a part of my dress, and eagerly steered my course towards the land.
|
||
It had a wild and rocky appearance; but as I approached nearer, I easily
|
||
perceived the traces of cultivation. I saw vessels near the shore, and
|
||
found myself suddenly transported back to the neighbourhood of civilized
|
||
man. I eagerly traced the windings of the land, and hailed a steeple
|
||
which I at length saw issuing from behind a small promontory. As I was
|
||
in a state of extreme debility, I resolved to sail directly towards the
|
||
town as a place where I could most easily procure nourishment.
|
||
Fortunately I had money with me. As I turned the promontory, I perceived
|
||
a small neat town and a good harbour, which I entered, my heart bounding
|
||
with joy at my unexpected escape.
|
||
|
||
As I was occupied in fixing the boat and arranging the sails, several
|
||
people crowded towards the spot. They seemed very much surprised at my
|
||
appearance; but, instead of offering me any assistance, whispered
|
||
together with gestures that at any other time might have produced in me
|
||
a slight sensation of alarm. As it was, I merely remarked that they
|
||
spoke English; and I therefore addressed them in that language: “My good
|
||
friends,” said I, “will you be so kind as to tell me the name of this
|
||
town, and inform me where I am?”
|
||
|
||
“You will know that soon enough,” replied a man with a gruff voice. “May
|
||
be you are come to a place that will not prove much to your taste; but
|
||
you will not be consulted as to your quarters, I promise you.”
|
||
|
||
I was exceedingly surprised on receiving so rude an answer from a
|
||
stranger; and I was also disconcerted on perceiving the frowning and
|
||
angry countenances of his companions. “Why do you answer me so roughly?”
|
||
I replied: “surely it is not the custom of Englishmen to receive
|
||
strangers so inhospitably.”
|
||
|
||
“I do not know,” said the man, “what the custom of the English may be;
|
||
but it is the custom of the Irish to hate villains.”
|
||
|
||
While this strange dialogue continued, I perceived the crowd rapidly
|
||
increase. Their faces expressed a mixture of curiosity and anger, which
|
||
annoyed, and in some degree alarmed me. I inquired the way to the inn;
|
||
but no one replied. I then moved forward, and a murmuring sound arose
|
||
from the crowd as they followed and surrounded me; when an ill-looking
|
||
man approaching, tapped me on the shoulder, and said, “Come, Sir, you
|
||
must follow me to Mr. Kirwin’s, to give an account of yourself.”
|
||
|
||
“Who is Mr. Kirwin? Why am I to give an account of myself? Is not this a
|
||
free country?”
|
||
|
||
“Aye, Sir, free enough for honest folks. Mr. Kirwin is a magistrate; and
|
||
you are to give an account of the death of a gentleman who was found
|
||
murdered here last night.”
|
||
|
||
This answer startled me; but I presently recovered myself. I was
|
||
innocent; that could easily be proved: accordingly I followed my
|
||
conductor in silence, and was led to one of the best houses in the town.
|
||
I was ready to sink from fatigue and hunger; but, being surrounded by a
|
||
crowd, I thought it politic to rouse all my strength, that no physical
|
||
debility might be construed into apprehension or conscious guilt. Little
|
||
did I then expect the calamity that was in a few moments to overwhelm
|
||
me, and extinguish in horror and despair all fear of ignominy or death.
|
||
|
||
I must pause here; for it requires all my fortitude to recall the memory
|
||
of the frightful events which I am about to relate, in proper detail, to
|
||
my recollection.
|
||
|
||
|
||
|
||
|
||
CHAPTER IV.
|
||
|
||
|
||
I was soon introduced into the presence of the magistrate, an old
|
||
benevolent man, with calm and mild manners. He looked upon me, however,
|
||
with some degree of severity; and then, turning towards my conductors,
|
||
he asked who appeared as witnesses on this occasion.
|
||
|
||
About half a dozen men came forward; and one being selected by the
|
||
magistrate, he deposed, that he had been out fishing the night before
|
||
with his son and brother-in-law, Daniel Nugent, when, about ten o’clock,
|
||
they observed a strong northerly blast rising, and they accordingly put
|
||
in for port. It was a very dark night, as the moon had not yet risen;
|
||
they did not land at the harbour, but, as they had been accustomed, at a
|
||
creek about two miles below. He walked on first, carrying a part of the
|
||
fishing tackle, and his companions followed him at some distance. As he
|
||
was proceeding along the sands, he struck his foot against something,
|
||
and fell all his length on the ground. His companions came up to assist
|
||
him; and, by the light of their lantern, they found that he had fallen
|
||
on the body of a man, who was to all appearance dead. Their first
|
||
supposition was, that it was the corpse of some person who had been
|
||
drowned, and was thrown on shore by the waves; but, upon examination,
|
||
they found that the clothes were not wet, and even that the body was not
|
||
then cold. They instantly carried it to the cottage of an old woman near
|
||
the spot, and endeavoured, but in vain, to restore it to life. He
|
||
appeared to be a handsome young man, about five and twenty years of age.
|
||
He had apparently been strangled; for there was no sign of any violence,
|
||
except the black mark of fingers on his neck.
|
||
|
||
The first part of this deposition did not in the least interest me; but
|
||
when the mark of the fingers was mentioned, I remembered the murder of
|
||
my brother, and felt myself extremely agitated; my limbs trembled, and a
|
||
mist came over my eyes, which obliged me to lean on a chair for support.
|
||
The magistrate observed me with a keen eye, and of course drew an
|
||
unfavourable augury from my manner.
|
||
|
||
The son confirmed his father’s account: but when Daniel Nugent was
|
||
called, he swore positively that, just before the fall of his companion,
|
||
he saw a boat, with a single man in it, at a short distance from the
|
||
shore; and, as far as he could judge by the light of a few stars, it was
|
||
the same boat in which I had just landed.
|
||
|
||
A woman deposed, that she lived near the beach, and was standing at the
|
||
door of her cottage, waiting for the return of the fishermen, about an
|
||
hour before she heard of the discovery of the body, when she saw a boat,
|
||
with only one man in it, push off from that part of the shore where the
|
||
corpse was afterwards found.
|
||
|
||
Another woman confirmed the account of the fishermen having brought the
|
||
body into her house; it was not cold. They put it into a bed, and rubbed
|
||
it; and Daniel went to the town for an apothecary, but life was quite
|
||
gone.
|
||
|
||
Several other men were examined concerning my landing; and they agreed,
|
||
that, with the strong north wind that had arisen during the night, it
|
||
was very probable that I had beaten about for many hours, and had been
|
||
obliged to return nearly to the same spot from which I had departed.
|
||
Besides, they observed that it appeared that I had brought the body from
|
||
another place, and it was likely, that as I did not appear to know the
|
||
shore, I might have put into the harbour ignorant of the distance of the
|
||
town of —— from the place where I had deposited the corpse.
|
||
|
||
Mr. Kirwin, on hearing this evidence, desired that I should be taken
|
||
into the room where the body lay for interment that it might be observed
|
||
what effect the sight of it would produce upon me. This idea was
|
||
probably suggested by the extreme agitation I had exhibited when the
|
||
mode of the murder had been described. I was accordingly conducted, by
|
||
the magistrate and several other persons, to the inn. I could not help
|
||
being struck by the strange coincidences that had taken place during
|
||
this eventful night; but, knowing that I had been conversing with
|
||
several persons in the island I had inhabited about the time that the
|
||
body had been found, I was perfectly tranquil as to the consequences of
|
||
the affair.
|
||
|
||
I entered the room where the corpse lay, and was led up to the coffin.
|
||
How can I describe my sensations on beholding it? I feel yet parched
|
||
with horror, nor can I reflect on that terrible moment without
|
||
shuddering and agony, that faintly reminds me of the anguish of the
|
||
recognition. The trial, the presence of the magistrate and witnesses,
|
||
passed like a dream from my memory, when I saw the lifeless form of
|
||
Henry Clerval stretched before me. I gasped for breath; and, throwing
|
||
myself on the body, I exclaimed, “Have my murderous machinations
|
||
deprived you also, my dearest Henry, of life? Two I have already
|
||
destroyed; other victims await their destiny: but you, Clerval, my
|
||
friend, my benefactor”——
|
||
|
||
The human frame could no longer support the agonizing suffering that I
|
||
endured, and I was carried out of the room in strong convulsions.
|
||
|
||
A fever succeeded to this. I lay for two months on the point of death:
|
||
my ravings, as I afterwards heard, were frightful; I called myself the
|
||
murderer of William, of Justine, and of Clerval. Sometimes I entreated
|
||
my attendants to assist me in the destruction of the fiend by whom I was
|
||
tormented; and, at others, I felt the fingers of the monster already
|
||
grasping my neck, and screamed aloud with agony and terror. Fortunately,
|
||
as I spoke my native language, Mr. Kirwin alone understood me; but my
|
||
gestures and bitter cries were sufficient to affright the other
|
||
witnesses.
|
||
|
||
Why did I not die? More miserable than man ever was before, why did I
|
||
not sink into forgetfulness and rest? Death snatches away many blooming
|
||
children, the only hopes of their doating parents: how many brides and
|
||
youthful lovers have been one day in the bloom of health and hope, and
|
||
the next a prey for worms and the decay of the tomb! Of what materials
|
||
was I made, that I could thus resist so many shocks, which, like the
|
||
turning of the wheel, continually renewed the torture.
|
||
|
||
But I was doomed to live; and, in two months, found myself as awaking
|
||
from a dream, in a prison, stretched on a wretched bed, surrounded by
|
||
gaolers, turnkeys, bolts, and all the miserable apparatus of a dungeon.
|
||
It was morning, I remember, when I thus awoke to understanding: I had
|
||
forgotten the particulars of what had happened, and only felt as if some
|
||
great misfortune had suddenly overwhelmed me; but when I looked around,
|
||
and saw the barred windows, and the squalidness of the room in which I
|
||
was, all flashed across my memory, and I groaned bitterly.
|
||
|
||
This sound disturbed an old woman who was sleeping in a chair beside me.
|
||
She was a hired nurse, the wife of one of the turnkeys, and her
|
||
countenance expressed all those bad qualities which often characterize
|
||
that class. The lines of her face were hard and rude, like that of
|
||
persons accustomed to see without sympathizing in sights of misery. Her
|
||
tone expressed her entire indifference; she addressed me in English, and
|
||
the voice struck me as one that I had heard during my sufferings:
|
||
|
||
“Are you better now, Sir?” said she.
|
||
|
||
I replied in the same language, with a feeble voice, “I believe I am;
|
||
but if it be all true, if indeed I did not dream, I am sorry that I am
|
||
still alive to feel this misery and horror.”
|
||
|
||
“For that matter,” replied the old woman, “if you mean about the
|
||
gentleman you murdered, I believe that it were better for you if you
|
||
were dead, for I fancy it will go hard with you; but you will be hung
|
||
when the next sessions come on. However, that’s none of my business, I
|
||
am sent to nurse you, and get you well; I do my duty with a safe
|
||
conscience, it were well if every body did the same.”
|
||
|
||
I turned with loathing from the woman who could utter so unfeeling a
|
||
speech to a person just saved, on the very edge of death; but I felt
|
||
languid, and unable to reflect on all that had passed. The whole series
|
||
of my life appeared to me as a dream; I sometimes doubted if indeed it
|
||
were all true, for it never presented itself to my mind with the force
|
||
of reality.
|
||
|
||
As the images that floated before me became more distinct, I grew
|
||
feverish; a darkness pressed around me; no one was near me who soothed
|
||
me with the gentle voice of love; no dear hand supported me. The
|
||
physician came and prescribed medicines, and the old woman prepared them
|
||
for me; but utter carelessness was visible in the first, and the
|
||
expression of brutality was strongly marked in the visage of the second.
|
||
Who could be interested in the fate of a murderer, but the hangman who
|
||
would gain his fee?
|
||
|
||
These were my first reflections; but I soon learned that Mr. Kirwin had
|
||
shewn me extreme kindness. He had caused the best room in the prison to
|
||
be prepared for me (wretched indeed was the best); and it was he who had
|
||
provided a physician and a nurse. It is true, he seldom came to see me;
|
||
for, although he ardently desired to relieve the sufferings of every
|
||
human creature, he did not wish to be present at the agonies and
|
||
miserable ravings of a murderer. He came, therefore, sometimes to see
|
||
that I was not neglected; but his visits were short, and at long
|
||
intervals.
|
||
|
||
One day, when I was gradually recovering, I was seated in a chair, my
|
||
eyes half open, and my cheeks livid like those in death, I was overcome
|
||
by gloom and misery, and often reflected I had better seek death than
|
||
remain miserably pent up only to be let loose in a world replete with
|
||
wretchedness. At one time I considered whether I should not declare
|
||
myself guilty, and suffer the penalty of the law, less innocent than
|
||
poor Justine had been. Such were my thoughts, when the door of my
|
||
apartment was opened, and Mr. Kirwin entered. His countenance expressed
|
||
sympathy and compassion; he drew a chair close to mine, and addressed me
|
||
in French—
|
||
|
||
“I fear that this place is very shocking to you; can I do any thing to
|
||
make you more comfortable?”
|
||
|
||
“I thank you; but all that you mention is nothing to me: on the whole
|
||
earth there is no comfort which I am capable of receiving.”
|
||
|
||
“I know that the sympathy of a stranger can be but of little relief to
|
||
one borne down as you are by so strange a misfortune. But you will, I
|
||
hope, soon quit this melancholy abode; for, doubtless, evidence can
|
||
easily be brought to free you from the criminal charge.”
|
||
|
||
“That is my least concern: I am, by a course of strange events, become
|
||
the most miserable of mortals. Persecuted and tortured as I am and have
|
||
been, can death be any evil to me?”
|
||
|
||
“Nothing indeed could be more unfortunate and agonizing than the strange
|
||
chances that have lately occurred. You were thrown, by some surprising
|
||
accident, on this shore, renowned for its hospitality: seized
|
||
immediately, and charged with murder. The first sight that was presented
|
||
to your eyes was the body of your friend, murdered in so unaccountable a
|
||
manner, and placed, as it were, by some fiend across your path.”
|
||
|
||
As Mr. Kirwin said this, notwithstanding the agitation I endured on this
|
||
retrospect of my sufferings, I also felt considerable surprise at the
|
||
knowledge he seemed to possess concerning me. I suppose some
|
||
astonishment was exhibited in my countenance; for Mr. Kirwin hastened to
|
||
say—
|
||
|
||
“It was not until a day or two after your illness that I thought of
|
||
examining your dress, that I might discover some trace by which I could
|
||
send to your relations an account of your misfortune and illness. I
|
||
found several letters, and, among others, one which I discovered from
|
||
its commencement to be from your father. I instantly wrote to Geneva:
|
||
nearly two months have elapsed since the departure of my letter.—But
|
||
you are ill; even now you tremble: you are unfit for agitation of any
|
||
kind.”
|
||
|
||
“This suspense is a thousand times worse than the most horrible event:
|
||
tell me what new scene of death has been acted, and whose murder I am
|
||
now to lament.”
|
||
|
||
“Your family is perfectly well,” said Mr. Kirwin, with gentleness; “and
|
||
some one, a friend, is come to visit you.”
|
||
|
||
I know not by what chain of thought the idea presented itself, but it
|
||
instantly darted into my mind that the murderer had come to mock at my
|
||
misery, and taunt me with the death of Clerval, as a new incitement for
|
||
me to comply with his hellish desires. I put my hand before my eyes, and
|
||
cried out in agony—
|
||
|
||
“Oh! take him away! I cannot see him; for God’s sake, do not let him
|
||
enter!”
|
||
|
||
Mr. Kirwin regarded me with a troubled countenance. He could not help
|
||
regarding my exclamation as a presumption of my guilt, and said, in
|
||
rather a severe tone—
|
||
|
||
“I should have thought, young man, that the presence of your father
|
||
would have been welcome, instead of inspiring such violent repugnance.”
|
||
|
||
“My father!” cried I, while every feature and every muscle was relaxed
|
||
from anguish to pleasure. “Is my father, indeed, come? How kind, how
|
||
very kind. But where is he, why does he not hasten to me?”
|
||
|
||
My change of manner surprised and pleased the magistrate; perhaps he
|
||
thought that my former exclamation was a momentary return of delirium,
|
||
and now he instantly resumed his former benevolence. He rose, and
|
||
quitted the room with my nurse, and in a moment my father entered it.
|
||
|
||
Nothing, at this moment, could have given me greater pleasure than the
|
||
arrival of my father. I stretched out my hand to him, and cried—
|
||
|
||
“Are you then safe—and Elizabeth—and Ernest?”
|
||
|
||
My father calmed me with assurances of their welfare, and endeavoured,
|
||
by dwelling on these subjects so interesting to my heart, to raise my
|
||
desponding spirits; but he soon felt that a prison cannot be the abode
|
||
of cheerfulness. “What a place is this that you inhabit, my son!” said
|
||
he, looking mournfully at the barred windows, and wretched appearance of
|
||
the room. “You travelled to seek happiness, but a fatality seems to
|
||
pursue you. And poor Clerval—”
|
||
|
||
The name of my unfortunate and murdered friend was an agitation too
|
||
great to be endured in my weak state; I shed tears.
|
||
|
||
“Alas! yes, my father,” replied I; “some destiny of the most horrible
|
||
kind hangs over me, and I must live to fulfil it, or surely I should
|
||
have died on the coffin of Henry.”
|
||
|
||
We were not allowed to converse for any length of time, for the
|
||
precarious state of my health rendered every precaution necessary that
|
||
could insure tranquillity. Mr. Kirwin came in, and insisted that my
|
||
strength should not be exhausted by too much exertion. But the
|
||
appearance of my father was to me like that of my good angel, and I
|
||
gradually recovered my health.
|
||
|
||
As my sickness quitted me, I was absorbed by a gloomy and black
|
||
melancholy, that nothing could dissipate. The image of Clerval was for
|
||
ever before me, ghastly and murdered. More than once the agitation into
|
||
which these reflections threw me made my friends dread a dangerous
|
||
relapse. Alas! why did they preserve so miserable and detested a life?
|
||
It was surely that I might fulfil my destiny, which is now drawing to a
|
||
close. Soon, oh, very soon, will death extinguish these throbbings, and
|
||
relieve me from the mighty weight of anguish that bears me to the dust;
|
||
and, in executing the award of justice, I shall also sink to rest. Then
|
||
the appearance of death was distant, although the wish was ever present
|
||
to my thoughts; and I often sat for hours motionless and speechless,
|
||
wishing for some mighty revolution that might bury me and my destroyer
|
||
in its ruins.
|
||
|
||
The season of the assizes approached. I had already been three months
|
||
in prison; and although I was still weak, and in continual danger of a
|
||
relapse, I was obliged to travel nearly a hundred miles to the
|
||
county-town, where the court was held. Mr. Kirwin charged himself with
|
||
every care of collecting witnesses, and arranging my defence. I was
|
||
spared the disgrace of appearing publicly as a criminal, as the case was
|
||
not brought before the court that decides on life and death. The grand
|
||
jury rejected the bill, on its being proved that I was on the Orkney
|
||
Islands at the hour the body of my friend was found, and a fortnight
|
||
after my removal I was liberated from prison.
|
||
|
||
My father was enraptured on finding me freed from the vexations of a
|
||
criminal charge, that I was again allowed to breathe the fresh
|
||
atmosphere, and allowed to return to my native country. I did not
|
||
participate in these feelings; for to me the walls of a dungeon or a
|
||
palace were alike hateful. The cup of life was poisoned for ever; and
|
||
although the sun shone upon me, as upon the happy and gay of heart, I
|
||
saw around me nothing but a dense and frightful darkness, penetrated by
|
||
no light but the glimmer of two eyes that glared upon me. Sometimes they
|
||
were the expressive eyes of Henry, languishing in death, the dark orbs
|
||
nearly covered by the lids, and the long black lashes that fringed them;
|
||
sometimes it was the watery clouded eyes of the monster, as I first saw
|
||
them in my chamber at Ingolstadt.
|
||
|
||
My father tried to awaken in me the feelings of affection. He talked of
|
||
Geneva, which I should soon visit—of Elizabeth, and Ernest; but these
|
||
words only drew deep groans from me. Sometimes, indeed, I felt a wish
|
||
for happiness; and thought, with melancholy delight, of my beloved
|
||
cousin; or longed, with a devouring _maladie du pays_, to see once more
|
||
the blue lake and rapid Rhone, that had been so dear to me in early
|
||
childhood: but my general state of feeling was a torpor, in which a
|
||
prison was as welcome a residence as the divinest scene in nature; and
|
||
these fits were seldom interrupted, but by paroxysms of anguish and
|
||
despair. At these moments I often endeavoured to put an end to the
|
||
existence I loathed; and it required unceasing attendance and vigilance
|
||
to restrain me from committing some dreadful act of violence.
|
||
|
||
I remember, as I quitted the prison, I heard one of the men say, “He may
|
||
be innocent of the murder, but he has certainly a bad conscience.” These
|
||
words struck me. A bad conscience! yes, surely I had one. William,
|
||
Justine, and Clerval, had died through my infernal machinations; “And
|
||
whose death,” cried I, “is to finish the tragedy? Ah! my father, do not
|
||
remain in this wretched country; take me where I may forget myself, my
|
||
existence, and all the world.”
|
||
|
||
My father easily acceded to my desire; and, after having taken leave of
|
||
Mr. Kirwin, we hastened to Dublin. I felt as if I was relieved from a
|
||
heavy weight, when the packet sailed with a fair wind from Ireland, and
|
||
I had quitted for ever the country which had been to me the scene of so
|
||
much misery.
|
||
|
||
It was midnight. My father slept in the cabin; and I lay on the deck,
|
||
looking at the stars, and listening to the dashing of the waves. I
|
||
hailed the darkness that shut Ireland from my sight, and my pulse beat
|
||
with a feverish joy, when I reflected that I should soon see Geneva. The
|
||
past appeared to me in the light of a frightful dream; yet the vessel in
|
||
which I was, the wind that blew me from the detested shore of Ireland,
|
||
and the sea which surrounded me, told me too forcibly that I was
|
||
deceived by no vision, and that Clerval, my friend and dearest
|
||
companion, had fallen a victim to me and the monster of my creation. I
|
||
repassed, in my memory, my whole life; my quiet happiness while residing
|
||
with my family in Geneva, the death of my mother, and my departure for
|
||
Ingolstadt. I remembered shuddering at the mad enthusiasm that hurried
|
||
me on to the creation of my hideous enemy, and I called to mind the
|
||
night during which he first lived. I was unable to pursue the train of
|
||
thought; a thousand feelings pressed upon me, and I wept bitterly.
|
||
|
||
Ever since my recovery from the fever I had been in the custom of taking
|
||
every night a small quantity of laudanum; for it was by means of this
|
||
drug only that I was enabled to gain the rest necessary for the
|
||
preservation of life. Oppressed by the recollection of my various
|
||
misfortunes, I now took a double dose, and soon slept profoundly. But
|
||
sleep did not afford me respite from thought and misery; my dreams
|
||
presented a thousand objects that scared me. Towards morning I was
|
||
possessed by a kind of night-mare; I felt the fiend’s grasp in my neck,
|
||
and could not free myself from it; groans and cries rung in my ears. My
|
||
father, who was watching over me, perceiving my restlessness, awoke me,
|
||
and pointed to the port of Holyhead, which we were now entering.
|
||
|
||
|
||
|
||
|
||
CHAPTER V.
|
||
|
||
|
||
We had resolved not to go to London, but to cross the country to
|
||
Portsmouth, and thence to embark for Havre. I preferred this plan
|
||
principally because I dreaded to see again those places in which I had
|
||
enjoyed a few moments of tranquillity with my beloved Clerval. I thought
|
||
with horror of seeing again those persons whom we had been accustomed to
|
||
visit together, and who might make inquiries concerning an event, the
|
||
very remembrance of which made me again feel the pang I endured when I
|
||
gazed on his lifeless form in the inn at ——.
|
||
|
||
As for my father, his desires and exertions were bounded to the again
|
||
seeing me restored to health and peace of mind. His tenderness and
|
||
attentions were unremitting; my grief and gloom was obstinate, but he
|
||
would not despair. Sometimes he thought that I felt deeply the
|
||
degradation of being obliged to answer a charge of murder, and he
|
||
endeavoured to prove to me the futility of pride.
|
||
|
||
“Alas! my father,” said I, “how little do you know me. Human beings,
|
||
their feelings and passions, would indeed be degraded, if such a wretch
|
||
as I felt pride. Justine, poor unhappy Justine, was as innocent as I,
|
||
and she suffered the same charge; she died for it; and I am the cause
|
||
of this—I murdered her. William, Justine, and Henry—they all died by
|
||
my hands.”
|
||
|
||
My father had often, during my imprisonment, heard me make the same
|
||
assertion; when I thus accused myself, he sometimes seemed to desire an
|
||
explanation, and at others he appeared to consider it as caused by
|
||
delirium, and that, during my illness, some idea of this kind had
|
||
presented itself to my imagination, the remembrance of which I preserved
|
||
in my convalescence. I avoided explanation, and maintained a continual
|
||
silence concerning the wretch I had created. I had a feeling that I
|
||
should be supposed mad, and this for ever chained my tongue, when I
|
||
would have given the whole world to have confided the fatal secret.
|
||
|
||
Upon this occasion my father said, with an expression of unbounded
|
||
wonder, “What do you mean, Victor? are you mad? My dear son, I entreat
|
||
you never to make such an assertion again.”
|
||
|
||
“I am not mad,” I cried energetically; “the sun and the heavens, who
|
||
have viewed my operations, can bear witness of my truth. I am the
|
||
assassin of those most innocent victims; they died by my machinations. A
|
||
thousand times would I have shed my own blood, drop by drop, to have
|
||
saved their lives; but I could not, my father, indeed I could not
|
||
sacrifice the whole human race.”
|
||
|
||
The conclusion of this speech convinced my father that my ideas were
|
||
deranged, and he instantly changed the subject of our conversation, and
|
||
endeavoured to alter the course of my thoughts. He wished as much as
|
||
possible to obliterate the memory of the scenes that had taken place in
|
||
Ireland, and never alluded to them, or suffered me to speak of my
|
||
misfortunes.
|
||
|
||
As time passed away I became more calm: misery had her dwelling in my
|
||
heart, but I no longer talked in the same incoherent manner of my own
|
||
crimes; sufficient for me was the consciousness of them. By the utmost
|
||
self-violence, I curbed the imperious voice of wretchedness, which
|
||
sometimes desired to declare itself to the whole world; and my manners
|
||
were calmer and more composed than they had ever been since my journey
|
||
to the sea of ice.
|
||
|
||
We arrived at Havre on the 8th of May, and instantly proceeded to Paris,
|
||
where my father had some business which detained us a few weeks. In this
|
||
city, I received the following letter from Elizabeth:—
|
||
|
||
* * * * *
|
||
|
||
“_To_ VICTOR FRANKENSTEIN.
|
||
|
||
“MY DEAREST FRIEND,
|
||
|
||
“It gave me the greatest pleasure to receive a letter from my uncle
|
||
dated at Paris; you are no longer at a formidable distance, and I may
|
||
hope to see you in less than a fortnight. My poor cousin, how much you
|
||
must have suffered! I expect to see you looking even more ill than when
|
||
you quitted Geneva. This winter has been passed most miserably, tortured
|
||
as I have been by anxious suspense; yet I hope to see peace in your
|
||
countenance, and to find that your heart is not totally devoid of
|
||
comfort and tranquillity.
|
||
|
||
“Yet I fear that the same feelings now exist that made you so miserable
|
||
a year ago, even perhaps augmented by time. I would not disturb you at
|
||
this period, when so many misfortunes weigh upon you; but a conversation
|
||
that I had with my uncle previous to his departure renders some
|
||
explanation necessary before we meet.
|
||
|
||
“Explanation! you may possibly say; what can Elizabeth have to explain?
|
||
If you really say this, my questions are answered, and I have no more to
|
||
do than to sign myself your affectionate cousin. But you are distant
|
||
from me, and it is possible that you may dread, and yet be pleased with
|
||
this explanation; and, in a probability of this being the case, I dare
|
||
not any longer postpone writing what, during your absence, I have often
|
||
wished to express to you, but have never had the courage to begin.
|
||
|
||
“You well know, Victor, that our union had been the favourite plan of
|
||
your parents ever since our infancy. We were told this when young, and
|
||
taught to look forward to it as an event that would certainly take
|
||
place. We were affectionate playfellows during childhood, and, I
|
||
believe, dear and valued friends to one another as we grew older. But as
|
||
brother and sister often entertain a lively affection towards each
|
||
other, without desiring a more intimate union, may not such also be our
|
||
case? Tell me, dearest Victor. Answer me, I conjure you, by our mutual
|
||
happiness, with simple truth—Do you not love another?
|
||
|
||
“You have travelled; you have spent several years of your life at
|
||
Ingolstadt; and I confess to you, my friend, that when I saw you last
|
||
autumn so unhappy, flying to solitude, from the society of every
|
||
creature, I could not help supposing that you might regret our
|
||
connexion, and believe yourself bound in honour to fulfil the wishes of
|
||
your parents, although they opposed themselves to your inclinations. But
|
||
this is false reasoning. I confess to you, my cousin, that I love you,
|
||
and that in my airy dreams of futurity you have been my constant friend
|
||
and companion. But it is your happiness I desire as well as my own, when
|
||
I declare to you, that our marriage would render me eternally miserable,
|
||
unless it were the dictate of your own free choice. Even now I weep to
|
||
think, that, borne down as you are by the cruelest misfortunes, you may
|
||
stifle, by the word _honour_, all hope of that love and happiness which
|
||
would alone restore you to yourself. I, who have so interested an
|
||
affection for you, may increase your miseries ten-fold, by being an
|
||
obstacle to your wishes. Ah, Victor, be assured that your cousin and
|
||
playmate has too sincere a love for you not to be made miserable by this
|
||
supposition. Be happy, my friend; and if you obey me in this one
|
||
request, remain satisfied that nothing on earth will have the power to
|
||
interrupt my tranquillity.
|
||
|
||
“Do not let this letter disturb you; do not answer it to-morrow, or the
|
||
next day, or even until you come, if it will give you pain. My uncle
|
||
will send me news of your health; and if I see but one smile on your
|
||
lips when we meet, occasioned by this or any other exertion of mine, I
|
||
shall need no other happiness.
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||
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“ELIZABETH LAVENZA.
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||
|
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“Geneva, May 18th, 17—.”
|
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* * * * *
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This letter revived in my memory what I had before forgotten, the threat
|
||
of the fiend—“_I will be with you on your wedding-night!_” Such was my
|
||
sentence, and on that night would the dæmon employ every art to destroy
|
||
me, and tear me from the glimpse of happiness which promised partly to
|
||
console my sufferings. On that night he had determined to consummate his
|
||
crimes by my death. Well, be it so; a deadly struggle would then
|
||
assuredly take place, in which if he was victorious, I should be at
|
||
peace, and his power over me be at an end. If he were vanquished, I
|
||
should be a free man. Alas! what freedom? such as the peasant enjoys
|
||
when his family have been massacred before his eyes, his cottage burnt,
|
||
his lands laid waste, and he is turned adrift, homeless, pennyless, and
|
||
alone, but free. Such would be my liberty, except that in my Elizabeth I
|
||
possessed a treasure; alas! balanced by those horrors of remorse and
|
||
guilt, which would pursue me until death.
|
||
|
||
Sweet and beloved Elizabeth! I read and re-read her letter, and some
|
||
softened feelings stole into my heart, and dared to whisper paradisaical
|
||
dreams of love and joy; but the apple was already eaten, and the
|
||
angel’s arm bared to drive me from all hope. Yet I would die to make her
|
||
happy. If the monster executed his threat, death was inevitable; yet,
|
||
again, I considered whether my marriage would hasten my fate. My
|
||
destruction might indeed arrive a few months sooner; but if my torturer
|
||
should suspect that I postponed it, influenced by his menaces, he would
|
||
surely find other, and perhaps more dreadful means of revenge. He had
|
||
vowed _to be with me on my wedding-night_, yet he did not consider that
|
||
threat as binding him to peace in the mean time; for, as if to shew me
|
||
that he was not yet satiated with blood, he had murdered Clerval
|
||
immediately after the enunciation of his threats. I resolved, therefore,
|
||
that if my immediate union with my cousin would conduce either to her’s
|
||
or my father’s happiness, my adversary’s designs against my life should
|
||
not retard it a single hour.
|
||
|
||
In this state of mind I wrote to Elizabeth. My letter was calm and
|
||
affectionate. “I fear, my beloved girl,” I said, “little happiness
|
||
remains for us on earth; yet all that I may one day enjoy is concentered
|
||
in you. Chase away your idle fears; to you alone do I consecrate my
|
||
life, and my endeavours for contentment. I have one secret, Elizabeth, a
|
||
dreadful one; when revealed to you, it will chill your frame with
|
||
horror, and then, far from being surprised at my misery, you will only
|
||
wonder that I survive what I have endured. I will confide this tale of
|
||
misery and terror to you the day after our marriage shall take place;
|
||
for, my sweet cousin, there must be perfect confidence between us. But
|
||
until then, I conjure you, do not mention or allude to it. This I most
|
||
earnestly entreat, and I know you will comply.”
|
||
|
||
In about a week after the arrival of Elizabeth’s letter, we returned to
|
||
Geneva. My cousin welcomed me with warm affection; yet tears were in her
|
||
eyes, as she beheld my emaciated frame and feverish cheeks. I saw a
|
||
change in her also. She was thinner, and had lost much of that heavenly
|
||
vivacity that had before charmed me; but her gentleness, and soft looks
|
||
of compassion, made her a more fit companion for one blasted and
|
||
miserable as I was.
|
||
|
||
The tranquillity which I now enjoyed did not endure. Memory brought
|
||
madness with it; and when I thought on what had passed, a real insanity
|
||
possessed me; sometimes I was furious, and burnt with rage, sometimes
|
||
low and despondent. I neither spoke or looked, but sat motionless,
|
||
bewildered by the multitude of miseries that overcame me.
|
||
|
||
Elizabeth alone had the power to draw me from these fits; her gentle
|
||
voice would soothe me when transported by passion, and inspire me with
|
||
human feelings when sunk in torpor. She wept with me, and for me. When
|
||
reason returned, she would remonstrate, and endeavour to inspire me with
|
||
resignation. Ah! it is well for the unfortunate to be resigned, but for
|
||
the guilty there is no peace. The agonies of remorse poison the luxury
|
||
there is otherwise sometimes found in indulging the excess of grief.
|
||
|
||
Soon after my arrival my father spoke of my immediate marriage with my
|
||
cousin. I remained silent.
|
||
|
||
“Have you, then, some other attachment?”
|
||
|
||
“None on earth. I love Elizabeth, and look forward to our union with
|
||
delight. Let the day therefore be fixed; and on it I will consecrate
|
||
myself, in life or death, to the happiness of my cousin.”
|
||
|
||
“My dear Victor, do not speak thus. Heavy misfortunes have befallen us;
|
||
but let us only cling closer to what remains, and transfer our love for
|
||
those whom we have lost to those who yet live. Our circle will be small,
|
||
but bound close by the ties of affection and mutual misfortune. And when
|
||
time shall have softened your despair, new and dear objects of care will
|
||
be born to replace those of whom we have been so cruelly deprived.”
|
||
|
||
Such were the lessons of my father. But to me the remembrance of the
|
||
threat returned: nor can you wonder, that, omnipotent as the fiend had
|
||
yet been in his deeds of blood, I should almost regard him as
|
||
invincible; and that when he had pronounced the words, “_I shall be with
|
||
you on your wedding-night_,” I should regard the threatened fate as
|
||
unavoidable. But death was no evil to me, if the loss of Elizabeth were
|
||
balanced with it; and I therefore, with a contented and even cheerful
|
||
countenance, agreed with my father, that if my cousin would consent, the
|
||
ceremony should take place in ten days, and thus put, as I imagined, the
|
||
seal to my fate.
|
||
|
||
Great God! if for one instant I had thought what might be the hellish
|
||
intention of my fiendish adversary, I would rather have banished myself
|
||
for ever from my native country, and wandered a friendless outcast over
|
||
the earth, than have consented to this miserable marriage. But, as if
|
||
possessed of magic powers, the monster had blinded me to his real
|
||
intentions; and when I thought that I prepared only my own death, I
|
||
hastened that of a far dearer victim.
|
||
|
||
As the period fixed for our marriage drew nearer, whether from cowardice
|
||
or a prophetic feeling, I felt my heart sink within me. But I concealed
|
||
my feelings by an appearance of hilarity, that brought smiles and joy to
|
||
the countenance of my father, but hardly deceived the ever-watchful and
|
||
nicer eye of Elizabeth. She looked forward to our union with placid
|
||
contentment, not unmingled with a little fear, which past misfortunes
|
||
had impressed, that what now appeared certain and tangible happiness,
|
||
might soon dissipate into an airy dream, and leave no trace but deep and
|
||
everlasting regret.
|
||
|
||
Preparations were made for the event; congratulatory visits were
|
||
received; and all wore a smiling appearance. I shut up, as well as I
|
||
could, in my own heart the anxiety that preyed there, and entered with
|
||
seeming earnestness into the plans of my father, although they might
|
||
only serve as the decorations of my tragedy. A house was purchased for
|
||
us near Cologny, by which we should enjoy the pleasures of the country,
|
||
and yet be so near Geneva as to see my father every day; who would
|
||
still reside within the walls, for the benefit of Ernest, that he might
|
||
follow his studies at the schools.
|
||
|
||
In the mean time I took every precaution to defend my person, in case
|
||
the fiend should openly attack me. I carried pistols and a dagger
|
||
constantly about me, and was ever on the watch to prevent artifice; and
|
||
by these means gained a greater degree of tranquillity. Indeed, as the
|
||
period approached, the threat appeared more as a delusion, not to be
|
||
regarded as worthy to disturb my peace, while the happiness I hoped for
|
||
in my marriage wore a greater appearance of certainty, as the day fixed
|
||
for its solemnization drew nearer, and I heard it continually spoken of
|
||
as an occurrence which no accident could possibly prevent.
|
||
|
||
Elizabeth seemed happy; my tranquil demeanour contributed greatly to
|
||
calm her mind. But on the day that was to fulfil my wishes and my
|
||
destiny, she was melancholy, and a presentiment of evil pervaded her;
|
||
and perhaps also she thought of the dreadful secret, which I had
|
||
promised to reveal to her the following day. My father was in the mean
|
||
time overjoyed, and, in the bustle of preparation, only observed in the
|
||
melancholy of his niece the diffidence of a bride.
|
||
|
||
After the ceremony was performed, a large party assembled at my
|
||
father’s; but it was agreed that Elizabeth and I should pass the
|
||
afternoon and night at Evian, and return to Cologny the next morning. As
|
||
the day was fair, and the wind favourable, we resolved to go by water.
|
||
|
||
Those were the last moments of my life during which I enjoyed the
|
||
feeling of happiness. We passed rapidly along: the sun was hot, but we
|
||
were sheltered from its rays by a kind of canopy, while we enjoyed the
|
||
beauty of the scene, sometimes on one side of the lake, where we saw
|
||
Mont Salêve, the pleasant banks of Montalêgre, and at a distance,
|
||
surmounting all, the beautiful Mont Blânc, and the assemblage of snowy
|
||
mountains that in vain endeavour to emulate her; sometimes coasting the
|
||
opposite banks, we saw the mighty Jura opposing its dark side to the
|
||
ambition that would quit its native country, and an almost
|
||
insurmountable barrier to the invader who should wish to enslave it.
|
||
|
||
I took the hand of Elizabeth: “You are sorrowful, my love. Ah! if you
|
||
knew what I have suffered, and what I may yet endure, you would
|
||
endeavour to let me taste the quiet, and freedom from despair, that this
|
||
one day at least permits me to enjoy.”
|
||
|
||
“Be happy, my dear Victor,” replied Elizabeth; “there is, I hope,
|
||
nothing to distress you; and be assured that if a lively joy is not
|
||
painted in my face, my heart is contented. Something whispers to me not
|
||
to depend too much on the prospect that is opened before us; but I will
|
||
not listen to such a sinister voice. Observe how fast we move along, and
|
||
how the clouds which sometimes obscure, and sometimes rise above the
|
||
dome of Mont Blânc, render this scene of beauty still more interesting.
|
||
Look also at the innumerable fish that are swimming in the clear
|
||
waters, where we can distinguish every pebble that lies at the bottom.
|
||
What a divine day! how happy and serene all nature appears!”
|
||
|
||
Thus Elizabeth endeavoured to divert her thoughts and mine from all
|
||
reflection upon melancholy subjects. But her temper was fluctuating; joy
|
||
for a few instants shone in her eyes, but it continually gave place to
|
||
distraction and reverie.
|
||
|
||
The sun sunk lower in the heavens; we passed the river Drance, and
|
||
observed its path through the chasms of the higher, and the glens of the
|
||
lower hills. The Alps here come closer to the lake, and we approached
|
||
the amphitheatre of mountains which forms its eastern boundary. The
|
||
spire of Evian shone under the woods that surrounded it, and the range
|
||
of mountain above mountain by which it was overhung.
|
||
|
||
The wind, which had hitherto carried us along with amazing rapidity,
|
||
sunk at sunset to a light breeze; the soft air just ruffled the water,
|
||
and caused a pleasant motion among the trees as we approached the shore,
|
||
from which it wafted the most delightful scent of flowers and hay. The
|
||
sun sunk beneath the horizon as we landed; and as I touched the shore, I
|
||
felt those cares and fears revive, which soon were to clasp me, and
|
||
cling to me for ever.
|
||
|
||
|
||
|
||
|
||
CHAPTER VI.
|
||
|
||
|
||
It was eight o’clock when we landed; we walked for a short time on the
|
||
shore, enjoying the transitory light, and then retired to the inn, and
|
||
contemplated the lovely scene of waters, woods, and mountains, obscured
|
||
in darkness, yet still displaying their black outlines.
|
||
|
||
The wind, which had fallen in the south, now rose with great violence in
|
||
the west. The moon had reached her summit in the heavens, and was
|
||
beginning to descend; the clouds swept across it swifter than the flight
|
||
of the vulture, and dimmed her rays, while the lake reflected the scene
|
||
of the busy heavens, rendered still busier by the restless waves that
|
||
were beginning to rise. Suddenly a heavy storm of rain descended.
|
||
|
||
I had been calm during the day; but so soon as night obscured the shapes
|
||
of objects, a thousand fears arose in my mind. I was anxious and
|
||
watchful, while my right hand grasped a pistol which was hidden in my
|
||
bosom; every sound terrified me; but I resolved that I would sell my
|
||
life dearly, and not relax the impending conflict until my own life, or
|
||
that of my adversary, were extinguished.
|
||
|
||
Elizabeth observed my agitation for some time in timid and fearful
|
||
silence; at length she said, “What is it that agitates you, my dear
|
||
Victor? What is it you fear?”
|
||
|
||
“Oh! peace, peace, my love,” replied I, “this night, and all will be
|
||
safe: but this night is dreadful, very dreadful.”
|
||
|
||
I passed an hour in this state of mind, when suddenly I reflected how
|
||
dreadful the combat which I momentarily expected would be to my wife,
|
||
and I earnestly entreated her to retire, resolving not to join her until
|
||
I had obtained some knowledge as to the situation of my enemy.
|
||
|
||
She left me, and I continued some time walking up and down the passages
|
||
of the house, and inspecting every corner that might afford a retreat to
|
||
my adversary. But I discovered no trace of him, and was beginning to
|
||
conjecture that some fortunate chance had intervened to prevent the
|
||
execution of his menaces; when suddenly I heard a shrill and dreadful
|
||
scream. It came from the room into which Elizabeth had retired. As I
|
||
heard it, the whole truth rushed into my mind, my arms dropped, the
|
||
motion of every muscle and fibre was suspended; I could feel the blood
|
||
trickling in my veins, and tingling in the extremities of my limbs. This
|
||
state lasted but for an instant; the scream was repeated, and I rushed
|
||
into the room.
|
||
|
||
Great God! why did I not then expire! Why am I here to relate the
|
||
destruction of the best hope, and the purest creature of earth. She was
|
||
there, lifeless and inanimate, thrown across the bed, her head hanging
|
||
down, and her pale and distorted features half covered by her hair.
|
||
Every where I turn I see the same figure—her bloodless arms and relaxed
|
||
form flung by the murderer on its bridal bier. Could I behold this, and
|
||
live? Alas! life is obstinate, and clings closest where it is most
|
||
hated. For a moment only did I lose recollection; I fainted.
|
||
|
||
When I recovered, I found myself surrounded by the people of the inn;
|
||
their countenances expressed a breathless terror: but the horror of
|
||
others appeared only as a mockery, a shadow of the feelings that
|
||
oppressed me. I escaped from them to the room where lay the body of
|
||
Elizabeth, my love, my wife, so lately living, so dear, so worthy. She
|
||
had been moved from the posture in which I had first beheld her; and
|
||
now, as she lay, her head upon her arm, and a handkerchief thrown across
|
||
her face and neck, I might have supposed her asleep. I rushed towards
|
||
her, and embraced her with ardour; but the deathly languor and coldness
|
||
of the limbs told me, that what I now held in my arms had ceased to be
|
||
the Elizabeth whom I had loved and cherished. The murderous mark of the
|
||
fiend’s grasp was on her neck, and the breath had ceased to issue from
|
||
her lips.
|
||
|
||
While I still hung over her in the agony of despair, I happened to look
|
||
up. The windows of the room had before been darkened; and I felt a kind
|
||
of panic on seeing the pale yellow light of the moon illuminate the
|
||
chamber. The shutters had been thrown back; and, with a sensation of
|
||
horror not to be described, I saw at the open window a figure the most
|
||
hideous and abhorred. A grin was on the face of the monster; he seemed
|
||
to jeer, as with his fiendish finger he pointed towards the corpse of my
|
||
wife. I rushed towards the window, and drawing a pistol from my bosom,
|
||
shot; but he eluded me, leaped from his station, and, running with the
|
||
swiftness of lightning, plunged into the lake.
|
||
|
||
The report of the pistol brought a crowd into the room. I pointed to the
|
||
spot where he had disappeared, and we followed the track with boats;
|
||
nets were cast, but in vain. After passing several hours, we returned
|
||
hopeless, most of my companions believing it to have been a form
|
||
conjured by my fancy. After having landed, they proceeded to search the
|
||
country, parties going in different directions among the woods and
|
||
vines.
|
||
|
||
I did not accompany them; I was exhausted: a film covered my eyes, and
|
||
my skin was parched with the heat of fever. In this state I lay on a
|
||
bed, hardly conscious of what had happened; my eyes wandered round the
|
||
room, as if to seek something that I had lost.
|
||
|
||
At length I remembered that my father would anxiously expect the return
|
||
of Elizabeth and myself, and that I must return alone. This reflection
|
||
brought tears into my eyes, and I wept for a long time; but my thoughts
|
||
rambled to various subjects, reflecting on my misfortunes, and their
|
||
cause. I was bewildered in a cloud of wonder and horror. The death of
|
||
William, the execution of Justine, the murder of Clerval, and lastly of
|
||
my wife; even at that moment I knew not that my only remaining friends
|
||
were safe from the malignity of the fiend; my father even now might be
|
||
writhing under his grasp, and Ernest might be dead at his feet. This
|
||
idea made me shudder, and recalled me to action. I started up, and
|
||
resolved to return to Geneva with all possible speed.
|
||
|
||
There were no horses to be procured, and I must return by the lake; but
|
||
the wind was unfavourable, and the rain fell in torrents. However, it
|
||
was hardly morning, and I might reasonably hope to arrive by night. I
|
||
hired men to row, and took an oar myself, for I had always experienced
|
||
relief from mental torment in bodily exercise. But the overflowing
|
||
misery I now felt, and the excess of agitation that I endured, rendered
|
||
me incapable of any exertion. I threw down the oar; and, leaning my head
|
||
upon my hands, gave way to every gloomy idea that arose. If I looked up,
|
||
I saw the scenes which were familiar to me in my happier time, and which
|
||
I had contemplated but the day before in the company of her who was now
|
||
but a shadow and a recollection. Tears streamed from my eyes. The rain
|
||
had ceased for a moment, and I saw the fish play in the waters as they
|
||
had done a few hours before; they had then been observed by Elizabeth.
|
||
Nothing is so painful to the human mind as a great and sudden change.
|
||
The sun might shine, or the clouds might lour; but nothing could appear
|
||
to me as it had done the day before. A fiend had snatched from me every
|
||
hope of future happiness: no creature had ever been so miserable as I
|
||
was; so frightful an event is single in the history of man.
|
||
|
||
But why should I dwell upon the incidents that followed this last
|
||
overwhelming event. Mine has been a tale of horrors; I have reached
|
||
their _acme_, and what I must now relate can but be tedious to you. Know
|
||
that, one by one, my friends were snatched away; I was left desolate. My
|
||
own strength is exhausted; and I must tell, in a few words, what remains
|
||
of my hideous narration.
|
||
|
||
I arrived at Geneva. My father and Ernest yet lived; but the former sunk
|
||
under the tidings that I bore. I see him now, excellent and venerable
|
||
old man! his eyes wandered in vacancy, for they had lost their charm and
|
||
their delight—his niece, his more than daughter, whom he doated on with
|
||
all that affection which a man feels, who, in the decline of life,
|
||
having few affections, clings more earnestly to those that remain.
|
||
Cursed, cursed be the fiend that brought misery on his grey hairs, and
|
||
doomed him to waste in wretchedness! He could not live under the horrors
|
||
that were accumulated around him; an apoplectic fit was brought on, and
|
||
in a few days he died in my arms.
|
||
|
||
What then became of me? I know not; I lost sensation, and chains and
|
||
darkness were the only objects that pressed upon me. Sometimes, indeed,
|
||
I dreamt that I wandered in flowery meadows and pleasant vales with the
|
||
friends of my youth; but awoke, and found myself in a dungeon.
|
||
Melancholy followed, but by degrees I gained a clear conception of my
|
||
miseries and situation, and was then released from my prison. For they
|
||
had called me mad; and during many months, as I understood, a solitary
|
||
cell had been my habitation.
|
||
|
||
But liberty had been a useless gift to me had I not, as I awakened to
|
||
reason, at the same time awakened to revenge. As the memory of past
|
||
misfortunes pressed upon me, I began to reflect on their cause—the
|
||
monster whom I had created, the miserable dæmon whom I had sent abroad
|
||
into the world for my destruction. I was possessed by a maddening rage
|
||
when I thought of him, and desired and ardently prayed that I might have
|
||
him within my grasp to wreak a great and signal revenge on his cursed
|
||
head.
|
||
|
||
Nor did my hate long confine itself to useless wishes; I began to
|
||
reflect on the best means of securing him; and for this purpose, about a
|
||
month after my release, I repaired to a criminal judge in the town, and
|
||
told him that I had an accusation to make; that I knew the destroyer of
|
||
my family; and that I required him to exert his whole authority for the
|
||
apprehension of the murderer.
|
||
|
||
The magistrate listened to me with attention and kindness: “Be assured,
|
||
sir,” said he, “no pains or exertions on my part shall be spared to
|
||
discover the villain.”
|
||
|
||
“I thank you,” replied I; “listen, therefore, to the deposition that I
|
||
have to make. It is indeed a tale so strange, that I should fear you
|
||
would not credit it, were there not something in truth which, however
|
||
wonderful, forces conviction. The story is too connected to be mistaken
|
||
for a dream, and I have no motive for falsehood.” My manner, as I thus
|
||
addressed him, was impressive, but calm; I had formed in my own heart a
|
||
resolution to pursue my destroyer to death; and this purpose quieted my
|
||
agony, and provisionally reconciled me to life. I now related my history
|
||
briefly, but with firmness and precision, marking the dates with
|
||
accuracy, and never deviating into invective or exclamation.
|
||
|
||
The magistrate appeared at first perfectly incredulous, but as I
|
||
continued he became more attentive and interested; I saw him sometimes
|
||
shudder with horror, at others a lively surprise, unmingled with
|
||
disbelief, was painted on his countenance.
|
||
|
||
When I had concluded my narration, I said. “This is the being whom I
|
||
accuse, and for whose detection and punishment I call upon you to exert
|
||
your whole power. It is your duty as a magistrate, and I believe and
|
||
hope that your feelings as a man will not revolt from the execution of
|
||
those functions on this occasion.”
|
||
|
||
This address caused a considerable change in the physiognomy of my
|
||
auditor. He had heard my story with that half kind of belief that is
|
||
given to a tale of spirits and supernatural events; but when he was
|
||
called upon to act officially in consequence, the whole tide of his
|
||
incredulity returned. He, however, answered mildly, “I would willingly
|
||
afford you every aid in your pursuit; but the creature of whom you
|
||
speak appears to have powers which would put all my exertions to
|
||
defiance. Who can follow an animal which can traverse the sea of ice,
|
||
and inhabit caves and dens, where no man would venture to intrude?
|
||
Besides, some months have elapsed since the commission of his crimes,
|
||
and no one can conjecture to what place he has wandered, or what region
|
||
he may now inhabit.”
|
||
|
||
“I do not doubt that he hovers near the spot which I inhabit; and if he
|
||
has indeed taken refuge in the Alps, he may be hunted like the chamois,
|
||
and destroyed as a beast of prey. But I perceive your thoughts: you do
|
||
not credit my narrative, and do not intend to pursue my enemy with the
|
||
punishment which is his desert.”
|
||
|
||
As I spoke, rage sparkled in my eyes; the magistrate was intimidated;
|
||
“You are mistaken,” said he, “I will exert myself; and if it is in my
|
||
power to seize the monster, be assured that he shall suffer punishment
|
||
proportionate to his crimes. But I fear, from what you have yourself
|
||
described to be his properties, that this will prove impracticable, and
|
||
that, while every proper measure is pursued, you should endeavour to
|
||
make up your mind to disappointment.”
|
||
|
||
“That cannot be; but all that I can say will be of little avail. My
|
||
revenge is of no moment to you; yet, while I allow it to be a vice, I
|
||
confess that it is the devouring and only passion of my soul. My rage is
|
||
unspeakable, when I reflect that the murderer, whom I have turned loose
|
||
upon society, still exists. You refuse my just demand: I have but one
|
||
resource; and I devote myself, either in my life or death, to his
|
||
destruction.”
|
||
|
||
I trembled with excess of agitation as I said this; there was a phrenzy
|
||
in my manner, and something, I doubt not, of that haughty fierceness,
|
||
which the martyrs of old are said to have possessed. But to a Genevan
|
||
magistrate, whose mind was occupied by far other ideas than those of
|
||
devotion and heroism, this elevation of mind had much the appearance of
|
||
madness. He endeavoured to soothe me as a nurse does a child, and
|
||
reverted to my tale as the effects of delirium.
|
||
|
||
“Man,” I cried, “how ignorant art thou in thy pride of wisdom! Cease;
|
||
you know not what it is you say.”
|
||
|
||
I broke from the house angry and disturbed, and retired to meditate on
|
||
some other mode of action.
|
||
|
||
|
||
|
||
|
||
CHAPTER VII.
|
||
|
||
|
||
My present situation was one in which all voluntary thought was
|
||
swallowed up and lost. I was hurried away by fury; revenge alone endowed
|
||
me with strength and composure; it modelled my feelings, and allowed me
|
||
to be calculating and calm, at periods when otherwise delirium or death
|
||
would have been my portion.
|
||
|
||
My first resolution was to quit Geneva for ever; my country, which, when
|
||
I was happy and beloved, was dear to me, now, in my adversity, became
|
||
hateful. I provided myself with a sum of money, together with a few
|
||
jewels which had belonged to my mother, and departed.
|
||
|
||
And now my wanderings began, which are to cease but with life. I have
|
||
traversed a vast portion of the earth, and have endured all the
|
||
hardships which travellers, in deserts and barbarous countries, are wont
|
||
to meet. How I have lived I hardly know; many times have I stretched my
|
||
failing limbs upon the sandy plain, and prayed for death. But revenge
|
||
kept me alive; I dared not die, and leave my adversary in being.
|
||
|
||
When I quitted Geneva, my first labour was to gain some clue by which I
|
||
might trace the steps of my fiendish enemy. But my plan was unsettled;
|
||
and I wandered many hours around the confines of the town, uncertain
|
||
what path I should pursue. As night approached, I found myself at the
|
||
entrance of the cemetery where William, Elizabeth, and my father,
|
||
reposed. I entered it, and approached the tomb which marked their
|
||
graves. Every thing was silent, except the leaves of the trees, which
|
||
were gently agitated by the wind; the night was nearly dark; and the
|
||
scene would have been solemn and affecting even to an uninterested
|
||
observer. The spirits of the departed seemed to flit around, and to cast
|
||
a shadow, which was felt but seen not, around the head of the mourner.
|
||
|
||
The deep grief which this scene had at first excited quickly gave way to
|
||
rage and despair. They were dead, and I lived; their murderer also
|
||
lived, and to destroy him I must drag out my weary existence. I knelt on
|
||
the grass, and kissed the earth, and with quivering lips exclaimed, “By
|
||
the sacred earth on which I kneel, by the shades that wander near me, by
|
||
the deep and eternal grief that I feel, I swear; and by thee, O Night,
|
||
and by the spirits that preside over thee, I swear to pursue the dæmon,
|
||
who caused this misery, until he or I shall perish in mortal conflict.
|
||
For this purpose I will preserve my life: to execute this dear revenge,
|
||
will I again behold the sun, and tread the green herbage of earth, which
|
||
otherwise should vanish from my eyes for ever. And I call on you,
|
||
spirits of the dead; and on you, wandering ministers of vengeance, to
|
||
aid and conduct me in my work. Let the cursed and hellish monster drink
|
||
deep of agony; let him feel the despair that now torments me.”
|
||
|
||
I had begun my adjuration with solemnity, and an awe which almost
|
||
assured me that the shades of my murdered friends heard and approved my
|
||
devotion; but the furies possessed me as I concluded, and rage choaked
|
||
my utterance.
|
||
|
||
I was answered through the stillness of night by a loud and fiendish
|
||
laugh. It rung on my ears long and heavily; the mountains re-echoed it,
|
||
and I felt as if all hell surrounded me with mockery and laughter.
|
||
Surely in that moment I should have been possessed by phrenzy, and have
|
||
destroyed my miserable existence, but that my vow was heard, and that I
|
||
was reserved for vengeance. The laughter died away: when a well-known
|
||
and abhorred voice, apparently close to my ear, addressed me in an
|
||
audible whisper—“I am satisfied: miserable wretch! you have determined
|
||
to live, and I am satisfied.”
|
||
|
||
I darted towards the spot from which the sound proceeded; but the devil
|
||
eluded my grasp. Suddenly the broad disk of the moon arose, and shone
|
||
full upon his ghastly and distorted shape, as he fled with more than
|
||
mortal speed.
|
||
|
||
I pursued him; and for many months this has been my task. Guided by a
|
||
slight clue, I followed the windings of the Rhone, but vainly. The blue
|
||
Mediterranean appeared; and, by a strange chance, I saw the fiend enter
|
||
by night, and hide himself in a vessel bound for the Black Sea. I took
|
||
my passage in the same ship; but he escaped, I know not how.
|
||
|
||
Amidst the wilds of Tartary and Russia, although he still evaded me, I
|
||
have ever followed in his track. Sometimes the peasants, scared by this
|
||
horrid apparition, informed me of his path; sometimes he himself, who
|
||
feared that if I lost all trace I should despair and die, often left
|
||
some mark to guide me. The snows descended on my head, and I saw the
|
||
print of his huge step on the white plain. To you first entering on
|
||
life, to whom care is new, and agony unknown, how can you understand
|
||
what I have felt, and still feel? Cold, want, and fatigue, were the least
|
||
pains which I was destined to endure; I was cursed by some devil, and
|
||
carried about with me my eternal hell; yet still a spirit of good
|
||
followed and directed my steps, and, when I most murmured, would
|
||
suddenly extricate me from seemingly insurmountable difficulties.
|
||
Sometimes, when nature, overcome by hunger, sunk under the exhaustion, a
|
||
repast was prepared for me in the desert, that restored and inspirited
|
||
me. The fare was indeed coarse, such as the peasants of the country ate;
|
||
but I may not doubt that it was set there by the spirits that I had
|
||
invoked to aid me. Often, when all was dry, the heavens cloudless, and I
|
||
was parched by thirst, a slight cloud would bedim the sky, shed the few
|
||
drops that revived me, and vanish.
|
||
|
||
I followed, when I could, the courses of the rivers; but the dæmon
|
||
generally avoided these, as it was here that the population of the
|
||
country chiefly collected. In other places human beings were seldom
|
||
seen; and I generally subsisted on the wild animals that crossed my
|
||
path. I had money with me, and gained the friendship of the villagers by
|
||
distributing it, or bringing with me some food that I had killed, which,
|
||
after taking a small part, I always presented to those who had provided
|
||
me with fire and utensils for cooking.
|
||
|
||
My life, as it passed thus, was indeed hateful to me, and it was during
|
||
sleep alone that I could taste joy. O blessed sleep! often, when most
|
||
miserable, I sank to repose, and my dreams lulled me even to rapture.
|
||
The spirits that guarded me had provided these moments, or rather hours,
|
||
of happiness, that I might retain strength to fulfil my pilgrimage.
|
||
Deprived of this respite, I should have sunk under my hardships. During
|
||
the day I was sustained and inspirited by the hope of night: for in
|
||
sleep I saw my friends, my wife, and my beloved country; again I saw the
|
||
benevolent countenance of my father, heard the silver tones of my
|
||
Elizabeth’s voice, and beheld Clerval enjoying health and youth. Often,
|
||
when wearied by a toilsome march, I persuaded myself that I was dreaming
|
||
until night should come, and that I should then enjoy reality in the
|
||
arms of my dearest friends. What agonizing fondness did I feel for them!
|
||
how did I cling to their dear forms, as sometimes they haunted even my
|
||
waking hours, and persuade myself that they still lived! At such
|
||
moments vengeance, that burned within me, died in my heart, and I
|
||
pursued my path towards the destruction of the dæmon, more as a task
|
||
enjoined by heaven, as the mechanical impulse of some power of which I
|
||
was unconscious, than as the ardent desire of my soul.
|
||
|
||
What his feelings were whom I pursued, I cannot know. Sometimes, indeed,
|
||
he left marks in writing on the barks of the trees, or cut in stone,
|
||
that guided me, and instigated my fury. “My reign is not yet over,”
|
||
(these words were legible in one of these inscriptions); “you live, and
|
||
my power is complete. Follow me; I seek the everlasting ices of the
|
||
north, where you will feel the misery of cold and frost, to which I am
|
||
impassive. You will find near this place, if you follow not too tardily,
|
||
a dead hare; eat, and be refreshed. Come on, my enemy; we have yet to
|
||
wrestle for our lives; but many hard and miserable hours must you
|
||
endure, until that period shall arrive.”
|
||
|
||
Scoffing devil! Again do I vow vengeance; again do I devote thee,
|
||
miserable fiend, to torture and death. Never will I omit my search,
|
||
until he or I perish; and then with what ecstacy shall I join my
|
||
Elizabeth, and those who even now prepare for me the reward of my
|
||
tedious toil and horrible pilgrimage.
|
||
|
||
As I still pursued my journey to the northward, the snows thickened, and
|
||
the cold increased in a degree almost too severe to support. The
|
||
peasants were shut up in their hovels, and only a few of the most hardy
|
||
ventured forth to seize the animals whom starvation had forced from
|
||
their hiding places to seek for prey. The rivers were covered with ice,
|
||
and no fish could be procured; and thus I was cut off from my chief
|
||
article of maintenance.
|
||
|
||
The triumph of my enemy increased with the difficulty of my labours. One
|
||
inscription that he left was in these words: “Prepare! your toils only
|
||
begin: wrap yourself in furs, and provide food, for we shall soon enter
|
||
upon a journey where your sufferings will satisfy my everlasting
|
||
hatred.”
|
||
|
||
My courage and perseverance were invigorated by these scoffing words; I
|
||
resolved not to fail in my purpose; and, calling on heaven to support
|
||
me, I continued with unabated fervour to traverse immense deserts, until
|
||
the ocean appeared at a distance, and formed the utmost boundary of the
|
||
horizon. Oh! how unlike it was to the blue seas of the south! Covered
|
||
with ice, it was only to be distinguished from land by its superior
|
||
wildness and ruggedness. The Greeks wept for joy when they beheld the
|
||
Mediterranean from the hills of Asia, and hailed with rapture the
|
||
boundary of their toils. I did not weep; but I knelt down, and, with a
|
||
full heart, thanked my guiding spirit for conducting me in safety to the
|
||
place where I hoped, notwithstanding my adversary’s gibe, to meet and
|
||
grapple with him.
|
||
|
||
Some weeks before this period I had procured a sledge and dogs, and thus
|
||
traversed the snows with inconceivable speed. I know not whether the
|
||
fiend possessed the same advantages; but I found that, as before I had
|
||
daily lost ground in the pursuit, I now gained on him; so much so, that
|
||
when I first saw the ocean, he was but one day’s journey in advance, and
|
||
I hoped to intercept him before he should reach the beach. With new
|
||
courage, therefore, I pressed on, and in two days arrived at a wretched
|
||
hamlet on the seashore. I inquired of the inhabitants concerning the
|
||
fiend, and gained accurate information. A gigantic monster, they said,
|
||
had arrived the night before, armed with a gun and many pistols; putting
|
||
to flight the inhabitants of a solitary cottage, through fear of his
|
||
terrific appearance. He had carried off their store of winter food, and,
|
||
placing it in a sledge, to draw which he had seized on a numerous drove
|
||
of trained dogs, he had harnessed them, and the same night, to the joy
|
||
of the horror-struck villagers, had pursued his journey across the sea
|
||
in a direction that led to no land; and they conjectured that he must
|
||
speedily be destroyed by the breaking of the ice, or frozen by the
|
||
eternal frosts.
|
||
|
||
On hearing this information, I suffered a temporary access of despair.
|
||
He had escaped me; and I must commence a destructive and almost endless
|
||
journey across the mountainous ices of the ocean,—amidst cold that few
|
||
of the inhabitants could long endure, and which I, the native of a
|
||
genial and sunny climate, could not hope to survive. Yet at the idea
|
||
that the fiend should live and be triumphant, my rage and vengeance
|
||
returned, and, like a mighty tide, overwhelmed every other feeling.
|
||
After a slight repose, during which the spirits of the dead hovered
|
||
round, and instigated me to toil and revenge, I prepared for my
|
||
journey.
|
||
|
||
I exchanged my land sledge for one fashioned for the inequalities of the
|
||
frozen ocean; and, purchasing a plentiful stock of provisions, I
|
||
departed from land.
|
||
|
||
I cannot guess how many days have passed since then; but I have endured
|
||
misery, which nothing but the eternal sentiment of a just retribution
|
||
burning within my heart could have enabled me to support. Immense and
|
||
rugged mountains of ice often barred up my passage, and I often heard
|
||
the thunder of the ground sea, which threatened my destruction. But
|
||
again the frost came, and made the paths of the sea secure.
|
||
|
||
By the quantity of provision which I had consumed I should guess that I
|
||
had passed three weeks in this journey; and the continual protraction of
|
||
hope, returning back upon the heart, often wrung bitter drops of
|
||
despondency and grief from my eyes. Despair had indeed almost secured
|
||
her prey, and I should soon have sunk beneath this misery; when once,
|
||
after the poor animals that carried me had with incredible toil gained
|
||
the summit of a sloping ice mountain, and one sinking under his fatigue
|
||
died, I viewed the expanse before me with anguish, when suddenly my eye
|
||
caught a dark speck upon the dusky plain. I strained my sight to
|
||
discover what it could be, and uttered a wild cry of ecstacy when I
|
||
distinguished a sledge, and the distorted proportions of a well-known
|
||
form within. Oh! with what a burning gush did hope revisit my heart!
|
||
warm tears filled my eyes, which I hastily wiped away, that they might
|
||
not intercept the view I had of the dæmon; but still my sight was dimmed
|
||
by the burning drops, until, giving way to the emotions that oppressed
|
||
me, I wept aloud.
|
||
|
||
But this was not the time for delay; I disencumbered the dogs of their
|
||
dead companion, gave them a plentiful portion of food; and, after an
|
||
hour’s rest, which was absolutely necessary, and yet which was bitterly
|
||
irksome to me, I continued my route. The sledge was still visible; nor
|
||
did I again lose sight of it, except at the moments when for a short
|
||
time some ice rock concealed it with its intervening crags. I indeed
|
||
perceptibly gained on it; and when, after nearly two days’ journey, I
|
||
beheld my enemy at no more than a mile distant, my heart bounded within
|
||
me.
|
||
|
||
But now, when I appeared almost within grasp of my enemy, my hopes were
|
||
suddenly extinguished, and I lost all trace of him more utterly than I
|
||
had ever done before. A ground sea was heard; the thunder of its
|
||
progress, as the waters rolled and swelled beneath me, became every
|
||
moment more ominous and terrific. I pressed on, but in vain. The wind
|
||
arose; the sea roared; and, as with the mighty shock of an earthquake,
|
||
it split, and cracked with a tremendous and overwhelming sound. The work
|
||
was soon finished: in a few minutes a tumultuous sea rolled between me
|
||
and my enemy, and I was left drifting on a scattered piece of ice, that
|
||
was continually lessening, and thus preparing for me a hideous death.
|
||
|
||
In this manner many appalling hours passed; several of my dogs died; and
|
||
I myself was about to sink under the accumulation of distress, when I
|
||
saw your vessel riding at anchor, and holding forth to me hopes of
|
||
succour and life. I had no conception that vessels ever came so far
|
||
north, and was astounded at the sight. I quickly destroyed part of my
|
||
sledge to construct oars; and by these means was enabled, with infinite
|
||
fatigue, to move my ice-raft in the direction of your ship. I had
|
||
determined, if you were going southward, still to trust myself to the
|
||
mercy of the seas, rather than abandon my purpose. I hoped to induce you
|
||
to grant me a boat with which I could still pursue my enemy. But your
|
||
direction was northward. You took me on board when my vigour was
|
||
exhausted, and I should soon have sunk under my multiplied hardships
|
||
into a death, which I still dread,—for my task is unfulfilled.
|
||
|
||
Oh! when will my guiding spirit, in conducting me to the dæmon, allow me
|
||
the rest I so much desire; or must I die, and he yet live? If I do,
|
||
swear to me, Walton, that he shall not escape; that you will seek him,
|
||
and satisfy my vengeance in his death. Yet, do I dare ask you to
|
||
undertake my pilgrimage, to endure the hardships that I have undergone?
|
||
No; I am not so selfish. Yet, when I am dead, if he should appear; if
|
||
the ministers of vengeance should conduct him to you, swear that he
|
||
shall not live—swear that he shall not triumph over my accumulated
|
||
woes, and live to make another such a wretch as I am. He is eloquent
|
||
and persuasive; and once his words had even power over my heart: but
|
||
trust him not. His soul is as hellish as his form, full of treachery and
|
||
fiend-like malice. Hear him not; call on the manes of William, Justine,
|
||
Clerval, Elizabeth, my father, and of the wretched Victor, and thrust
|
||
your sword into his heart. I will hover near, and direct the steel
|
||
aright.
|
||
|
||
* * * * *
|
||
|
||
WALTON, _in continuation_.
|
||
|
||
August 26th, 17—.
|
||
|
||
You have read this strange and terrific story, Margaret; and do you not
|
||
feel your blood congealed with horror, like that which even now curdles
|
||
mine? Sometimes, seized with sudden agony, he could not continue his
|
||
tale; at others, his voice broken, yet piercing, uttered with difficulty
|
||
the words so replete with agony. His fine and lovely eyes were now
|
||
lighted up with indignation, now subdued to downcast sorrow, and
|
||
quenched in infinite wretchedness. Sometimes he commanded his
|
||
countenance and tones, and related the most horrible incidents with a
|
||
tranquil voice, suppressing every mark of agitation; then, like a
|
||
volcano bursting forth, his face would suddenly change to an expression
|
||
of the wildest rage, as he shrieked out imprecations on his persecutor.
|
||
|
||
His tale is connected, and told with an appearance of the simplest
|
||
truth; yet I own to you that the letters of Felix and Safie, which he
|
||
shewed me, and the apparition of the monster, seen from our ship,
|
||
brought to me a greater conviction of the truth of his narrative than
|
||
his asseverations, however earnest and connected. Such a monster has
|
||
then really existence; I cannot doubt it; yet I am lost in surprise and
|
||
admiration. Sometimes I endeavoured to gain from Frankenstein the
|
||
particulars of his creature’s formation; but on this point he was
|
||
impenetrable.
|
||
|
||
“Are you mad, my friend?” said he, “or whither does your senseless
|
||
curiosity lead you? Would you also create for yourself and the world a
|
||
demoniacal enemy? Or to what do your questions tend? Peace, peace! learn
|
||
my miseries, and do not seek to increase your own.”
|
||
|
||
Frankenstein discovered that I made notes concerning his history: he
|
||
asked to see them, and then himself corrected and augmented them in many
|
||
places; but principally in giving the life and spirit to the
|
||
conversations he held with his enemy. “Since you have preserved my
|
||
narration,” said he, “I would not that a mutilated one should go down to
|
||
posterity.”
|
||
|
||
Thus has a week passed away, while I have listened to the strangest tale
|
||
that ever imagination formed. My thoughts, and every feeling of my soul,
|
||
have been drunk up by the interest for my guest, which this tale, and
|
||
his own elevated and gentle manners have created. I wish to soothe him;
|
||
yet can I counsel one so infinitely miserable, so destitute of every
|
||
hope of consolation, to live? Oh, no! the only joy that he can now know
|
||
will be when he composes his shattered feelings to peace and death. Yet
|
||
he enjoys one comfort, the offspring of solitude and delirium: he
|
||
believes, that, when in dreams he holds converse with his friends, and
|
||
derives from that communion consolation for his miseries, or excitements
|
||
to his vengeance, that they are not the creations of his fancy, but the
|
||
real beings who visit him from the regions of a remote world. This faith
|
||
gives a solemnity to his reveries that render them to me almost as
|
||
imposing and interesting as truth.
|
||
|
||
Our conversations are not always confined to his own history and
|
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misfortunes. On every point of general literature he displays unbounded
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||
knowledge, and a quick and piercing apprehension. His eloquence is
|
||
forcible and touching; nor can I hear him, when he relates a pathetic
|
||
incident, or endeavours to move the passions of pity or love, without
|
||
tears. What a glorious creature must he have been in the days of his
|
||
prosperity, when he is thus noble and godlike in ruin. He seems to feel
|
||
his own worth, and the greatness of his fall.
|
||
|
||
“When younger,” said he, “I felt as if I were destined for some great
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||
enterprise. My feelings are profound; but I possessed a coolness of
|
||
judgment that fitted me for illustrious achievements. This sentiment of
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||
the worth of my nature supported me, when others would have been
|
||
oppressed; for I deemed it criminal to throw away in useless grief those
|
||
talents that might be useful to my fellow-creatures. When I reflected on
|
||
the work I had completed, no less a one than the creation of a
|
||
sensitive and rational animal, I could not rank myself with the herd of
|
||
common projectors. But this feeling, which supported me in the
|
||
commencement of my career, now serves only to plunge me lower in the
|
||
dust. All my speculations and hopes are as nothing; and, like the
|
||
archangel who aspired to omnipotence, I am chained in an eternal hell.
|
||
My imagination was vivid, yet my powers of analysis and application were
|
||
intense; by the union of these qualities I conceived the idea, and
|
||
executed the creation of a man. Even now I cannot recollect, without
|
||
passion, my reveries while the work was incomplete. I trod heaven in my
|
||
thoughts, now exulting in my powers, now burning with the idea of their
|
||
effects. From my infancy I was imbued with high hopes and a lofty
|
||
ambition; but how am I sunk! Oh! my friend, if you had known me as I
|
||
once was, you would not recognize me in this state of degradation.
|
||
Despondency rarely visited my heart; a high destiny seemed to bear me
|
||
on, until I fell, never, never again to rise.”
|
||
|
||
Must I then lose this admirable being? I have longed for a friend; I
|
||
have sought one who would sympathize with and love me. Behold, on these
|
||
desert seas I have found such a one; but, I fear, I have gained him only
|
||
to know his value, and lose him. I would reconcile him to life, but he
|
||
repulses the idea.
|
||
|
||
“I thank you, Walton,” he said, “for your kind intentions towards so
|
||
miserable a wretch; but when you speak of new ties, and fresh
|
||
affections, think you that any can replace those who are gone? Can any
|
||
man be to me as Clerval was; or any woman another Elizabeth? Even where
|
||
the affections are not strongly moved by any superior excellence, the
|
||
companions of our childhood always possess a certain power over our
|
||
minds, which hardly any later friend can obtain. They know our infantine
|
||
dispositions, which, however they may be afterwards modified, are never
|
||
eradicated; and they can judge of our actions with more certain
|
||
conclusions as to the integrity of our motives. A sister or a brother
|
||
can never, unless indeed such symptoms have been shewn early, suspect
|
||
the other of fraud or false dealing, when another friend, however
|
||
strongly he may be attached, may, in spite of himself, be invaded with
|
||
suspicion. But I enjoyed friends, dear not only through habit and
|
||
association, but from their own merits; and, wherever I am, the soothing
|
||
voice of my Elizabeth, and the conversation of Clerval, will be ever
|
||
whispered in my ear. They are dead; and but one feeling in such a
|
||
solitude can persuade me to preserve my life. If I were engaged in any
|
||
high undertaking or design, fraught with extensive utility to my
|
||
fellow-creatures, then could I live to fulfil it. But such is not my
|
||
destiny; I must pursue and destroy the being to whom I gave existence;
|
||
then my lot on earth will be fulfilled, and I may die.”
|
||
|
||
* * * * *
|
||
|
||
September 2d.
|
||
|
||
MY BELOVED SISTER,
|
||
|
||
I write to you, encompassed by peril, and ignorant whether I am ever
|
||
doomed to see again dear England, and the dearer friends that inhabit
|
||
it. I am surrounded by mountains of ice, which admit of no escape, and
|
||
threaten every moment to crush my vessel. The brave fellows, whom I have
|
||
persuaded to be my companions, look towards me for aid; but I have none
|
||
to bestow. There is something terribly appalling in our situation, yet
|
||
my courage and hopes do not desert me. We may survive; and if we do not,
|
||
I will repeat the lessons of my Seneca, and die with a good heart.
|
||
|
||
Yet what, Margaret, will be the state of your mind? You will not hear of
|
||
my destruction, and you will anxiously await my return. Years will pass,
|
||
and you will have visitings of despair, and yet be tortured by hope. Oh!
|
||
my beloved sister, the sickening failings of your heart-felt
|
||
expectations are, in prospect, more terrible to me than my own death.
|
||
But you have a husband, and lovely children; you may be happy: heaven
|
||
bless you, and make you so!
|
||
|
||
My unfortunate guest regards me with the tenderest compassion. He
|
||
endeavours to fill me with hope; and talks as if life were a possession
|
||
which he valued. He reminds me how often the same accidents have
|
||
happened to other navigators, who have attempted this sea, and, in spite
|
||
of myself, he fills me with cheerful auguries. Even the sailors feel the
|
||
power of his eloquence: when he speaks, they no longer despair: he
|
||
rouses their energies, and, while they hear his voice, they believe
|
||
these vast mountains of ice are mole-hills, which will vanish before the
|
||
resolutions of man. These feelings are transitory; each day’s
|
||
expectation delayed fills them with fear, and I almost dread a mutiny
|
||
caused by this despair.
|
||
|
||
* * * * *
|
||
|
||
September 5th.
|
||
|
||
A scene has just passed of such uncommon interest, that although it is
|
||
highly probable that these papers may never reach you, yet I cannot
|
||
forbear recording it.
|
||
|
||
We are still surrounded by mountains of ice, still in imminent danger of
|
||
being crushed in their conflict. The cold is excessive, and many of my
|
||
unfortunate comrades have already found a grave amidst this scene of
|
||
desolation. Frankenstein has daily declined in health: a feverish fire
|
||
still glimmers in his eyes; but he is exhausted, and, when suddenly
|
||
roused to any exertion, he speedily sinks again into apparent
|
||
lifelessness.
|
||
|
||
I mentioned in my last letter the fears I entertained of a mutiny. This
|
||
morning, as I sat watching the wan countenance of my friend—his eyes
|
||
half closed, and his limbs hanging listlessly,—I was roused by half a
|
||
dozen of the sailors, who desired admission into the cabin. They
|
||
entered; and their leader addressed me. He told me that he and his
|
||
companions had been chosen by the other sailors to come in deputation to
|
||
me, to make me a demand, which, in justice, I could not refuse. We were
|
||
immured in ice, and should probably never escape; but they feared that
|
||
if, as was possible, the ice should dissipate, and a free passage be
|
||
opened, I should be rash enough to continue my voyage, and lead them
|
||
into fresh dangers, after they might happily have surmounted this. They
|
||
desired, therefore, that I should engage with a solemn promise, that if
|
||
the vessel should be freed, I would instantly direct my coarse
|
||
southward.
|
||
|
||
This speech troubled me. I had not despaired; nor had I yet conceived
|
||
the idea of returning, if set free. Yet could I, in justice, or even in
|
||
possibility, refuse this demand? I hesitated before I answered; when
|
||
Frankenstein, who had at first been silent, and, indeed, appeared hardly
|
||
to have force enough to attend, now roused himself; his eyes sparkled,
|
||
and his cheeks flushed with momentary vigour. Turning towards the men,
|
||
he said—
|
||
|
||
“What do you mean? What do you demand of your captain? Are you then so
|
||
easily turned from your design? Did you not call this a glorious
|
||
expedition? and wherefore was it glorious? Not because the way was
|
||
smooth and placid as a southern sea, but because it was full of dangers
|
||
and terror; because, at every new incident, your fortitude was to be
|
||
called forth, and your courage exhibited; because danger and death
|
||
surrounded, and these dangers you were to brave and overcome. For this
|
||
was it a glorious, for this was it an honourable undertaking. You were
|
||
hereafter to be hailed as the benefactors of your species; your name
|
||
adored, as belonging to brave men who encountered death for honour and
|
||
the benefit of mankind. And now, behold, with the first imagination of
|
||
danger, or, if you will, the first mighty and terrific trial of your
|
||
courage, you shrink away, and are content to be handed down as men who
|
||
had not strength enough to endure cold and peril; and so, poor souls,
|
||
they were chilly, and returned to their warm fire-sides. Why, that
|
||
requires not this preparation; ye need not have come thus far, and
|
||
dragged your captain to the shame of a defeat, merely to prove
|
||
yourselves cowards. Oh! be men, or be more than men. Be steady to your
|
||
purposes, and firm as a rock. This ice is not made of such stuff as your
|
||
hearts might be; it is mutable, cannot withstand you, if you say that it
|
||
shall not. Do not return to your families with the stigma of disgrace
|
||
marked on your brows. Return as heroes who have fought and conquered,
|
||
and who know not what it is to turn their backs on the foe.”
|
||
|
||
He spoke this with a voice so modulated to the different feelings
|
||
expressed in his speech, with an eye so full of lofty design and
|
||
heroism, that can you wonder that these men were moved. They looked at
|
||
one another, and were unable to reply. I spoke; I told them to retire,
|
||
and consider of what had been said: that I would not lead them further
|
||
north, if they strenuously desired the contrary; but that I hoped that,
|
||
with reflection, their courage would return.
|
||
|
||
They retired, and I turned towards my friend; but he was sunk in
|
||
languor, and almost deprived of life.
|
||
|
||
How all this will terminate, I know not; but I had rather die, than
|
||
return shamefully,—my purpose unfulfilled. Yet I fear such will be my
|
||
fate; the men, unsupported by ideas of glory and honour, can never
|
||
willingly continue to endure their present hardships.
|
||
|
||
* * * * *
|
||
|
||
September 7th.
|
||
|
||
The die is cast; I have consented to return, if we are not destroyed.
|
||
Thus are my hopes blasted by cowardice and indecision; I come back
|
||
ignorant and disappointed. It requires more philosophy than I possess,
|
||
to bear this injustice with patience.
|
||
|
||
* * * * *
|
||
|
||
September 12th.
|
||
|
||
It is past; I am returning to England. I have lost my hopes of utility
|
||
and glory;—I have lost my friend. But I will endeavour to detail these
|
||
bitter circumstances to you, my dear sister; and, while I am wafted
|
||
towards England, and towards you, I will not despond.
|
||
|
||
September 19th, the ice began to move, and roarings like thunder were
|
||
heard at a distance, as the islands split and cracked in every
|
||
direction. We were in the most imminent peril; but, as we could only
|
||
remain passive, my chief attention was occupied by my unfortunate guest,
|
||
whose illness increased in such a degree, that he was entirely confined
|
||
to his bed. The ice cracked behind us, and was driven with force towards
|
||
the north; a breeze sprung from the west, and on the 11th the passage
|
||
towards the south became perfectly free. When the sailors saw this, and
|
||
that their return to their native country was apparently assured, a
|
||
shout of tumultuous joy broke from them, loud and long-continued.
|
||
Frankenstein, who was dozing, awoke, and asked the cause of the tumult.
|
||
“They shout,” I said, “because they will soon return to England.”
|
||
|
||
“Do you then really return?”
|
||
|
||
“Alas! yes; I cannot withstand their demands. I cannot lead them
|
||
unwillingly to danger, and I must return.”
|
||
|
||
“Do so, if you will; but I will not. You may give up your purpose; but
|
||
mine is assigned to me by heaven, and I dare not. I am weak; but surely
|
||
the spirits who assist my vengeance will endow me with sufficient
|
||
strength.” Saying this, he endeavoured to spring from the bed, but the
|
||
exertion was too great for him; he fell back, and fainted.
|
||
|
||
It was long before he was restored; and I often thought that life was
|
||
entirely extinct. At length he opened his eyes, but he breathed with
|
||
difficulty, and was unable to speak. The surgeon gave him a composing
|
||
draught, and ordered us to leave him undisturbed. In the mean time he
|
||
told me, that my friend had certainly not many hours to live.
|
||
|
||
His sentence was pronounced; and I could only grieve, and be patient. I
|
||
sat by his bed watching him; his eyes were closed, and I thought he
|
||
slept; but presently he called to me in a feeble voice, and, bidding me
|
||
come near, said—“Alas! the strength I relied on is gone; I feel that I
|
||
shall soon die, and he, my enemy and persecutor, may still be in being.
|
||
Think not, Walton, that in the last moments of my existence I feel that
|
||
burning hatred, and ardent desire of revenge, I once expressed, but I
|
||
feel myself justified in desiring the death of my adversary. During
|
||
these last days I have been occupied in examining my past conduct; nor
|
||
do I find it blameable. In a fit of enthusiastic madness I created a
|
||
rational creature, and was bound towards him, to assure, as far as was
|
||
in my power, his happiness and well-being. This was my duty; but there
|
||
was another still paramount to that. My duties towards my
|
||
fellow-creatures had greater claims to my attention, because they
|
||
included a greater proportion of happiness or misery. Urged by this
|
||
view, I refused, and I did right in refusing, to create a companion for
|
||
the first creature. He shewed unparalleled malignity and selfishness, in
|
||
evil: he destroyed my friends; he devoted to destruction beings who
|
||
possessed exquisite sensations, happiness, and wisdom; nor do I know
|
||
where this thirst for vengeance may end. Miserable himself, that he may
|
||
render no other wretched, he ought to die. The task of his destruction
|
||
was mine, but I have failed. When actuated by selfish and vicious
|
||
motives, I asked you to undertake my unfinished work; and I renew this
|
||
request now, when I am only induced by reason and virtue.
|
||
|
||
“Yet I cannot ask you to renounce your country and friends, to fulfil
|
||
this task; and now, that you are returning to England, you will have
|
||
little chance of meeting with him. But the consideration of these
|
||
points, and the well-balancing of what you may esteem your duties, I
|
||
leave to you; my judgment and ideas are already disturbed by the near
|
||
approach of death. I dare not ask you to do what I think right, for I
|
||
may still be misled by passion.
|
||
|
||
“That he should live to be an instrument of mischief disturbs me; in
|
||
other respects this hour, when I momentarily expect my release, is the
|
||
only happy one which I have enjoyed for several years. The forms of the
|
||
beloved dead flit before me, and I hasten to their arms. Farewell,
|
||
Walton! Seek happiness in tranquillity, and avoid ambition, even if it
|
||
be only the apparently innocent one of distinguishing yourself in
|
||
science and discoveries. Yet why do I say this? I have myself been
|
||
blasted in these hopes, yet another may succeed.”
|
||
|
||
His voice became fainter as he spoke; and at length, exhausted by his
|
||
effort, he sunk into silence. About half an hour afterwards he attempted
|
||
again to speak, but was unable; he pressed my hand feebly, and his eyes
|
||
closed for ever, while the irradiation of a gentle smile passed away
|
||
from his lips.
|
||
|
||
Margaret, what comment can I make on the untimely extinction of this
|
||
glorious spirit? What can I say, that will enable you to understand the
|
||
depth of my sorrow? All that I should express would be inadequate and
|
||
feeble. My tears flow; my mind is overshadowed by a cloud of
|
||
disappointment. But I journey towards England, and I may there find
|
||
consolation.
|
||
|
||
I am interrupted. What do these sounds portend? It is midnight; the
|
||
breeze blows fairly, and the watch on deck scarcely stir. Again; there
|
||
is a sound as of a human voice, but hoarser; it comes from the cabin
|
||
where the remains of Frankenstein still lie. I must arise, and examine.
|
||
Good night, my sister.
|
||
|
||
Great God! what a scene has just taken place! I am yet dizzy with the
|
||
remembrance of it. I hardly know whether I shall have the power to
|
||
detail it; yet the tale which I have recorded would be incomplete
|
||
without this final and wonderful catastrophe.
|
||
|
||
I entered the cabin, where lay the remains of my ill-fated and admirable
|
||
friend. Over him hung a form which I cannot find words to describe;
|
||
gigantic in stature, yet uncouth and distorted in its proportions. As he
|
||
hung over the coffin, his face was concealed by long locks of ragged
|
||
hair; but one vast hand was extended, in colour and apparent texture
|
||
like that of a mummy. When he heard the sound of my approach, he ceased
|
||
to utter exclamations of grief and horror, and sprung towards the
|
||
window. Never did I behold a vision so horrible as his face, of such
|
||
loathsome, yet appalling hideousness. I shut my eyes involuntarily, and
|
||
endeavoured to recollect what were my duties with regard to this
|
||
destroyer. I called on him to stay.
|
||
|
||
He paused, looking on me with wonder; and, again turning towards the
|
||
lifeless form of his creator, he seemed to forget my presence, and every
|
||
feature and gesture seemed instigated by the wildest rage of some
|
||
uncontrollable passion.
|
||
|
||
“That is also my victim!” he exclaimed; “in his murder my crimes are
|
||
consummated; the miserable series of my being is wound to its close! Oh,
|
||
Frankenstein! generous and self-devoted being! what does it avail that I
|
||
now ask thee to pardon me? I, who irretrievably destroyed thee by
|
||
destroying all thou lovedst. Alas! he is cold; he may not answer me.”
|
||
|
||
His voice seemed suffocated; and my first impulses, which had suggested
|
||
to me the duty of obeying the dying request of my friend, in destroying
|
||
his enemy, were now suspended by a mixture of curiosity and compassion.
|
||
I approached this tremendous being; I dared not again raise my looks
|
||
upon his face, there was something so scaring and unearthly in his
|
||
ugliness. I attempted to speak, but the words died away on my lips. The
|
||
monster continued to utter wild and incoherent self-reproaches. At
|
||
length I gathered resolution to address him, in a pause of the tempest
|
||
of his passion: “Your repentance,” I said, “is now superfluous. If you
|
||
had listened to the voice of conscience, and heeded the stings of
|
||
remorse, before you had urged your diabolical vengeance to this
|
||
extremity, Frankenstein would yet have lived.”
|
||
|
||
“And do you dream?” said the dæmon; “do you think that I was then dead
|
||
to agony and remorse?—He,” he continued, pointing to the corpse, “he
|
||
suffered not more in the consummation of the deed;—oh! not the
|
||
ten-thousandth portion of the anguish that was mine during the lingering
|
||
detail of its execution. A frightful selfishness hurried me on, while
|
||
my heart was poisoned with remorse. Think ye that the groans of Clerval
|
||
were music to my ears? My heart was fashioned to be susceptible of love
|
||
and sympathy; and, when wrenched by misery to vice and hatred, it did
|
||
not endure the violence of the change without torture such as you cannot
|
||
even imagine.
|
||
|
||
“After the murder of Clerval, I returned to Switzerland, heart-broken
|
||
and overcome. I pitied Frankenstein; my pity amounted to horror: I
|
||
abhorred myself. But when I discovered that he, the author at once of my
|
||
existence and of its unspeakable torments, dared to hope for happiness;
|
||
that while he accumulated wretchedness and despair upon me, he sought
|
||
his own enjoyment in feelings and passions from the indulgence of which
|
||
I was for ever barred, then impotent envy and bitter indignation filled
|
||
me with an insatiable thirst for vengeance. I recollected my threat, and
|
||
resolved that it should be accomplished. I knew that I was preparing for
|
||
myself a deadly torture; but I was the slave, not the master of an
|
||
impulse, which I detested, yet could not disobey. Yet when she
|
||
died!—nay, then I was not miserable. I had cast off all feeling,
|
||
subdued all anguish to riot in the excess of my despair. Evil
|
||
thenceforth became my good. Urged thus far, I had no choice but to adapt
|
||
my nature to an element which I had willingly chosen. The completion of
|
||
my demoniacal design became an insatiable passion. And now it is ended;
|
||
there is my last victim!”
|
||
|
||
I was at first touched by the expressions of his misery; yet when I
|
||
called to mind what Frankenstein had said of his powers of eloquence and
|
||
persuasion, and when I again cast my eyes on the lifeless form of my
|
||
friend, indignation was re-kindled within me. “Wretch!” I said, “it is
|
||
well that you come here to whine over the desolation that you have made.
|
||
You throw a torch into a pile of buildings, and when they are consumed
|
||
you sit among the ruins, and lament the fall. Hypocritical fiend! if he
|
||
whom you mourn still lived, still would he be the object, again would he
|
||
become the prey of your accursed vengeance. It is not pity that you
|
||
feel; you lament only because the victim of your malignity is withdrawn
|
||
from your power.”
|
||
|
||
“Oh, it is not thus—not thus,” interrupted the being; “yet such must be
|
||
the impression conveyed to you by what appears to be the purport of my
|
||
actions. Yet I seek not a fellow-feeling in my misery. No sympathy may I
|
||
ever find. When I first sought it, it was the love of virtue, the
|
||
feelings of happiness and affection with which my whole being
|
||
overflowed, that I wished to be participated. But now, that virtue has
|
||
become to me a shadow, and that happiness and affection are turned into
|
||
bitter and loathing despair, in what should I seek for sympathy? I am
|
||
content to suffer alone, while my sufferings shall endure: when I die, I
|
||
am well satisfied that abhorrence and opprobrium should load my memory.
|
||
Once my fancy was soothed with dreams of virtue, of fame, and of
|
||
enjoyment. Once I falsely hoped to meet with beings, who, pardoning my
|
||
outward form, would love me for the excellent qualities which I was
|
||
capable of bringing forth. I was nourished with high thoughts of honour
|
||
and devotion. But now vice has degraded me beneath the meanest animal.
|
||
No crime, no mischief, no malignity, no misery, can be found comparable
|
||
to mine. When I call over the frightful catalogue of my deeds, I cannot
|
||
believe that I am he whose thoughts were once filled with sublime and
|
||
transcendant visions of the beauty and the majesty of goodness. But it
|
||
is even so; the fallen angel becomes a malignant devil. Yet even that
|
||
enemy of God and man had friends and associates in his desolation; I am
|
||
quite alone.
|
||
|
||
“You, who call Frankenstein your friend, seem to have a knowledge of my
|
||
crimes and his misfortunes. But, in the detail which he gave you of
|
||
them, he could not sum up the hours and months of misery which I
|
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endured, wasting in impotent passions. For whilst I destroyed his hopes,
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I did not satisfy my own desires. They were for ever ardent and craving;
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still I desired love and fellowship, and I was still spurned. Was there
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no injustice in this? Am I to be thought the only criminal, when all
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human kind sinned against me? Why do you not hate Felix, who drove his
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friend from his door with contumely? Why do you not execrate the rustic
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who sought to destroy the saviour of his child? Nay, these are virtuous
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and immaculate beings! I, the miserable and the abandoned, am an
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abortion, to be spurned at, and kicked, and trampled on. Even now my
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blood boils at the recollection of this injustice.
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“But it is true that I am a wretch. I have murdered the lovely and the
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helpless; I have strangled the innocent as they slept, and grasped to
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death his throat who never injured me or any other living thing. I have
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devoted my creator, the select specimen of all that is worthy of love
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and admiration among men, to misery; I have pursued him even to that
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irremediable ruin. There he lies, white and cold in death. You hate me;
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but your abhorrence cannot equal that with which I regard myself. I look
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on the hands which executed the deed; I think on the heart in which the
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imagination of it was conceived, and long for the moment when they will
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meet my eyes, when it will haunt my thoughts, no more.
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“Fear not that I shall be the instrument of future mischief. My work is
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nearly complete. Neither your’s nor any man’s death is needed to
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consummate the series of my being, and accomplish that which must be
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done; but it requires my own. Do not think that I shall be slow to
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perform this sacrifice. I shall quit your vessel on the ice-raft which
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brought me hither, and shall seek the most northern extremity of the
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globe; I shall collect my funeral pile, and consume to ashes this
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miserable frame, that its remains may afford no light to any curious and
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unhallowed wretch, who would create such another as I have been. I shall
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die. I shall no longer feel the agonies which now consume me, or be the
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prey of feelings unsatisfied, yet unquenched. He is dead who called me
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into being; and when I shall be no more, the very remembrance of us both
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will speedily vanish. I shall no longer see the sun or stars, or feel
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the winds play on my cheeks. Light, feeling, and sense, will pass away;
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and in this condition must I find my happiness. Some years ago, when the
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images which this world affords first opened upon me, when I felt the
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cheering warmth of summer, and heard the rustling of the leaves and the
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chirping of the birds, and these were all to me, I should have wept to
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die; now it is my only consolation. Polluted by crimes, and torn by the
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bitterest remorse, where can I find rest but in death?
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“Farewell! I leave you, and in you the last of human kind whom these
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eyes will ever behold. Farewell, Frankenstein! If thou wert yet alive,
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and yet cherished a desire of revenge against me, it would be better
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satiated in my life than in my destruction. But it was not so; thou
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didst seek my extinction, that I might not cause greater wretchedness;
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and if yet, in some mode unknown to me, thou hast not yet ceased to
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think and feel, thou desirest not my life for my own misery. Blasted as
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thou wert, my agony was still superior to thine; for the bitter sting of
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remorse may not cease to rankle in my wounds until death shall close
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them for ever.
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“But soon,” he cried, with sad and solemn enthusiasm, “I shall die, and
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what I now feel be no longer felt. Soon these burning miseries will be
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extinct. I shall ascend my funeral pile triumphantly, and exult in the
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agony of the torturing flames. The light of that conflagration will fade
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away; my ashes will be swept into the sea by the winds. My spirit will
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sleep in peace; or if it thinks, it will not surely think thus.
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Farewell.”
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He sprung from the cabin-window, as he said this, upon the ice-raft
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which lay close to the vessel. He was soon borne away by the waves, and
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lost in darkness and distance.
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THE END.
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